My 26-year-old Female Tenant

I put the phone aside and took out a can of beer from the convenience bag and drank it. My mood became more and more lost, but I couldn't even find a reason to comfort myself, and I didn't know how much I hurt Li Xiaoyun. Shen, and Ban Dad and Mom, I can imagine how they are feeling at this moment, for them, the coming late night is also sleepless.

The phone rang again, and it was Le Yao's call. Her persistence made me helpless, so I finally got through the phone, and then said patiently: "I really have already had dinner, you can eat it by yourself ?"

   Le Yao choked up and said to me: "Zhaoyang, I know you are in a bad mood, you must have given up a lot for my affairs, right?"

   "You're overthinking, you're just going back to Suzhou, at most you've never been back to Xuzhou." As I spoke, I subconsciously pulled out a cigarette from the pack and lit it because I was bored.

   "Then you come out to eat with me, I'm really not in the mood to be alone."

I was silent for a long time and finally agreed to Le Yao's request, because I didn't want her to see my downfall, and then I felt a psychological burden, but I was really tired of the forced smile after meeting, and this was the reason why I refused and Le Yao at the beginning. The main reason for having dinner with Yao.

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  I ignored the severe winter and took a hot bath in the small hotel, and then walked out of the small hotel with my wallet, but I didn't want to be seen by Le Yao, who was already waiting across the street.

  She trotted up to me, stared at me, but said nothing for a long time.

  I stubbed out the cigarette in my hand, put my hand in my pocket because of the cold and said: "Aren't you going to eat, let's go."

   "Why did you live in a small hotel?" Le Yao asked with red eyes.

Subconsciously, I thought that women are born to dawdle, but Le Yao arrived at the appointed place before me, and she saw me coming out of the small hotel. Looking at her, I found that she didn't wear makeup, but just wore the latest Simple sporty down jacket, no wonder it arrived before me.

  I evaded the important point and said lightly: "Look for a place to eat first."

   Le Yao nodded meekly with tears in his eyes, and then the two of them were submerged in the crowd side by side, and walked forward along the street.

  I just wanted to eat something on the street, but Le Yao insisted on hailing a taxi and asked the driver to take us to a high-end western restaurant.

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  In the western restaurant, listening to soothing music and the sound of running water in the fountain pool, my nervousness was finally relieved.

   Le Yao ate with his head down, and didn't talk to me from the beginning to the end, but I didn't have much appetite, so I just drank a glass of red wine.

After half an hour, Le Yao finally finished eating, she looked at the food I hadn't touched with a sad expression, and asked me in a low voice after a long time: "Zhaoyang, going to Suzhou this time must make you very difficult ?”

   "There is nothing embarrassing, you don't have to worry about it."

   "What about your girlfriend, didn't she say anything?"

  I was touched by Le Yao, but I had to bear the pain and said: "It's nothing, she supports my decision."

  Li Xiaoyun does support my decision, but the premise is that I also lost the love with her that I was going to marry.

  Le Yao asked again: "Then why did you live in the small hotel alone?"

I was finally annoyed, and said with a displeased face: "Le Yao, do you know why I don't want to go out to eat with you? I really don't want you to ask this and that endlessly... no matter what the consequences of this matter are , I have already chosen, so all your questions now are meaningless."

"Well, Robben has been singing in my bar for free for a month now, and I feel sorry for him... Zhaoyang, if there is any way, I won't find you, I know it will make you Very difficult!"

  Le Yao's words made me feel inexplicable, sometimes life is so cruel, there is no room for people to choose, and living is so involuntary.

  Leaving the western restaurant, we walked on the cold street under the light and shadow of the street lamp, I was still smoking, and Le Yao looked at the end of the street in a daze.

   I don't know how long I walked alone, and finally returned to the hotel where Le Yao stayed. We have to say goodbye for a short time.

  I said to Le Yao: "Go back to the hotel and rest early. If I have time tomorrow morning, I will see you off."

   "No need, I have a ten o'clock train, you have already gone to work by then."

   "Well, then you should be careful on the road, there are too many people of all kinds on the train."

  Le Yao ignored my advice, and said to me with tears in his eyes: "I'm really too ignorant, I should listen to your advice, I shouldn't open a bar, I've hurt myself, and I've hurt you too!"

  I lightly patted her on the shoulder to comfort her, and said, "Don't cry, you will definitely do wrong things in your life, the important thing is how to make up for your mistakes, and I will accompany you through the difficulties."

  Le Yao flung herself into my arms as if she lost control of her emotions, sobbing: "Zhaoyang, for everything you lost for me today, I will definitely compensate you twice in the future."

I supported Le Yao's shoulders, let her leave my arms, and said to her with a serious face: "Remember, never say the word "compensation" between us, just like you were slapped because of me. Have you ever thought about asking me to make up for it?"

  Le Yao shook his head and said, "I don't want you to make up, this is what I do for you willingly."

   "So, returning to Suzhou is what I am willing to do for you."

  …

  After sending Le Yao back to the hotel, I walked alone on the street, and then passed the platform in front of me, which was the small hotel where I stayed, but now I don’t want to go back, even though the world is cold at this time.

I sat on a stone bench in front of the railway station square, lit a cigarette and watched the people coming and going in front of me in a daze. At this moment, all the people passing by me have had a brief encounter with me, but the following For a moment, they will all go away by train, and they will never meet again, but their lives will continue, full of sorrow and joy in the continuation.

  So no one will live in peace, and a life filled with sorrow and joy is considered a secular life.

Taking a deep breath, I finally extinguished the smoke in my hand, and I couldn’t help but look up at the sky. Where is that crystal clear city? Looking forward, I have never seen it again. Is this really just a fantasy city? If so, how sad...for a weary heart can never find a place to rest.

  If there is a silver boat at this moment, bending, swaying, swaying, squandering the night, taking me into the fluffy sky, how wonderful it would be...

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