My 26-year-old Female Tenant

After dinner, Li Xiaoyun and I walked on the street where we came, but the mood was not the same as when we came, so that the two of us walked in silence for a long time, and when we came to the intersection with traffic lights again, Li Xiaoyun stopped. Said to me: "Zhaoyang, I always want to say something to you, but I don't know how to say it!"

  “I don’t need other people’s sympathy and comfort. In fact, I am in a good mood, and I don’t feel that my life has been affected!”

   "Are you telling the truth?"

  I nodded and said, "Yes, breaking up is really tormenting, but it's nothing more than that after going through a lot. I thought: I can live a more carefree life than her!"

  Li Xiaoyun shook her head and smiled: "Since we broke up, why do you still have to compare with her? Or, subconsciously, you can't let go of this love at all, so you instinctively compare with her after the breakup?"

  I looked at Li Xiaoyun blankly, not sure if what she said was right or not, but as long as I thought of Mi Cai, I still had mixed feelings in my heart, and then I was concerned about my gains and losses in this relationship.

   Time passed in my daze for a few minutes, and finally sat on the bench at the intersection, and said to Li Xiaoyun: "Xiaoyun, you go back first, I will sit by myself for a while."

   "Also..."

   "Well, thank you for staying with me this evening."

   "I should thank you... Zhaoyang, you are a good boy, you will be happy!"

  I looked at her, smiled and said, "You mean I'm not mature enough?"

   "Immature is also a kind of charm, so I want to thank you for allowing me, a woman destined to be ordinary, to experience a young and frivolous love full of longing and reverie in my lifetime!......"

  Li Xiaoyun just left, but the back view of her leaving made me feel so uncomfortable. What's more uncomfortable is: I don't know the source of the discomfort, I just feel like an abandoned autistic patient!

  Suddenly thought of Mi Cai again, what is she doing now? Are you also like me now, losing control in the frenzy, and then swimming around in this complex world with unresolved loneliness?

  She won't, she is still walking freely in her calm world with indifference to love, that's why I am so dangerous now!

  So, living in loneliness and danger, I kind of hate her!

  .......

When I got home, I made myself look very drunk, avoiding my mother's questioning eyes, swaying around, and complaining: "Damn it! Did this Li Xiaoyun grow up soaked in a wine tank?" ? It’s so drinkable, drink me to death like this!”

  My mother looked at me and said with emotion: "Oh, this is how much I drank, and I'm talking nonsense!"

   "Mom, I'm dizzy, go to sleep first!"

"and many more."

   "Mom!...I don't have my own brain right now, I'm full of nonsense, what can I tell you!"

   "I want you to wait and make you a cup of tea."

  My heart suddenly relaxed. It turned out to be a false alarm, but I fell into another kind of helplessness in an instant. Why can't I face my parents openly? And why do they always use their own ignorance to make them despair again and again? Presumably, if I let my mother know that Li Xiaoyun already has a relationship, she must be desperate!

After drinking a cup of hangover tea, I returned to my room. After lying on the bed, I began to habitually use cigarettes to save my depression. Then, in the permeating smoke, I stared at the ceiling. Noticing his own existence, the anxious thoughts gradually settled down.

  The door was knocked suddenly, and I heard the voice of Ban Dad: "Zhaoyang, are you asleep?"

  I hurriedly stubbed out the cigarette in the ashtray, and didn't respond. I lay straight on the bed, pretending to be a dead sleeper!

  Ban Dae opened the door, then opened the window for me, came to the bed and said: "After playing with your mother, do you want to play with your father?"

I finally opened my eyes, looked out of the room vigilantly, and made sure that Dad was the only one, so I stood up and said, "Dad, it's hard to be a son, I really can't talk to my mother about some things, Otherwise, with a wine barrel like me, I can't pretend to be drunk! ...By the way, where is my mother?"

   "Go to Xiaoyun's house!"

"Ugh!......"

   "What did you talk to Xiaoyun today?"

  I looked at the empty cigarette case on the table, and asked my father, "Do you still have cigarettes, give me one!"

Ban Dad took out a pack of redwood trees from his pocket and threw it to me, I took out one and lit it, and then said: "Ban Dad, you know, Xiao Yun is in love, but it's not easy to tell me Mom, if my mother knows, she will definitely get angry!"

  Ban Dae didn't respond, he just said: "It's okay to get angry!"

   "After I leave, you can tell her more tactfully. If I say it out of my mouth, she will definitely feel cold!"

   "These things you do will be put on anyone's body, and the heart will be cold!"

  Although Ban Dae had no expression on his face, I could feel his emotions, and said in a low voice for a long time, "I'm sorry, Ban Dae...! I'm really not good at being a son!"

  Ban Dae ignored my apology, but asked, "Tell me, how did you and Xiaomi break up?"

  I pretended to be relaxed, and said with a smile, "It's not appropriate!"

   "Why is it inappropriate?"

"Using my mother's words, she is not a girl who can live a life... Dad, tell me, I can be regarded as a thoughtful and demanding man. Although she looks impeccable, she has found shortcomings. Afterwards, I can still make a decisive decision, so I decisively ended this space fantasy relationship!"

  Ban Dae's complexion immediately sank: "Don't be silly with your father, I know what kind of girl Xiaomi is, and it's probably because you deserted because of half-heartedness!"

  My emotions were a little excited: "Whoever is half-hearted will be struck by lightning!"

  Ban Dae looked at me suspiciously...

  My momentum suddenly weakened: "Well... In short, she misunderstood me a little bit, and I can't give her the purity she wants!... Anyway, we broke up peacefully like this."

  Ban Dae said for a while: "Miss Xiaomi, you are too worried... Is there a lack of communication between you?"

"The points are all divided, what else is there to communicate?...Ban Dae, let's not talk about this, talk about being happy, are you free tomorrow? Go to the 4S shop with me and change the car for you car!"

   "No need to spend money!"

   "It's really not a waste of money. Your unit's car has too many hidden dangers. You can't be careless about safety. My son has been unfilial for so many years. Let me express my heart."

   "Keep the money and buy a house for yourself..."

  I interrupted: "There is no shortage of money to buy a house, so this matter is settled. Tomorrow, my father and I will go to the 4S store to have a look. It would be nice to replace you with a new Passat!"

  ...

Ban Dad finally refused my request to buy him a car, but I have already made up my mind, I will go to the 4S shop to book the car for him tomorrow, and I also hope that doing this myself will give him and my mother some relief. It is a pity: all I can do now is to make up for it materially, and in the future, I will work harder to create a career and make myself a less useless man!

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  Recommend everyone to sing it and listen to the songs, download a singing software, search Yuqingqing...a girl with a folk voice, everyone go and listen to her songs. In the book, cc sang Zhang Xuan's appearance, and she also sang it. It's pretty good!