My 26-year-old Female Tenant

After returning home, I lay on the bed in a daze, and then fell asleep very hard, but dreamed of Mi Cai again, dreaming that she left me in a way of leaving without saying goodbye, I began to search for her all over the world, always thinking that at the next pier, next station, or next airport, there would be her figure, and then I asked her to give me an explanation, but all that was given to me in the dream was disappointment. Let me wake up in disappointment.

I turned on the bedside lamp, lit a cigarette, and calmed down my emotions. As always, I was unwilling to equate dreams with reality. I just felt that I hadn’t seen Mi Cai for a long time, and I was too tired and Depression caused this dream full of despair to occupy my sleep.

In fact, Mi Cai will not leave me. Even if she can leave me, she can't let go of Zhuo Mei. In this way, although there is a trace of sadness, at least it is a reliance in my heart. Sometimes, I really don't mind my own Love is too humble, as long as she is by my side and can say that she likes me, Zhaoyang, I feel it is a kind of happiness.

There were footsteps outside the door, and then I heard the sound of the door being opened. I knew it was Dad and Mom who came back, because of their steps, one was steady and the other was fast. I had heard it for decades , of course the distinction is clear.

  I hurriedly put out the unsmoked cigarette in the ashtray, and then put on my clothes. I didn't want my angry mother to see my lazy look.

The clothes were only half worn, and my mother opened the door of my room, and immediately took a step back, choked by the smell of smoke in the room, and her words were full of anger: "Zhaoyang, let me tell you what's good about you... ..Does your current appearance make us parents look at it?...Having a son like you is because we didn't accumulate good virtue in our previous life, and we have been worrying about you in this life, and we have suffered because of you!"

  Ban Dae pushed her and said: "You are talking too seriously..."

  I bowed my head in silence, knowing that since seeing me in the morning, she has accumulated a lot of negative emotions in her heart, and Li Xiaoyun's wedding has even aroused her long-standing dissatisfaction.

My mother sobbed: "Old Zhao, tell me, isn't this a crime?... Seeing Xiaoyun get married under my nose today, my heart feels like a knife is being twisted, but I have to bless this good girl...... If this disobedient son cared a little about our parents' feelings, Xiao Yun would have already been the daughter-in-law of our old Zhao family!"

  I endured without saying a word...

  Ban Dae persuaded again: "Marriage is a matter of fate. Zhaoyang and Xiao Yun really have no fate, and it's useless if you force it."

"I'm just afraid that this disobedient person will regret it in the future... how can there be another girl like Xiaoyun!" My mother became more and more angry, and then threw her handbag at me. She even forgot that the bag was filled with the eggs bought in the morning, so my body and the bed were covered with sticky liquid full of fishy smell, and this mistake immediately stimulated my emotions, shouting: "Why do you always Thinking about arranging my marriage?......You can't think about how difficult it is for me to live!......Let me tell you, for so many years, I have been very useless and unhappy, Because I've been dumped, because everything wasn't what I wanted..."

  Mom's emotions were also completely ignited: "Is it me and your dad, and it's not what you want... Now that your wings are hardened and you are capable, then don't recognize us as parents."

  I yelled at Ban Dae again: "Dad, is she saying something like an elder?......Did you force me not to be the head of this family, so that she can be comfortable and satisfied!"

Ban dad looked at me disappointed, shook his head and said: "Zhaoyang, I won't protect you this time... The most terrifying thing about people is to regard other people's love as an attack on themselves, not to mention that this person is still a child. your mother."

At this moment, I seem to have been abandoned by the whole world. I can't understand my parents, just like they can't understand me...It turns out that behind the human nature is really Bai Yuncanggou, even the most reliable family relationship It is also so impermanent, I live in this world, what else can I rely on?

  I'm going to collapse in pain! ...... I really didn't expect that Li Xiaoyun's wedding turned out to be a disaster for me!

  Ban Dae took out a car key from his briefcase, and said to me: "This is the car you bought for me, take it back, we don't need you to compensate us in this way."

   I'm suffocating, why is my life full of unwanted? ...Li Xiaoyun doesn't need my gift, Le Yao doesn't need me to attend her wedding, her parents don't need my filial piety to them...What did I, Zhaoyang, do wrong? Friends, they have isolated me from their world, will they really not stand in my position to see what kind of pain I am enduring?

   It turns out that I have been walking alone for so many years! Walking on a road that will never have an answer.

I finally wiped off the viscous liquid on my face, took my briefcase from the bedside, and then pulled out the bank card originally prepared for the girl, put it on the bedside cabinet, and said to them: "It's not easy for you to raise me for so many years. I'm a disobedient child, and I have nothing to repay. There are 600,000 in this card. You can take it as compensation or filial piety. Please accept it... I don't need to stay in this house any longer, so I won't make you feel bad!"

  Her voice was piercing: "Zhaoyang, you are too worried and immature!"

"Don't force me...I really don't know what to do, how to say, to be considered mature and satisfy you!" I said, picked up my briefcase, slammed the door and left, My sanity has completely collapsed at this moment!

  .......

  This New Year of the Gregorian calendar, I just walked alone on the street, watching other people's reunion, watching other people's love, painful and want to die! So he stood by the city's moat, smoking cigarettes one after another.

Facing the wind, my tears fell uncontrollably, I have never been so lonely, so need someone to understand... I whimpered and took out all the cash from my wallet, Then I threw it into the moat like a vent... I was tearing madly, hating these banknotes minted with **, it never brought me anything... There is It, without it, I live like a dog, tired of running, but I don't know that there is an endless road to rest at my feet...

I'm even crazier... All those bank cards that represent wealth were broken off in the most extreme way in anger... Finally, I slumped on the side of the guardrail and gasped, closing my eyes, crying...

At this moment, I even abandoned myself, because of the crazy act just now, I was deprived of the right to find a hotel in this city to rest...I am so poor that I am left with this soulless body , even if I freeze to death here, no one will give me a little mercy!

  I was a little tired, but the moment I closed my eyes, I saw a familiar figure walking towards me...it was Mi Cai! It was really her that appeared in my line of sight...but I felt that I was hallucinating. At this moment, I just longed for her to be by my side...how could she appear in Xuzhou? It's impossible, not at all!