Nirvana In Fire

That evening Xiao Jingrui brought an imperial doctor to come to Mei Changsu to diagnose the pulse, but when the doctor heard that the patient was taking the pills made by the cold doctor Xunzhen, he didn't dare to say anything at all. He just said, "Resume more, don't be emotional." ", He will leave immediately.

Mei Changsu pretended to go to bed early, sent Xiao Jingrui to go with the doctor, but did not really go to bed, but put on a jacket, pushed open the window, sat quietly under the window sill, staring at the sky The meniscus seems to be lost in thought.

Feiliu came over and sat on the little carpet beside him, leaning his head on his knee and shaking.

Mei Changsu looked down at the black-haired head on his knee, reached out and rubbed it gently, and asked softly, "What's wrong with us? Feeling lonely?"

Feiliu looked up and looked at him clearly, saying, "Don't be sad!"

Mei Changsu was a little stunned. After a while, he showed a soft smile. "I'm just thinking about something, and I'm not disappointed. I don't have to worry about Fei Liu."

Fei Liu shook his head and insisted: "Don't be sad!"

At that moment, Mei Changsu felt that his whole heart was suddenly sore, as if he could not hold it, and only a whimper of air was lifted on his chest, supporting the control of the body's actions and expressions.

How easy it is to not be sad.

You only need to find a scenic spot, retreat in seclusion, and then get two or three friends. You often have a hug, no intrigue, no conspiracy to betray, and the old disease can be cured. Not for? Unfortunately, after all, it can only be an extravagant hope. Anything that has been carried on the upper body, no matter how heavy and painful, must be gritted and carried to the end.

"Fei Liu, would you like to go back to Langzhou?" Mei Changsu asked, whispering, touching his head.

Fei Liu's eyes were wide at once, and he rushed forward, hugging Mei Changsu's waist: "No!"

"I can write a letter to Brother Lin Chen, telling him not to tease you in the future, is that all right?"

"No!"

"But Fei Liu," Mei Changsu's tone with an inexplicable sadness, "If you stay with me, you will see me getting worse and worse, and by the time ... even Fei Liu will become Sad ... "

"Feiliu like this," the teenager pressed his face tightly to Mei Changsu's knee. "It won't hurt!"

"Is that enough?" Mei Changsu sighed long, "As long as you can stay beside me and rest on my knees, can you be happy?"

"Happy Fei Liu!"

Mei Changsu gently hugged the take-off face, and slowly stroked his forehead with his fingertips, his expression was more sad: "Well ... In this case, then I should at least be able to keep your happiness ... You have to remember that no matter what happens in the future, do n’t be afraid, because someone will always take care of you, and you will always be me ... the happiest child ... "

Feiliu blinked and didn't understand the meaning of these words, but he could feel the warm goodwill in the words, so he learned Mei Changsu on the cold face that was not used to smiling. There was a smile, although the stiff pull of the corner of his mouth was a little weird, but it was already a rare expression of his emotions.

"We Fei Liu is so cute. When we return to Langzhou in the future, we will laugh and show Brother Lin Chen how well?"

"not good!"

"why?"

"He's bad!"

"You hate Brother Lin Chen so much," Mei Changsu smiled softly and silently, and put Fei Liu into his arms, shaking slowly, "Still hello ... if I can be as carefree as you, I can be like you Just be so happy ... "

Feiliu broke away from his arms, straightened himself, and said seriously: "Yes!"

Mei Changsu looked at him tenderly: "Is it really possible?"

"Yes!" Fei Liu repeated it, got up and dragged a high stool over, sat up on his own, and then put Mei Changsula on the carpet to sit down, moved his head and put it on his knee: "Xiang Same flow! Brother Su can do it too! "

Mei Changsu felt that the corners of his eyes were somewhat moist and wet, leaning on Fei Liu's knees, feeling that his fingers penetrated into his hair, gently rubbing and rubbing, rubbing his purest love and dependence into In your own body.

"We are still clever," Mei Changsu closed his eyes tightly and muttered, "It turns out that Brother Su can also do this ..."

"Yes!" Fei Liu tried to smile again, shaking his knees and slowly humming a soothing tune.

"This song, Fei Liu also learned?"

"Learn! Fei Liu Sing!"

Mei Changsu took a deep breath and tried to relax every muscle fiber in the whole body.

"Sleep!" Fei Liudao said.

"Fei Liu is sleepy, do you want to sleep?"

"No! Brother Su sleeps! Fei Liu beats the bad guys!"

Suddenly Mei Changsu immediately understood the meaning of Fei Liu, frowning: "Someone has come to Xuelu?"

"Uh!" Fei Liu nodded, "Outside! Uncle! Fei Liu went to beat him!"

Mei Changsu was relieved, holding Fei Liu's arm and stood up, facing the window and said, "Brother Meng, please come in."

As soon as his words fell, a figure flashed in, obviously a muscular figure, but his actions were quick and ghostly.

"Uncle is a guest of Brother Su. Let's go to bed without flying. Will we go to bed first?" Mei Changsu coaxed the teenager into the inner room, and Mengzhi also came behind.

After Fei Liu lay on his bed obediently and closed his eyes to sleep, the two older people sat at the round table in the middle of the room.

"Have the two of them gone?" Mei Changsu asked Meng Zhi for a cup of tea.

"I told you what you meant, but looking at Wei Zheng, he didn't want to leave ..."

"So what does he want to do?"

"Stay in Beijing to help you.

He said this is everyone ’s business and you ca n’t let you take it alone ... ”

"Nonsense!" Mei Chang Su said angrily, "Can he be the same as me? I am alone, but he has a cloud girl."

These twelve years of life are farewell to death, Yun Yun waits for him with great intent, and finally waits until he earns a life back, two people can do their best, and stay together, what is he doing? I don't need him here, he wants to go, he has to go if he doesn't want to go! "

"You don't have to be angry," Meng Zhi persuaded slowly. "I don't know Wei Zheng yet? No matter what you think in your heart, he will always listen to your orders.

I am only worried about you now. You just came to the capital alone, did you bring any support? "

"I brought Fei Liu."

"Just that kid?" Meng Zhi glanced over at the bed, "I'm sorry to say that day, I didn't know that this kid was yours. I was shocked by his body style. I was curious and shot, and didn't mess with you. What trouble? "

"No." Mei Changsu said lightly. "It's just showing the limelight."

"Why don't you inform me this time before you come? There is no preparation now, how can I help you?"

"Are you going to help me?" Mei Changsu smiled with a trace of indifference, "Forget it, you are now a forbidden army commander, with deep grace, why should I be tired? As long as I pretend not to know me, I have already helped My business is busy. "

Meng Zhi gritted her teeth, and there was a slight rage between her brows. "Are you sincere in saying this? Do you think I am so kind?"

Mei Changsu gave a light smile that was barely visible, and pressed his palm against his elbow's elbow. He squeezed it hard and whispered, "Brother Meng, how can I not understand your heart.

And regardless of the feelings of those of us who were in the original robe, you alone will not stand idly by your Ren Xia's character.

But the fact that I want to do has no chance of winning, and I do n’t want to get you in. One accidentally, you have been in the name of loyalty for generations, I am afraid that it will be destroyed once ... "

"Loyalty is in the heart, not in the name.

As long as you do not directly harm the emperor, you will never be my enemy. "

"Is the emperor? The emperor is always a knife, and he has to rely on him to kill and stab," Mei Changsu's lips floated with a smile: "It seems that you have guessed my purpose for entering Beijing long ago. . "

"Yes, I think I can guess." Meng Zhi's eyes were filled with anxiety. "But Prince and Yu Wang, it's easy for you to break one, but it's difficult for them to get rid of them together.

In any case, Your Majesty must keep one! "

"That's not necessary." Mei Changsu sneered, "The emperor is not the only two sons."

Meng Zhi probably never thought about the possibility of anyone other than Prince and King Yu succeeding to the throne. His expression was shocked: "You ... do you want to support King Jing?"

"Is there anything wrong?"

"I know that you have a good relationship with Jing Wang, and I don't underestimate his ability.

To be honest, his unfavorable conditions are nothing but the low status of his mother, which has never been valued by the emperor. These can be changed after more performance.

But the most important thing is that King Jing is naturally bad at plotting power, and he hates disputes over power. How dangerous is it to seize his enemies? ! "

Mei Changsu Ba teased the cup of the tea cup, and said blankly: "He is not good at conspiracy, what's the matter, isn't it still me? Those dark, **** things I'll do, to let It ’s okay for someone who is full of evil to fall down, even if I let me stab at the heart of an innocent person, although I will be sad because of it, but when a person ’s pain has exceeded the limit, this level of sadness can be tolerated It's ... "

Although these words were harsh, but with a kind of sadness and misery that could not be covered, he looked at his face blankly, and suddenly felt a burst of unbearable pain in his heart, and he breathed out for a long time. , Asked lowly: "The King Jing ... Will he agree?"

"Why not? His hatred for the prince and honorary king is as deep as mine, not to mention there is a throne waiting there.

The attraction of the throne is huge, and few people can resist it, even Jingyan ... "

"This is impossible!" Meng Zhi slapped his hand on the table. "He has a natural aversion to disputes. Do you like it by nature? When did Jing Jing become so cruel, did he not know that he loved you?"

"Brother Meng," Mei Changsu smiled faintly. "You forgot, Jing Yan didn't know it was me ... I'm dead, I'm already a scar on his heart ... The threat and the temptation to take him on It ’s just a stranger named Su Zhe on the road of heir, what is so distressing for him? "

"Ah," cried angrily, "Yes, he didn't know ... but haven't you seen him today? Didn't you tell him? He didn't recognize you?"

"Why should I tell him?" Mei Changsu's face was white, but his eyes were very calm. "No matter what kind of innocent friend was, the person who returned from **** will become a ghost, not only he can't recognize it, even myself. , I can't recognize myself anymore. "

Hold your hands tightly and hard until the knuckles start to whitish, trying to offset the tear-like feeling in your chest.

I still remember when he was eighteen years old, when he broke up with a bright and bright smile, and an apple-like ruddy healthy face.

Twelve years passed by like water, and suddenly I looked back suddenly, as if I had been alive.

"Xiaoshu ..." Holding the hand in his palm, thin and pale, one can imagine how hard and painful he was in struggling to survive.

"You promised me that you should never tell Jing Yan," Mei Changsu looked out the window, his eyes blurred and vague, "That buddy who grew up with him, lively and lovely, and this insidious and poisonous side by his side, do anything by any means The strategist is never the same person.

Isn't this better? "

"Xiaoshu ..."

"The whole capital knows that Lin Shu returned, only you and your grandmother, I don't want a third person to appear again.

Brother Meng, please. "

"I can rest assured, but how can the empress dowager know? She has been a bit confused in recent years."

"I do n’t know how she recognized it, it ’s clearly beyond recognition, but when she looked at me calling me" Xiaoshu ", her eyes were so warm, I can be sure that she did n’t call the wrong name ... maybe it was because she was confused. Well, many things are not remembered, but relaxed.

I'm just her little special, I should have appeared beside her, so she was so happy, not surprised. "

Meng Zhi was slightly uneasy. "The empress dowager will not say it."

"No," Mei Changsu said quietly, "No matter what she says now, no one will listen to it seriously."

"Alas ..." Meng Zhi sighed, "This is also true."

Mei Changsu took a sip from the tea bowl and said quietly for a moment, "Brother Meng, since you are here today, I just have a question to ask you ..."

"You just ask."

"In these years, we have contacted privately many times. Why have you never told me that brother Jingyu has a posthumous child?"

"What are you talking about?" Meng Zhi was taken aback, and almost couldn't help jumping up. "There is a child under His Royal Highness Qi?"