Plural Apostles

"I divided the money and smuggled it among the poor, first to those who needed it most, then to the poor, and I left the money secretly and left, and those who received it knew that it was not used. This kind of thing is getting public, that is, gradually spreading the name of a strange thief Zi Yuan or something..."

Karen smiled, her eyes darkened: "During that time, I was convinced that I was really doing things for the people, I felt happy, and felt that I had lived up to the honor of my family and my father's will."

"If you do this, it must be a big accident, right?"

"The patrols and guards in the city would never find me, after all, they are just ordinary people, but..." Karen's eyes were slightly calm, "The Destiny Knights established to fight against the Houkai, was taken by the upper echelons In order to investigate the phantom thief Ziyuan, I have to personally go on stage to help the noble who exploits the people and capture the phantom thief Ziyuan, which is myself.”

"It's so funny, hehe... At that time, my view of Destiny has completely changed. There is no justice I pursue here, and there is nothing I protect here. But at that time, I gradually became separated from others in Destiny. It hasn't developed to the point of breaking up. If you think about it now, Otto must have been very helpless at that time. He was only the second son of the bishop, and he might be able to help me with some things, but my thoughts... Basically, it cannot be realized in the Mandate of Heaven at all, and Otto can't do that kind of thing either."

"I saw evil but couldn't destroy it. I saw light but couldn't give it to the world. After I finally understood everything, I fell into confusion again—what should I do?"

Speaking of this, Karen smiled: "To be honest, the confusion at that time should be said to be a kind of habit and uneasiness...whether I want to carry out my own ideas, whether it will cause serious consequences or other uneasiness? In other words, I'm scared, very scared... Then there's the black box, and Destiny is going to borrow the power of the black box."

"Will the Church of Destiny do good things? For good things for the people, I know that when power is used for good, it is good, and when it is used for evil, it is evil. After all, Valkyrie is controlling the power of Houkai, but..." Kallen said silently , "Mandate of Heaven has power. I didn't see how many things he did for the people. At that time, I was really angry. I wished I could lift the Mandate of Heaven and see how many crimes I hadn't seen under the sun."

"I finally made up my mind and snatched the black box in the church. Otto was there at the time, and there was a Valkyrie who was eroded by the power of the black box and turned into a dead soldier... In the church, Otto and I Farewell, I rebelled against the destiny and escaped from Europe. I went to Taixu Mountain in Shenzhou, but Fu Hua was nowhere to be found. Behind me were the people sent by destiny to hunt and kill me. I fought and ran away. I don’t want to hurt those people. Those people once They are all my comrades-in-arms on the battlefield."

"In the end, I was exiled to Yae Village, and later died at the hands of Higokumaru..."

The little fox in the room who was eating potato chips hurriedly said, "Hey, hey! Don't frame me, you clearly..."

"Eat meat, don't talk nonsense!" Siegfried threw a piece of barbecued meat, Hiyumaru jumped up and bit it in his mouth with a whimper, then the little fox stared, his body stiffened.

Siegfried glanced at him: Are you sure you want to call?

"Gulu..." Hiyumaru swallowed the roast meat, and then guzzled Coke.

"That's about it..." Karen breathed a sigh of relief, and then looked at Siegfried, "To be honest, I was surprised when you said that Otto has always loved me, but calm down and think about it carefully." , indeed it can be reflected in many places, so, Siegfried, what do you think I should do?"

"...You, Kiyana, and Teresa all have very similar personalities." Siegfried handed Kallen a piece of barbecue, "You already have the answer to this question, don't you? At a loss, I just know that a good friend has always liked you, and at the same time, this friend has done a lot of things that you can't accept, and I don't know how to deal with it."

"But if you want to talk about love...you said so much just now, what you said was your own path, your own ideals, and your own will. For you in the past, your own changes are the key points, and Otto is just one of you. Friends, whether he loves you or not, those things are not more important in your heart, even if I tell you that he did those things to revive you, you probably won't change your mind."

"That's right for you to say that..." Kallen chewed on the barbecue and smiled wryly, "I can be sure of my own mind, I don't love him, when I was in the Church of Destiny, I was thinking about my responsibilities and paths, running away After I met Sakura, I gradually noticed love... Siegfried, what do you think of love?"

"Have I told you before? The cause of love is very complicated and very simple. A look, a smile, a word, appearance, character, temperament, behavior, wealth, etc., all these can form love, you When you fell in love with Xiao Ba at the beginning, it is very likely that after you escaped alone, you were lonely in your heart, and you had a need for friends and social interaction."

Siegfried was grilling the meat, his expression was as calm and indifferent as ever: "It's unfair to love this kind of thing."

"Not...fair?" Karen ate the barbecue in a daze.

"Standard human beings possess wisdom and emotion, but they are always limited by emotion. Rationality needs to look at everything objectively, while sensibility drives him to speak from the standpoint of what he likes and condemns what he hates. , This is human nature, but it is not good to overdo it. For example, if you like a person who regards him as a saint, ignore or interpret all his objective and evil words and deeds, hate a person who condemns him as a scum, and trample on or ignore all his objective justice. words and deeds."

"In order to resurrect you, Otto has lived until now and has done the things you saw, can you accept it?" Siegfried smiled, "You definitely can't, because you would rather not be resurrected than Otto. Otto did those things, but Otto would rather you be resurrected than do those things, it has nothing to do with right or wrong, it’s just a contradiction between your thoughts and ideas.”

"Is all development inevitable or accidental? Your character is like this, Otto's is like this, the environment of the Church of Destiny is like this... People are always talking about ifs, but there have never been ifs in this world, so everything in the past is destiny inevitable."

Siegfried sprinkled salt on the barbecue: "So, you don't have to feel guilty...Love itself is like this. The loved one has no responsibility to give love to the one who loves himself. People who love others have no right to demand that the other party love themselves the same , This kind of thing cannot be exchanged at equal value, if you don’t love it, you don’t love it.”

Kallen ate the barbecue, "????" flashed in her eyes.

"You just don't have Fu Hua's understanding." Siegfried paused, "For example, a man gives a woman 100 million and asks her to marry him, because he loves that woman, but the woman refuses, There is nothing wrong with both sides. Another example is that a man loves a woman and tries his best to help that woman. When he finally shows his love, the woman refuses... Does this sound wrong to you? But it is just your sensibility It's just deceiving you, both sides are giving, it's just not loving."

"Otto is a smart man. He knows that you don't love him. He still gives so much. If you refuse, it's still fine. You don't need to carry a lot of psychological baggage about it. After all..."

"At the right time, you were thinking about your life, at the wrong time, Otto did the last thing you wanted to see, and... when you think about the cause of your death, it's even more impossible gone."

Karen silently ate the barbecue.

"If there is no love, then love is unfair, but this is only an objective statement. If you think it is unfair subjectively, "why did you give so much and there is no return", "why doesn't she love yourself" and other thoughts appear, then It can only show that this person is nothing more than that.”

"Siegfried... If it were you, what would you do?" Karen looked up at Siegfried, "falling in love with someone who doesn't love me."

"Then try to do things that make the other party happy and make the other party fall in love with you, if it's really not possible..." Siegfried tilted his head and looked at Karen with a strange expression, "Is love important?"

"what?"

"Life is like a banquet, and love is just the most dazzling and fragrant dish." Siegfried smiled and handed Kallen a piece of barbecue, "From the moment I became the apostle of the Lord God, my position was the empire... …Love is wonderful, and it is worth my efforts to pursue, but there are also more wonderful things that I need to pursue.”

"It's not something I can do to seek death and life because I don't love, and to blame myself."

So...you don't care about the matter between me and Sakura?Because you don't care.

Kallen chewed on the barbecue, feeling much more relaxed, and she gradually came to her senses.

"Oh." Siegfried shook the empty jar, "I've run out of salt."

Salt?Karen froze for a moment, and then felt a bitterness at the base of her tongue. This mouth was extremely bitter... There was too much salt, so bitter that it made me want to vomit! !

"Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!"

Fei Yuwan flew out and silently handed over the Coke.

"Gurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..." Kallen was drinking coke, trying to kill Siegfried with her eyes.

"The barbecue is so delicious." Siegfried ate the barbecue calmly, then shook his head, "Unfortunately, you ate most of it."

Did you eat it?Karen instantly felt snowflakes floating in her heart - the salty taste.

crunch...

The bedroom door opened slightly, and Yae Sakura walked in slowly with a plate, and handed a bowl of soup to Karen: "Drink this, it's not good to drink too much Coke."

"Thank you, Sakura!" Kallen hurriedly picked up the soup and began to gurgle.

Siegfried made a table, and Yae Sakura put the supper on the table on the table. She had been here for a long time, and she was just outside the door. Siegfried also knew that only Karen was recalling her past, and she had no Notice someone outside the door.

After drinking the soup, Kallen regained her strength, looked at Yae Sakura in embarrassment, and then scratched her head: "Sakura, there is a reason why I appeared in Siegfried's bedroom..."