My 26-year-old Female Tenant

  Already far away from the old residential area, I dragged my luggage and walked on the streets of the city. After walking for a long time, I found a stone bench for rest in a square.

  I put my luggage on the side of the stone bench, lit a cigarette and sat down. Looking at the flashing neon lights attached to the tall buildings, I felt a panic of not knowing where to go.

   Hurriedly avoiding the light and shadow under the city, I looked up at the sky, looking for the "sky city" that had been stripped from my body.

I don’t know when, a group of square dancing aunts with fans came to the square, and the sound of the music suddenly overwhelmed me, and I couldn’t see the "sky city" clearly. Maybe it had been hidden behind the moon. Maybe it has been blown away by the passing wind just now...

  But this night, I will finally find a place to rest in this city.

  I took out my mobile phone from my pocket and called Robben. He lives near the train station. I just happened to take the train to Hengdian tomorrow, so I decided to stay with him for the night.

  Amidst the noise, Robben answered the phone: "Zhaoyang, do you have anything to do with me?"

   "Are you still performing at the bar?"

   "Yeah, it's time for our band to be on."

   "Oh... well, I want to stay at your place overnight, is it convenient?"

   Robben smiled and said, "What's the inconvenience? Come to the bar now. Let's go back together after I get off work."

   "I'll go directly to where you live, and I won't go to the bar."

   "Laiza, I'll treat you to a drink. I still have several coupons here."

   "I really don't want to go." After I finished speaking, I hung up the phone, leaving Robben with the doubts about why I didn't go.

  After leaving the square, I took a taxi directly to Robben’s residence, checked that it was still early, and went to the train station to buy a train ticket from Suzhou to Yiwu tomorrow morning.

  …

   Robben came back from the bar at about 12 o'clock at night, and I had already fallen asleep with my luggage in the corridor.

   Robben patted me awake, and said in a complaining tone: "Your boy has recently changed sex! You are not happy to let you go to the bar, you would rather sleep in the corridor and wait!"

  I just smiled without words.

   Robben opened the door and asked me, "Did you move?"

   "Yeah, I haven't found a suitable house yet, and I have to travel to Hengdian tomorrow, so I might as well spend the night with you!"

   "Stay, how long!" After speaking, he looked at the luggage on the ground and asked, "Where's your awesome guitar?"

  I felt a sense of depression. After all, it was a guitar that had accompanied me for several years, but I said to Robben nonchalantly: "Take it to pay off the debt!"

   Robben stared wide-eyed and sighed: "Pay off the debt? What a mess you are! I used to play with you a few times before, but you refused to borrow it like a baby, and even used it to pay off the debt!"

   "Don't mention it, help me move my luggage in."

  …

Robben lives in the small attic on the top floor, which only has a narrow room. There is a large balcony behind the house. On the balcony, there is a bathroom shared by many people and a rope for drying clothes. The living environment is not exactly it is good.

Turn on the light, and first see a few leather jackets hanging on the hangers, a guitar in the corner, a few pairs of Martin boots on the shoe rack, and a few boxes. The beer cans on the table are not too messy.

  After packing up the luggage, Robben took out two buckets of instant noodles from which box he didn’t know, and made a bucket for me and himself for supper.

   After a short while, the box of instant noodles that had been eaten was turned upside down on the discarded flower pot under the balcony. There were several cans of beer beside the two of them, and they sat on the balcony guardrail.

   Each tore open a can of beer, and Robben and I touched one, looked up, and immediately drank half a can of beer.

   "Zhaoyang, I think you've been depressed recently, what's the hit, you don't even go to bars?"

   "I live a carefree life, what can I suffer?" I drank the remaining beer in the jar while talking, but looked blankly into the distance.

  In the distance, the lights dotted on Maxwell's giant billboard are still flickering in the early hours of the night.

Robben didn't ask any more questions, and looked into the distance with my gaze. It took me a long time to pat my shoulder with empathy. We are all marginalized people struggling in this city. Some pains are similar, but there is no need That's too clear.

  The wind howled past us with the coldness of the night, and Robben and I were still sitting on the railing looking out, drinking another can of beer.

On a quiet night, people always think more. Robben seemed to think of someone and tore open a can of beer, but I stopped him. Drinking too much alcohol is not good. I almost drank too much yesterday. Jump into the moat more.

   "Miss a woman?" I smiled and asked Robben.

   "Yeah, just drink some wine." Robben said straightforwardly.

  I know that Robben once had a girlfriend whom he loved deeply, so I pushed him and said, "Do you still have a picture of that girlfriend of yours? Take it out and have a look."

Robben took out the wallet from his pocket, took out a photo from the interlayer and handed it to me. I saw the woman in the photo clearly by the light from a distance. She has good facial features and is very intellectual and temperamental. woman.

   Robben was a little distracted, and he said to me after a long time: "We broke up for almost three years, and she should be married now!"

   "Why did you split up?"

   Robben smiled sadly: "She was born in a teacher's family, her parents are both university professors, with a scholarly background, and I am a music player with no stable income. I live day after day, and I don't want to delay her."

   "So you ran from Beijing to Suzhou with her on your back?"

  Roben nodded, and said after a long time: "In fact, she chased after her to Suzhou, and we lived together for another half a year..."

   "Then why did you break up?" I asked a little puzzled.

   "Her parents approached me and said they had arranged a job for her at a university in Beijing and asked me to let her go back to Beijing."

   "You little fool, did you really let it go?"

   Robben nodded: "Release, I told her that I have another woman."

   "Can she believe it?"

   Robben smiled and said, "She definitely doesn't believe it..."

"That…?"

"I found a lady, right here in this room, in front of her..." Robben didn't go on talking, and still had a smile on his face, but with this smile, what I saw was a dead bird. Heart.

  I sighed heavily and said, "Why do you do things so badly!"

   "I won't do that, she won't go, long-term pain is worse than short-term pain...!" Robben raised his head and drank the beer in the can, but part of the wine flowed down his neck and into his collar.

  I was silent. Although Robben said lightly, I saw a love that was heartbreaking in helplessness. I knew that Robben would never forget that woman in his life.

   "Don't talk about me, take out the photo of your girlfriend." Robben also pushed me and said.

  I also took out Jian Wei's photo from the interlayer of the wallet and handed it to Robben. In fact, we are not willing to forget the past, because it is too precious!

  The light projected on the opposite side was already insufficient, Robben lit the lighter, and looked at Jian Wei in the photo by the burning flame.

   "Your girlfriend is beautiful, not ordinary!"

When I heard the word "beautiful", the face of my female tenant suddenly came to my mind again, but this did not surprise me, because I have never seen a more beautiful woman than Mi Cai in my life. In just a split second, I came back to reality, looking at the familiar yet unfamiliar face of Jian Wei in the photo while the flame was still burning, my heart ached, and I thought: Before long, she will also marry Xiang Chen Bar.

   Robben returned Jian Wei's photo to me, and asked, "What about you, why did you break up?"

  I recalled, and said for a long time: "One year after she went to the United States, she called and proposed to break up with me."

   "Why did she break up with you?" Robben asked.

   "I don't know, she didn't say." I replied with the same smile as Robben just now.

   "You didn't ask?"

I nodded, I really didn't ask Jian Wei why she broke up with me, because I thought: If Jian Wei wants to say, I don't need to ask, she will tell me, or maybe my subconscious doesn't believe that we can get together In the end, there will be a day when we break up, and what is expected, what can we do if we ask for a result?

   "Aren't you afraid of some misunderstanding between you?" Robben reminded me.

  I was stunned and said: "What misunderstanding can there be?...Love is just a fleeting moment, let's not talk about this! Go and get the guitar, let's play a song, forget about those messy things!"

   Robben took the guitar from the house, tried the tone and asked me: "Use your key (tune) or mine?"

"casual."

   Robben plucked the guitar strings, and a melody floated in the night air, which was "The Price of Love" by Li Zongsheng.

"...Let's go, let's go, people always have to learn to grow up by themselves. Go, go, life will inevitably experience pain and struggle, go, go, find a home for your heart. I have also shed tears, and Heartbroken, this is the price of love. Maybe I still miss her occasionally, and sometimes I will inevitably miss her. Just treat him as an old friend, and it makes me feel distressed and worried. It’s just that there is no spark in my heart anymore , let the past go with the wind..."

  The singing voice floated out from our mouths, full of vicissitudes, but I didn't understand whether the price of love is just sad tears and heartbreak, but I know: the price of growth is the love that has passed away in the years.

  In this late night that should be seen through, I still regret for my lost love, for Robben and that unknown Beijing girl!

  …

Early the next morning, I took the train to Yiwu. After arriving in Yiwu, I had to transfer to Hengdian. I knew that I should do something for myself. If Le Yao could agree to come back and help i shoot the opening this time My career will usher in the first improvement in my life.

  Promoted to be the leader of the project copywriting team, my monthly salary will be more than 10,000, and maybe my life will be stabilized accordingly.

  Sitting on the train going south, I said to myself for the first time: "Work hard, Zhaoyang!...Don't let anyone look down on you again!"