God's Gift

"By the time I left, she was still kneeling on the ground and yelling at me that she would wait for me to go back and pick her up."

"She was only fourteen years old at that time. When she was fourteen, she still asked her mother to tell her bedtime stories every day, but I left her alone in the completely unfamiliar Su Mansion."

When Ning Yue talked about this, his expression was exceptionally calm, as if he had been going over this matter over and over again for a hundred years, until he had swallowed all the regrets into his stomach and completely integrated them into his blood, and finally got a moment of rest.

"She actually didn't wait in the mansion obediently. She sneaked out on the first night she arrived at the Su Mansion, but she was caught after taking only a few steps."

"But I left Gusu City in a hurry."

"In the years she was away, she wrote to me often. At first, she wrote five or six times a month. Later, she was so tired that the postman was unwilling to take her letters, so she changed to writing twice a month."

“It’s just that I never replied to one.”

Ning Yue's voice dropped for a moment, then he quickly smiled and changed the subject.

"When she was with me, I only cared for her food and shelter. I had no idea that humans needed to learn calligraphy."

"When I saw other children could write, I hurriedly sent her to the academy. But after a short time, her handwriting became illegible. The first letters she sent looked like ghostly scribbles. I had to decipher them for a long time before I could understand what she wrote."

"It's really too ugly to be seen."

"She got better later. It should be because the Su family found a teacher for her." Ning Yue's eyes were calm. "The Su family is well-off. Everything they gave her was much better than what I could give her."

"I named her Jin because I hope she can live a life of luxury and have nothing to worry about. I can't do it, but the Su family can."

Ning Yue smiled bitterly, "At that time, I really thought that Ajin was living a good life in Gusu."

"After the border war ended, I was rewarded. Although I sent a lot of gold and silver to the Su Mansion, I never returned to Gusu."

"Until one month, she hadn't written to me for a month, so I went back to Gusu to take a look. Who knew that this time the prophecy would come true. By some strange coincidence, I appeared at her wedding banquet, and she also lost her life."

Ning Yue fell silent. Seeing him stop, Yu Youyou asked again:

"You've told me everything that happened afterwards. Is there anything else I need to remember?"

Ning Yue was called back to his senses by Yu Youyou's voice. He smiled and asked, "God, do you have the Atlas of Hundred Ghosts?"

When Yu Youyou heard him mention the Atlas of Hundred Ghosts, she nodded and said, "Yes."

Ning Yue continued, "The gods also know that these evil ghosts who roam the human world and cannot escape are mostly those who have unresolved obsessions in the human world, and after death they are trapped by their obsessions and cannot enter reincarnation."

"But because of their obsessions, those ghosts have long lost their humanity. The deeper the obsession, the more they are controlled by it, and they can no longer be considered the same person they were before they died."

Yu Youyou nodded again, and Ning Yue said, "Ajin also read the book at that time and asked me these questions."

"She asked why the ghost, who clearly loved his wife in his lifetime, became a tiger's servant after being eaten by a tiger. In order to reincarnate, he tricked his wife and children into being eaten by the tiger and let himself enter the cycle of reincarnation?"

"I also asked why the child ghost, who was obviously lively and cute when he was alive, killed other children after his death to keep them company?"

"Ask the evil ghost why he was kind and gentle when he was alive, but became a hideous evil ghost after his death because of his violent grudge, hurting people everywhere?"

"She asked so many questions in a row, how could I know the answers? I could only tell her that it was because the ghost wanted to reincarnate, because the child ghost wanted friends, and because the evil ghost had grudges in his heart."

"She was not satisfied with this answer, so she kept asking me questions. I was so annoyed by the questions that I just said it was all obsession. These ghosts are troubled by obsessions, and after death they can no longer distinguish between right and wrong, and are only driven by the obsession to do evil."

Ning Yue sighed, "So she asked what obsession meant. I explained to her what obsession was, and she asked me if this obsession was really that strong?"

"I said that nature is powerful. The ghosts who are trapped in the human world after death are no longer the living people. They are just a trace of resentment and obsession left in the human world."

"She still doesn't understand. She said that even if those evil spirits are obsessed, they shouldn't randomly harm others or even their loved ones."

Ning Yue smiled helplessly and continued:

"I don't really understand it either, so I just said that obsession is like this. If you want to reincarnate, you can ignore the life and death of your relatives. If you want to have friends, you can ignore the life and death of children."

"I even told her that there is a secret method in this world that can exchange the lives of nearly a hundred people for the resurrection of the dead. There are ghosts who disregard the lives of countless people and even want to come back to life after death, let alone others."

"She was frightened by these words at the time. After a long while, she pulled my sleeve fearfully and told me that this was too terrible. People are dead and they are dead. How can I let others' lives be used to buy my own life?"

"I said at the time that some people have concerns in the world, so they want to live. If she died, I also want her to come back to life."

When Yu Youyou heard this, she lowered her eyes to look at Ning Yue. Ning Yue seemed not to notice Yu Youyou's gaze and said:

"Her eyes widened in fear again, and she quickly told me that she didn't want to come back to life, and she couldn't let others die for her, so she told me not to do that."

"I was just saying it casually, but she took it seriously and kept nagging me. She said that once a person dies, they are dead and should be reincarnated. A ghost with obsessions after death cannot be considered a living person, so we must not do anything to harm others because of this."

Yu Youyou looked at Ning Yue's nonchalant expression and asked, "So this later became Ajin's obsession?"

Ning Yue did not answer directly, but just smiled and said: "I only know that there are ghosts here, so after Ajin died, I have been looking for her ghost, but I haven't seen it for a long time, so I thought she entered reincarnation."

"Actually, it doesn't matter if you enter reincarnation, you don't need to suffer these hardships as a child of an ordinary family in your next life. But when I was worshiping, I saw A Jin in ragged clothes by the tomb."

"It rained heavily that night. Her expression was confused. The places on her body where the mahogany nails had pierced her body had become several bloody holes, and blood was flowing out mixed with the rain."

"She seemed to be unaware of anything. She was just extremely afraid of the rain and kept looking for a place to hide by the grave."

"I only know why she was so afraid of rain, because it was raining heavily when she died, and the rain rushed into the tomb and softened her body."

"I felt so bitter that I held an umbrella next to her. She only looked up at me when she thought the rain had stopped."

"There was only a dazed look in her eyes. I stood beside the grave with her for a long time, and she kept staring at me. When the night was over, she seemed to remember something and said to me -"

"It's my brother."

"That was her first sentence. I didn't know whether to laugh or cry until I heard the next sentence."

"Brother, I want to live."