My 26-year-old Female Tenant

After all, I couldn't find the note that the woman left with her contact information this night. In the end, I sent Le Yao back to CC's residence in desperation. I got on the elevator, but suddenly I didn’t want to go anywhere, so I just sat on a stone chair downstairs, watching the lights in the cc room go on and off, off and on again... I Knowing that she was vomiting in pain again.

At this moment, I seem to have seen the trauma cc suffered in love, and saw her embarrassment when she vomited, and I felt an indescribable fear of love, but this fear did not come entirely from cc, she The failure in love is just an inducement for me to fear, and the real reason is that I remember how I gave up on myself a few years ago. At that time, I wasted my emotions, my youth, and even more so when I wasted my life. The career of working hard with youth......

It was 8:30 in the evening and 7:30 in the morning in New York time. I knew that Mi Cai hadn't woken up yet, but for the first time in my life, I didn't worry about her schedule and called her on the other side of the ocean. The phone... However, I got a reply that the phone was turned off, and I hung up the phone. Then I felt the unevenness of the night, the lights were rotating, and the cold wind blowing westward was flat. Yes, the road surface is bumpy, the beer is cold, the heating pipe is hot, and people’s emotions seem to be lonely and longing. Everything is so irregular, but it is kneaded together by the coldness of this world. So that all the scenes in the line of sight are so distorted and tilted...

  I took off the black leather gloves on my hands, went to the convenience store and bought a cup of hot soybean milk and two slices of bread, and this night was settled by myself with the food and clothing I got by loneliness and luck.

  .......

At 9:30 in the evening, I drove to the moat. I didn’t expect to meet Jian Wei. I just took it as a kind of support and sustenance when I was lonely. In fact, it did give me a lot of comfort with deep memories. .

  Light a cigarette as usual, and watch the moonlight pass through the withered branches and refract on the river surface, so that the world passed by the moat is sometimes real and sometimes in a trance.

A familiar smell of perfume drifted into my nostrils with the cold wind, and when I turned around, she was already standing beside me, straightened her hair hanging on her shoulders and said to me: "I have a strong feeling , you will come here tonight, and you really did.”

  I rubbed my nose, which was a little hard to breathe, and said to her: "In such a big city, there is always a feeling that there is no way out, so I want to come here to have a look."

   Jian Wei smiled: "Here, have you found the way out?"

   "No, I just saw this moat stretching and flowing into the distance... God knows if the end of the flow is the way out I want!"

Jian Wei didn't respond to my words anymore, she changed the subject after being silent and said to me: "By the way, for this Christmas event, the advertising resources that Zhuomei needs to use, our Simei advertising has already prepared, and some of them have already been invested. Use, I have to say that Fang Yuan is really a very capable man, all the advertising resources planned by him are used wisely, judging from the current feedback, the effect of advertising communication is very good!"

   "He's always been capable!"

   Jian Wei looked at me and said for a while, "So I always thought that what he wanted to pursue was a stage that was so big that there was no limit. He was an ambitious man!"

   "Shouldn't all men be ambitious?"

"Ambition is also different. Some men can control their ambitions, while others are dominated by ambition. I think you are the former, so you dare to design that grand road of literature and art, but every step of the way Be so cautious that the people around you don't feel your ambition!"

  I smiled, didn't say much, just looked at the moat, which was both true and false, and looked for my way out in its flow.

  Jian Wei asked me unexpectedly again: "Zhaoyang, after all these years, do you think you really understand Xiang Chen and Fang Yuan?"

   "Why do you ask that?"

   "I just want to know what the two brothers you value the most look like in your eyes."

I replied: "Do you know that time can cut everything?...I feel like I've become estranged from Xiang Chen, even more estranged since you went to America, we won't even be in touch with each other for a year , We are indeed like brothers in college, and now we have basically lost the intersection, so there is no need for evaluation... Even if we are brothers, we used to be! Although I don’t want to admit it in many cases, we have a lot of respect for each other. The attention paid to each other is no longer comparable to that of brothers."

  Jian Wei seemed to agree with the statement that the brotherhood between Xiang Chen and I had been torn apart by time, she nodded and asked, "What about Fangyuan?"

   "I am so familiar with him, so familiar that I don't know how to evaluate him, but I have always envied him, envied that he has Yan Yan, a partner who can be loved for life..."

This time, the answer I gave didn't seem to be the answer Jian Wei wanted, but she didn't ask any more, just kept silent against the wind blowing from the river, and I looked down at the stick that was caught between my fingers Ignored the cigarette, took a quick puff, and said to her: "I am looking forward to Zhuomei's Christmas event, this is the first real cooperation between Fangyuan and Xiangchen after we separated from university. ...Do you still remember? When we were in college, the three of us used to form a team and won many marketing awards from schools and social organizations. The days at that time were really high-spirited!"

Jian Wei looked at me with a complex expression on her face, and said after a long time: "Although you and Xiang Chen, and even Fang Yuan are estranged to a certain extent, in your heart, you have always longed to repair the relationship with them, but you are suffering from No chance, right?"

"Maybe, but it's like a broken glass bottle. Even if you try to repair it magically, the cracks are still there. I don't expect the friendship of the past between us, especially Xiang Chen. I believe he is the same. want."

Jian Wei ignored my feelings, raised the topic to another level, and said, "Zhaoyang, I hope you will remember that sincerity is a luxury in the face of interests, you must not I expect everyone to look at interests and deal with feelings with the purest attitude...because this is a world made dirty by desire!"

Before I had time to comprehend Jian Wei's words, the phone rang in my pocket. It was from Mi Cai. At this moment, she finally woke up in the early morning in New York. She must have seen me calling her. SMS alerts for missed calls.