Life With You

Song Xi turned on the light and returned. Shen Zhaoyi's eyes on the hospital bed never left her the whole time, as if he was afraid that she would suddenly disappear in the blink of an eye.

There was a chair next to the bed, but Song Xi didn't sit on it because Ji Minying had sat on it. She stood more than one meter away from Shen Zhaoyi, looked at him calmly, and asked softly: How are you feeling? Are you feeling better? ?”

Shen Zhaoyi stared at her intently, his eyes suddenly turned red.

Song Xi's heart felt sour for a moment, but she didn't look away. She just adjusted her breathing secretly. After a few seconds, she said out loud: I just came back from my dad's place, and he told me... I'm sorry, at that time I didn’t know anything and I couldn’t help with anything.”

Song Xi didn't blame Shen Zhaoyi. After all, they were his relatives. What could she do if he left her alone?

Shen Zhaoyi's eyes were getting redder and redder, and he stared at Song Xi's face. After a while, he replied: You're right, it's me who should say I'm sorry to you.

Song Xi said: It's all over, just come back.

There was a hole in Shen Zhaoyi's heart, and even the pain was in vain. Looking at Song Xi's face that seemed to be relieved, he would rather she lose her temper, would rather she lose control, would rather she scold him and blame him, it would be better than this. …

Xi'er, I just found out about your dad. I'm sorry...for letting you face it alone.

Song Xi shed too many tears at Song Yuanqing's side, and now she didn't want to cry anymore. She looked calm and replied as usual: It doesn't matter.

After the words fell, Shen Zhaoyi's eyes clearly stung.

Song Xi explained: I didn't say anything angry. It really doesn't matter.

After a pause, she added: I'm really happy that you can come back.

A tear rolled down from Shen Zhaoyi's left eye. There was too much helplessness and sadness in his eyes. He said in a low voice, Did I miss it?

Song Xi was still surprised before, why she didn't feel too much heartache. She thought she was hard-hearted, until this sentence... It turns out that it's not that she doesn't feel pain, it's just that she hasn't been poked in her weak spot.

His eyes looked away unconsciously, Song Xi felt like a lump in his throat.

Shen Zhaoyi looked at Song Xi quietly. From the time she entered the door until now, except when she had to touch his hand when removing his needle, she had kept a certain distance from him since then, as if she was deliberately maintaining a boundary. .

He had seen how she loved him before, so Shen Zhaoyi could clearly judge at this moment that she didn't seem to love him anymore.

The soreness in Song Xi's heart gradually turned into pain, which became more and more painful. It was so painful that she didn't open her mouth for a long time.

Finally, Shen Zhaoyi took the initiative to speak and said softly: Mengmeng said you had a boyfriend. Is he good to you?

Shen Zhaoyi's voice was still so pleasant, always gentle and caring, Song Xi raised his head and saw the tears falling from his eyes without exception.

She said out loud: I don't have a boyfriend, she is angry with you on purpose.

Shen Zhaoyi looked at Song Xi, his sad and desperate eyes immediately glowed with light, as if a person in desperate situation saw hope, but then, Song Xi's words brought him back to his original shape.

She said softly: But I don't like you as much as I used to.

Shen Zhaoyi knew clearly, but when this moment came, his face still turned pale, as if all the blood had been drained.

After Song Xi said this, she almost didn't dare to look at Shen Zhaoyi's face. She lowered her gaze slightly. Like a child who had done something wrong, she said directly: I am the one who should be sorry. I failed to do what I promised. , No matter there is a quarrel or misunderstanding, I will always believe in you. You don’t have to feel sorry or guilty. If I were you, I wouldn’t ignore my family. You did nothing wrong.”

Song Xi is not a hypocritical person. Compared with the result of Shen Zhaoyi's harm to her, she is more concerned about why she didn't know earlier, failed to help him, forced him to make a choice, forced him to go away. , forcing him to gamble with his life.

Her love was important, but it was not as important as a human life, let alone Shen Zhaoyi's life.

Song Xi really felt that she didn't do well enough.

When Shen Zhaoyi saw the tears falling on her face, he wanted to reach out and help her wipe them away, but she was standing out of his reach. He felt heartbroken, but he still picked up the tissue from the table and stretched out his arm to hand it to her. .

Song Xi is not afraid of others being tough, but she is most afraid of others using their soft side to face her.

The moment he took the tissue, tears welled up uncontrollably. Song Xi covered her eyes with the tissue and silently did not cry.

Soon, Shen Zhaoyi's voice came to his ears. He whispered: I'm fine. I'm back. I made the decision myself and no one forced me.

Song Xi had a lot to say, but she couldn't say a word with thousands of words on her lips. Fortunately, Shen Zhao could understand easily.

He couldn't reincarnate again, because it would be too late to meet Song Xi in this life, so he made a desperate move and risked his life. Before he decided to leave, he thought it was just a matter of life and death. Now that he survived, But suddenly I realized that he had missed people's hearts.

Xi'er. Shen Zhaoyi called softly.

Song Xi raised his head, his originally beautiful apricot eyes swollen into two walnuts.

He looked at her, there was sadness in his eyes, but there was a layer of light floating on top of the sadness. He opened his lips and asked aloud: Can you give me another chance? Let's treat the past things as past, you say If you don’t like me as much as before, then I will start chasing you again. Don’t reject me right away. Let’s give each other another chance, okay?”

Song Xi stood there, silent.

Shen Zhaoyi looked straight at her and added almost pleadingly: If the result still doesn't work, if you want to be friends, then be friends. If you don't want to see me again, I won't bother you anymore.

His voice became lower and lower, becoming humbled into the dust.

Song Xi's heart was so painful that it twitched almost like a dying struggle. She thought of George Sheng. George Sheng had his Bai Yueguang in his heart, and he would only cynicize her. Did she have Stockholm Syndrome? How could this happen? Like him?

Shen Zhaoyi didn't cheat on him, he had no choice but to hurt her. She used to love him very much, but she decided to let him go out of despair.

It was wrong, it was all wrong. She let go of what she should have loved and loved what she shouldn't have loved.

At this moment, Song Xi didn't know whether she was weighing the pros and cons or analyzing rationally. Love is not an arithmetic problem. She should judge based on intuition. But after all, she is not a child anymore and has passed the stage of love at first sight. In the adult world, there are always Calculate the cost.

After a long silence, Song Xi replied: Ayi, let's try again.

As soon as she finished speaking, the despair in Shen Zhaoyi's eyes suddenly rekindled. At the same time, Song Xi finally let go of his obsession with George Sheng.

George Sheng has someone he likes, so why should she embarrass herself?