My 26-year-old Female Tenant

  The passing vehicles were running at high speed on the highway. No one cared about the pain of Mi Cai and me, but our pain was so real, it burned like a flame between us, and it burned us to pieces.

   Mi Cai hugged me who was crying so hard that I couldn't respond to her, and said softly: "Zhaoyang, don't cry, listen to this song carefully..."

Her gentleness gradually calmed me down, and I seemed to see a glimmer of dawn that it was not a breakup, so the melody of the song became clear: "There will be thousands of songs in the future, floating in the distance on my way, Even if there are thousands of evening stars in the future, even if they are brighter than the moon tonight, they will not be as beautiful as this night, and they must not make me appreciate it more..."

  I finally said to her: "The parting in the song is so regrettable...so regrettable that it shouldn't be so beautiful! It's like a fabricated beauty..."

Mi Cai nodded and said: "So you misunderstood, why should I punish you with other people's mistakes... You are my man, if you are wrong, I am wrong, we should always In a world full of parting, advance and retreat together... I have already lost Zhuo Mei, how can I lose you again!"

  I looked at her in astonishment... I thought she already hated me.

Mi Cai let me go and stood up from the ground. She looked at the distance that even the light could not penetrate... After a long time, she said: "I have been standing here for a long time. I listened to the song over and over again...I think the reason why Dad likes it is because he regrets, regretting that he mistakenly believed that parting can be beautiful...There is nothing in this world where you can go with a smile Treating parting.......He misses my mother, that's why he always listens to this song, just like you like the song "Elopement", because of a song, he always thinks of some past. ...I shouldn't repeat this regret, maybe Zhuo Mei was not my father's favorite..." She turned around and looked at me, then asked again: "Zhaoyang, did you hear me? Do you understand what I'm saying?"

My thinking seemed to have stagnated, I couldn't bear the impact of this night, I just looked at Mi Cai, shook my head slowly for a long time, and told her: I don't understand, what is she saying... ..

"...I'm going to give up on Zhuomei. I can't say it's a great enlightenment, but at least it's a kind of understanding. No matter how good Zhuomei is, it's just Zhuomei. It can't replace the feelings between people. I was entrusted to a higher and higher place, and I haven't seen the scenery below for a long time...even, I dare not even have a child! This is not the life I want, and it has never been."

  I finally felt that I could breathe the air of this world. Although it was so cold, it saved my life and gave me hope in this world.

Mi Cai held my hand, full of sincerity, and said: "Zhaoyang, let's start living an ordinary life... I have already thought about it, Zhuo Mei will leave it to my uncle and sister, and my share I don’t want to take anything away, and I don’t want to increase the financial burden on Zhuo Mei, as long as Zhuo Mei can flourish in their hands, it is also a continuation of my father, right?”

  Feeling the strength from her palm, I knew that this was a difficult decision for her, and I didn’t understand what power dominated me, so I nodded to her...

Mi Cai smiled, but tears flowed down her cheeks, and said with a sob: "...then let's be ordinary people. In a few days, we will go back to Xuzhou together, stay with my uncle and aunt, and finish what they have been doing all along. The wish I have had since..."

  I just looked at her like this, and kept listening to her saying that she really saw through many, many things in the place where Mi Zhongxin left.

She said again: "Zhaoyang, when we go back to Xuzhou, I want to find a lighter job first, so that I can use the extra time to take the civil service exam, and I will have a lot of time with you in the future. We can Walking around the country, it’s been a long time since I brought photographic equipment to experience the beautiful scenery and human geography of our country!”

  Her decision shocked me... This is a peaceful life that can no longer be peaceful, but it is what I dream of. She is catering to the lifestyle I pursue...

My thinking seemed to become smooth in an instant, and I replied without thinking: "Okay, okay... Let's go back to Xuzhou to live, and I will open a coffee shop or bar in the future. If you are tired from work every day, I will Make coffee for you, sing for you."

"Okay... I can also make coffee for our guests and sing... Our coffee shop will be very popular! Also, maybe we can meet each other on the way to travel in the future cc, because we'll be traveling a lot, maybe she'll open a bar too, she loves to sing so much..."

  When Mi Cai even talked about cc, I believe she doesn't care so much about all the pain of this night. What she looks forward to is only the future life and some little fun in life!

I finally turned sadness into joy, wiped away the snot and tears before, and said: "If cc knows that your life is so ordinary now, but so free, you will be surprised that you can't even sing well... ..”

"Really?..." Mi Cai smiled, but her expression became serious again, and she said to me: "Zhaoyang, let's leave quietly, don't disturb anyone, let alone you Go find Fangyuan and Xiangchen... We don't need to explain, and they won't repent. On the contrary, we should thank them. It is they who have fulfilled the life we ​​have always wanted to pursue, but we have no courage and conditions to pursue. "

I was silent for a long time, and said: "Before I leave, I still want to meet him... We have been in love for nearly ten years, and now it's not bullshit. I want him to tell me why he did this... ...I don't want anything but this answer, otherwise this will be a scar that won't heal in my life..."

Having said that, my world is once again filled with pain. I can’t forget everything we’ve experienced in the past ten years. I can’t forget that sitting in a dimly lit restaurant in college, chatting about the future with high spirits, saying that we will carry each other The future scene... Now he has stepped on my future, I almost died in despair! I also want to tell him that people are doing it, and the sky is watching. He trampled on my heart and soul, and one day he will be punished!

Mi Cai looked at me, clenched my hand again, and said, "If you insist on going to him, I won't stop you...I'm just afraid that you will suffer more, maybe he will show you more pain." It's just the face of a villain after he succeeds."

  I fell into silence. Mi Cai and I have already decided to pursue a life without the past. I will ask for another explanation. Is there any point?

  However, I want to hear him tell me "Behind human nature is the white cloud and the dog..."

When I accepted the fact of betrayal, my outlook on life was completely subverted. I thought through a lot of details, and Fang Yuan's step by step made me feel the ferocity of human nature. What is it that supports him? A shameless mask, playing with me in the palm of your hand?

  .......

  The police car was approaching us with flashing lights. I knew that the traffic policeman who was notified by the woman in red was here. I asked Mi Cai, "How fast did you drive just now?"

"soon!"

As long as she is by my side, I can still laugh, hold her hand tightly, and say: "Before we leave Suzhou, we have to take the driver's license test again... 12 points should be deducted! "

  She was stunned for a moment, then she came to her senses, smiled and said, "Why don't you take the test, and riding a bicycle to work is also very good!"

   "It's really an ordinary life... But, when we go out and walk around in the future, we always have to drive alone, right?"

   "Then you go to take the test, I don't want to take the test, I just ride a bicycle, electric cars are also fine."

   "Are you kidding me?"

"of course not......."

After Mi Cai said that, she turned around and opened the car door and took out her driver's book, and then went to my car and took out the driver's book too. Seeing that she was about to surrender actively, I looked at her with a smile, and we could actually be in the same place. On this black road full of pain and indifference, we may not be enjoying ourselves while we are suffering. We are already adapting to the coming new life ahead of time.

Two traffic policemen came to our side and reprimanded me and Mi Cai severely for our non-observance of traffic laws, and reprimanded us for our lack of safety awareness, making mistakes, but still laughing, and Mi Cai and I did indeed We are smiling with our heads down, but our laughter is not because we don’t regret that we have violated the traffic regulations, but because we are glad that after this crazy act, we are still alive, and we have decided to be with each other, and we have determined the direction of our future life.. ...so, why can't we laugh?

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After experiencing this soul-stirring night, my life direction has finally been determined, and it is really time for me to say goodbye to this city, as well as Jian Wei, Luku, a company, at this moment, nothing compares to Mi Cai Being together is more important, I think, when my father and mother know what Mi Cai and I think, they will be ecstatic, because when Mi Cai loses all the aura, she is the son that my mother and father want. Daughter-in-law looks like.

The world is impermanent, and we are really going back to Xuzhou to start a family. From then on, we will stay by our father and mother's side, fulfill our filial piety, and at the same time enjoy the fun of ordinary life... At this moment, I seem to see My life was divided into two halves at the place where Mi Zhongxin passed away. That represents the past half, which has been shredded by the cold wind here. I will take care of the other half of my life in ordinary days. Good her daughter, in our life, we will never stage that fabricated and beautiful parting again!

   And love, hate, and hatred are placed in this city that keeps me in despair, rot, and finally turn into soil, into dust, and dissipate...

  I seem to have seen the smiling faces of my father and mother waiting for us to go back... The coffee shop I envisioned has also been decorated in the foreseeable future...

  As for everything I have now, I will treat it as if I can’t hold on to the relationship with Jian Wei, and give it back to her together... I have decided to live a new life, and I should forget everything about her!

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  There are always readers who question that my three books are using the same routine, but real life is such a big pattern, the shape of a lover, no matter how you write it, it is the past and the present. . Feelings are nothing more than inappropriateness, betrayal and being together. . . I don't think we should deliberately magnify the similarities between the three books. If I had to say it, I could also find out thousands of differences between the three books. . . Including expression, plot structure, character relationship...

  If you look at urban emotional novels with this kind of perspective, you will find that all the books are the same, telling similar stories. This is not objective.

  For me, there is no routine, only the best way to break through. . For readers, they should deeply understand the different ideologies shown in each book... At least Zhaoyang and Zhang Yixi are not a routine person, and Mi Cai and An Qi are even more incomparable . In this book, there is no senior sister Shen Man, but there is a woman named Le Yao. The breakthrough you want, maybe when I write an adventure-themed novel, it will feel like a subversive breakthrough

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