Plural Apostles

Yae Sakura gently flipped open the next page of letter paper.

[To be a human being, happiness is the most important thing, so you must not have too many interpersonal relationships, otherwise you will end up in trouble, because on the Internet where hearts are connected, other people's hearts will affect your own... But from the moment I started trying to get close to you , My thinking has changed, as a human being, if there are many people who are happy with me, then I will feel happier. 】

[Perhaps it was the luckiest fate. I met more people. I became the apostle of the main god, a demigod in name. You guys who feel that you can get close to each other started the first mission, and the result is not bad, the apostle of the Lord God and his assistants, it sounds great, doesn’t it? 】

[Ethics, secularity, money, material things... For us, these things are neither shackles nor necessary. We communicate with each other based on the thoughts in our hearts. I like this kind of bondage that transcends material things. It is pure and indifferent, and does not involve too much , only about each other. 】

[I used to think that I could acquiesce in the relationship between you and Karen, and that I didn't need to care about Karen. After all, falling in love is a matter between two people. If it is really love, then Karen and I should have nothing to do with each other. Between you and me The lines, between Kallen and you, should be parallel lines. 】

[It would be great if everything was so pure and simple, but I am an ordinary person after all, I will care about the connection between you and Kallen, I will feel uncomfortable, even if I am alone with you, I am sure I still love you deeply, But you can also feel that there is another person in your heart. 】

[Some things are destined not to be parallel, because they have the same node, and I believe Kallen is the same. You always feel that you care about another person in your heart, but her thoughts are not the same as mine. 】

[I persuaded myself and tried my best not to let myself be judged by your relationship with Karen, but Baili Yaomeng can tell at a glance that I have a grudge in my heart, even if my words and deeds are very serious. Be less expressive... It is never admirable to take a subjective tinge from irrelevant things. 】

【What is love to me?Mom and Dad vigorously pursue each other's future, mom betrayed the family, dad fights for the future, I always think they are very noble people, even if mom breaks up with the family, they still fulfill their responsibilities as children , although in the conflict between love and family affection, my mother abandoned her family affection, but she never gave up her responsibility. My father never liked his grandparents, and he was always out of sight and out of his mind, but he still fulfilled his son-in-law's responsibility. 】

[Too stupid, fool, idiot, too much money to burn... This is my previous opinion, but the more I experience, I feel that my parents will be human. They are emotional and resolutely abandon the former between family affection and love. They are rational and have never abandoned their inherent responsibilities. Even if they can use it, it doesn’t matter. The family relationship may have been reconnected long ago. 】

[I have always regretted that they did not enjoy their lives after the plane crash, but after a visit to the underworld and seeing their last smiles, this wish was fulfilled. 】

[Unfortunately, I can't do the same things as my parents. I have transcended the mortal society and am a demigod employee of the empire, but I am still an ordinary mortal. Maybe it is because love is only one part. I try my best to see the two lines as parallel lines. I want to deceive myself by saying that Karen is a woman and I am a man. I can accept the love between you and Karen, because some things are only possible between you and me... ...But you are the node of two lines, destined to have the moment when these two lines intersect and conflict. 】

[Meet someone you like, fall in love and enjoy this feeling, it doesn’t matter whether you give or not, and return or not, because I am sure that the person I fall in love with must be the right person, and then I will propose and get married, so that the once vigorous, eternal vows, brewing The longest relationship is not just family affection, but the deepest bond between heart and heart, and between people. 】

[I took the first two steps right, but I made a mistake in the step of proposing. When you didn't answer, I understood the answer. You were worried about Karen's opinion. Two seemingly parallel lines intersected from the beginning of. 】

[I know what you want, Xiaoba. Two pure and simple loves are not because you love the other when you see one, nor because you give up your responsibility. People who should exist at the same time. 】

[The love in your heart is pure and strong, as if it occupies your entire world. If you convert the emotions in your heart into numbers, for me, who is not the only love, this love is not half as good as yours.But I can't change my mind. 】

[You embrace two loves like embracing the whole world. The important thing is not the only one, but the two people you fall in love with, the two people who fall in love with you. , with the exception of love. 】

[You also know that love is not as important as many things to me. It is just a small corner of my heart, but it can also accommodate the only purity of each other. We have worked hard, but in the end we failed to change each other. You are inevitably in Influenced by Karen in getting along with me, I inevitably have a prejudice against an innocent person in my heart because of your performance. 】

[It has nothing to do with right or wrong, it has nothing to do with right and wrong, the conflict between people is just that. 】

[I, who claim to be extraordinary and have extraordinary IQ, are always an ordinary person. Why did I accept Teresa that day?Because of the pure love she showed?Because she took drugs and looked very beautiful to me?Trying to make yourself fall in love with another person because you can't stand your non-specificity?Because of pure physical desire?In hindsight, I found that these were all in bits and pieces. 】

[When love is no longer pure, when I take the initiative to betray you and my love... This is not to satirize you, because to me it means that I betrayed you, I took the initiative to accept the love of others, and betrayed my own thoughts The only one for each other, impulsive, sperm on the brain, revenge psychology, subjective self, desire psychology... I made a lot of mistakes. 】

[I also understand that the bond between us, I carefully maintain, but also let it inevitably go to another level, many people want to love me, but I can't convince myself to respond, I can't love So many people can't accept so much love. 】

[From the moment I hugged Teresa, I realized that I am a mortal, far from being as noble and stalwart as I thought. Maybe the love in my heart was broken at that time, and I can only accept Teresa's feelings with responsibility ... I should be sorry for her, as far as love is concerned. 】

[Xiaoba, when I wrote this letter, I was asking myself a question... Do I still love you?The conclusion is that I still love you, but I'm sorry, I can no longer accept your love, I can't love you in words and deeds, I can't make promises, I can't take responsibility, I can't respond, I can't call, is love still love?I don't think so, but I'm sure I still love you. 】

[I may have inherited the extreme stubbornness of my parents. Some things will never be flexible, and there is no difference. The result is that you have not changed me, and I have not been able to change myself. 】

Yae Sakura remained silent, and turned to the last page lightly with her fingers. Every time she read a line, she felt that the letter paper in her hand became a bit heavy, and she couldn't breathe under the pressure on her heart.

[I asked the boss a question, can time change everything?She said that I was not asking about time, and replied: Time cannot change everything, it just gives a carrier of change to those things that will eventually change. 】

[So, I pin my hopes on time, some responsibilities can only be assumed, and some things can only be accepted, but I am greedy for our connection... one year, ten years, 100 years, 1000 years 1 years...Maybe the budding love will find its destination, maybe the relationship will gradually become indifferent and broken, and become strangers, maybe gradually mature and understand that it is just a momentary impulse, maybe still persistently chasing what you want in your heart, maybe love will become another A kind of entanglement, maybe the stubborn me finally changed... The future is full of possibilities, which is so fascinating and scary. 】

[I've been thinking for a long time, but I still can't solve the current situation, because it has nothing to do with right or wrong, it's just that you and I desire different things, and it's up to people to make things happen...I don't have an answer, so I throw the question to time, after all We all lack this thing. 】

[Let's take a gamble with no outcome, bet on our future. 】

[On the premise of not interfering with your ego with power, I can only entrust everything to time, cast the dice called parting with my own hands, and wait for the moment when the dust settles. 】

[Before we meet again, cherish it, don't read it. 】

"Siegfried... It's up to man to plan, but it's up to God to make things happen?"

Yae Sakura murmured softly, walked out of Siegfried's bedroom, put the letter on the table in the hall, and then went upstairs to her bedroom. She tried to enter the stigmata space to find Siegfried, but Siegfried However, the stigmata space was completely sealed, and now she can only vaguely feel the direction of Siegfried.

"Hiyumaru, I have something to do, don't bother me."

Higokumaru blinked her eyes in a daze, not understanding what Yae Sakura meant, but she nodded quickly.

"Okay big sister!"

Chapter 580 IX Bai Wugou

"Siegfried, this is..."

Karen read the letters on the table complicatedly, and then looked at the others: "Well, is it because of me..."

"Do you like to take the blame so much? Siegfried himself said that it has nothing to do with right or wrong...it's just a conflict, a conflict between reality and ideas, a conflict between the present and the future." Ji Zi rubbed his brows and sighed, "De That guy Lisa also ran away, and I have to arrange the residence of that Siegfried and that Kiyana, where is Kiyana?"

"She's at her uncle's house..."

Raiden Mei seemed to be more refreshed. When she read this letter, she immediately regained her spirits. The laziness brought about by the medicine was driven away, and she returned to her usual state: "The matter about Siegfried and the principal... She probably cares a little bit, but you have to take care of the things in front of you first, after all, you also know the situation of Uncle and that Qiyana."

"Her? Looking after?" Ji Zi twitched the corners of his mouth, "I hope there won't be a fight... But all in all, what should I say now?"

Bronya stood with Hill holding the Hom doll, her eyes flickering in thought, but she didn't answer.

"Just do what you have to do. Teacher Siegfried doesn't just leave and never come back, just wait." Fu Hua said calmly, "He just went out for a trip, don't forget how many things are left now, O It is entrusted to carry out reforms to the Mandate of Heaven, popularize technology, and human society must witness real changes. There are still large and small affairs in St. Freya Academy, and Honkai has not completely disappeared. Created enough deterrence, but one day it will come back."

"We have a lot of things to do... Teacher Siegfried's matter, as he said, just wait for time to give everyone an answer."

Jizi folded her hands, frowned and sighed. She didn't like such a passive way, but the problem was that Siegfried slipped away with Teresa, and ran off on the Hyperion... Although they all flew It is not a problem to go to the universe, and it is not a problem to move a certain distance in the universe, but can you find Siegfried?Can you find a Hyperion that can hide at any time, fly faster than the speed of light, and even jump directly to another universe?

There are so many troubles, Siegfried's move makes people want to find him, and there is no way to go anywhere.

But it is true that after all, we have to deal with the matter in front of us.