The Queen Mother jumped from the tower, and His Majesty was reborn with fear

Yu Jinzhi didn't know what he meant by doing this, she just felt a splitting headache.

"Are you still feeling uncomfortable?" Xie Yuxiu's voice was gentle but a little hoarse.

Yu Jinzhi nodded: "I feel a little dizzy."

Xie Yuxiu hugged her gently and said, "You just had a high fever again, so you feel a little dizzy. You should feel better after you take the medicine."

"Yeah," Yu Jinzhi responded, but she always felt that Xie Yuxiu seemed a little different now, as if he was much gentler.

She poked her head out of Xie Yuxiu's arms and looked at him. Xie Yuxiu immediately noticed Yu Jinzhi's gaze: "What's wrong? Are you hungry?" He said again in the same tone.

Yu Jinzhi shook her head: "I'm not hungry."

"It's time to eat something. I'll have someone make you some porridge. Eat some then take your medicine." Xie Yuxiu continued.

"Hmm..." Something was wrong. Something was very wrong. He was really a little gentler.

Although he lost his temper less frequently these days and his attitude became much calmer, he rarely spoke in such a gentle voice as today, so why did he suddenly become so gentle?

"Are you having a nightmare?" He asked, lowering his head and looking at the little woman in his arms.

Yu Jinzhi didn’t know what he meant, but since he asked, she had to answer.

"Yeah" she lowered her head.

"What did you dream about?" Xie Yuxiu continued to ask. In fact, what else could be called a nightmare except one about him?

As expected, Yu Jinzhi remained silent.

"You dreamed about me again. What did I do in the dream?" Xie Yuxiu continued to ask without giving up.

Her first reaction when she woke up and saw him was fear, and that fear really pierced his heart.

"It's about what happened before..." Yu Jinzhi was vague.

There were so many things that happened before, and she didn't say which one it was. But it was precisely because of this that Xie Yuxiu recalled all the bad things he had done.

"Are you so afraid of me?" Xie Yuxiu asked her again after a long time.

Yu Jinzhi didn't answer immediately. What on earth had provoked him today? Why did he always ask himself such inexplicable questions?

Isn't it good to be afraid? Didn't he want me to be afraid of him before? He clearly said that only when you are afraid will you not be afraid, and only when you are afraid will you think twice before doing anything.

"Your Majesty..." Yu Jinzhi didn't know how to answer.

But Xie Yuxiu obviously didn't want to let her go easily, so he didn't give her a chance to change the subject: "I'm asking you, are you that afraid of me?"

"..."

Yu Jinzhi was also thinking about how to answer this question.

"Answer me, huh?" Xie Yuxiu seemed to be getting a little impatient waiting.

Yu Jinzhi didn't dare to remain silent any longer. She nodded gently and then said "hmm" in a low voice.

Xie Yuxiu's arms tightened around her. Why did he feel so distressed when he heard this answer?

"These days, you don't look as scared of falling down as before." Xie Yuxiu said again.

Yu Jinzhi was not quite sure at first, but now she seemed to know Xie Yuxiu's mood. Did he... suddenly not want her to be so afraid of him anymore?

"Afraid... I've always been afraid. Afraid that I would do something wrong, afraid that I would displease His Majesty, and most afraid that His Majesty would be angry." Yu Jinzhi's words sounded more natural now.

She didn't want to scare herself, but she had to show that she was scared. After all, wasn't it him who caused her to be like this now? He didn't want her to be afraid of him now, so what did he do in the past?

The more guilty she feels, the better it is for her. How could Yu Jinzhi let go of such a good opportunity? She wanted to slowly hurt Xie Yuxiu's heart.

"I haven't treated you like that for a long time..." Xie Yuxiu seemed to want to defend himself.

But Yu Jinzhi felt it was a bit ironic. Just because he hadn't treated her like this for a long time, could it cancel out all the things he had done before? Just because he hadn't done something now didn't mean he hadn't done it before.

Since he clearly knows that he is afraid of him because of what happened in the past, he should also know how horrible and perverted the things he did in the past were.

"Your Majesty once said that only when you are afraid will you learn to be good..." Yu Jinzhi said this deliberately. She wanted to remind Xie Yuxiu that all the current situations were caused by him.

As expected, Xie Yuxiu seemed to be speechless because of this sentence. He opened his mouth to explain, but found that he could not explain anything.

"I'm afraid... Because of what happened in the past, I'm afraid every day. I'm afraid that His Majesty will be unhappy again and lock me up. I'm afraid that His Majesty will force me to do such a thing against my will to punish me for my misbehavior. I'm also afraid that His Majesty will lock me up in a secret room where I can't see anything again."

"Even though I convince myself not to think about it every day, I always dream about it. Every night when I dream about things in the past, I wake up in fright. There are also many things that clearly have not happened, but they appear in my dreams like omens, and I can't get rid of them." Yu Jinzhi's eyes began to turn red again.

She has gotten used to crying.

"I always can't fall asleep after waking up every day. As soon as I close my eyes, all the nightmares will appear in my mind. Those things that happened are still vivid in my mind, so I will hug myself, as if only in this way can I feel a little safe." Every word Yu Jinzhi said was like a needle.

Xie Yuxiu wanted to explain, but found it difficult to open his mouth.

"I don't know what to do... The palace is like a cage, and I'm like a pet locked in the cage. I don't know how to please you, because I always seem to make things very bad, and I can't do anything right..." As Yu Jinzhi spoke, tears began to fall.

Xie Yuxiu felt the tears falling on the back of his hand, and the burning touch burned his heart.

He reached out to wipe it, so was the shadow left by those things really so heavy? So heavy that he could never get rid of it, so heavy that it would become a nightmare forever.

"I know that His Majesty doesn't like me to care about others. I know that His Majesty hates me mentioning... mentioning the deposed crown prince, and he doesn't like me caring about him even more." Yu Jinzhi was bold enough to take the initiative to mention the person that Xie Yuxiu hated the most in his heart.

She did it on purpose, just wanting to take advantage of this situation to test his tolerance for her...

Only in this way could she understand how much Xie Yuxiu had changed towards her, and how much he had indulged her. After all, these were his bottom lines...