Harry Potter: Who cares about belated motherly love?

My aunt looked depressed.

The day after I first met Sev, when my uncle went to work and Dudley went to his friend's house to play, I couldn't help but ask a question that had been bothering me.

"Well, Mr. Sif seems to have known the phone number here for a long time, but why hasn't he contacted us?"

"...I think it's because he and I don't have a good relationship, and he and Lily didn't part on good terms...maybe he felt embarrassed."

My aunt sighed.

I continued to ask:

"Why did they part on bad terms?"

"I heard he used the word 'mudblood' on Lily... That's what Lily wrote in the letter."

"What does 'Mudblood' mean?"

"That's a discriminatory term over there. It seems to be used to describe ordinary people in the non-magical world."

"Well... But didn't you say that on the phone before? My father once bullied Sif, so maybe he just said something out of turn?"

Thinking about Sarah, I can understand this feeling.

I told my aunt that I was being bullied by him for no apparent reason because the girl he liked was being friendly to me.

Although my aunt found what she said a little complicated, she seemed to understand what I meant.

"Sarah found that being close to me led to me being bullied, so she realised that not being close to me was the best option for me.

But didn't his mother realize that? She knew about the situation and said to Sev, "Are you okay?" That's why Sev couldn't help but say that? He might have just said it out of helplessness.

I am the same. If Sarah didn't realize it and still cared about me, I might also say something like 'Your concern has caused me to be bullied, please leave me alone! ' to keep her away from me.

Sara is not wrong... and Sev is probably the same."

My aunt sighed heavily.

"...Lily sometimes doesn't really understand other people's feelings. She has been loved by your grandparents since she was a child, and she always thinks about things in a self-centered way. But she is not a bad child, and she doesn't do it intentionally... It's just because she doesn't understand, so she often hurts others unintentionally."

...Maybe my aunt was one of the people she hurt.

"Didn't Sev apologize?"

"He later tried to apologise but Lily didn't accept it at all. In the letter she said she would never forgive him..."

When talking about the past, my aunt also felt a little sad.

I wondered about this:

"But half of the blame lies with Mom. Even a child as young as Sarah can understand this. Why can't she forgive Sev? Everyone makes mistakes, and Sev is also wrong. But Mom and him are childhood sweethearts, right?"

Sure enough, my mother was not what I imagined... She might be a lucky person who has never experienced a helpless situation, so she can't understand.

My father was probably the same kind of person. I heard that my grandfather's family was very rich. Judging from the fact that no one was willing to adopt me, he was probably the only son in the family... maybe he was spoiled.

But are you okay, Sifu? Do you have too many fantasies about your mother? I can't understand my parents' thoughts at all, but I can understand Sifu's feelings.

It seems that we can't count on the guardian in prison... We have to be mentally prepared, he may be similar to Dudley!

My aunt was silent for a moment and replied:

"…You make a lot of sense."

"Well, I'm always asked to be 'normal', so I'm always wondering what 'normal' is."

"……yes."

"However, it may not be appropriate for me to say this, but Dudley has far exceeded the range of 'normal'. It is better to find a way to deal with it. Look, am I not much more 'normal' now?"

"……yes."

After saying this, my aunt walked away. I always felt that she was particularly gentle today.

Since that first meeting with Seaver, Mr. Richard has often taken me out to see him.

Perhaps out of some inexplicable sense of intimacy, when I saw him for the second time, I couldn't help but give him a big hug.

Sev looked confused, but gingerly touched my head.

I understand, this person is very kind and very clumsy.

Maybe mom can’t understand his clumsiness… maybe she lacks some sensitivity too?

Dad and Mom may be the same type of people, so they have many enemies and can easily make enemies even if they have no ill intentions.

Every time we met, Sev would give me gifts, but some of the things from the magical world were too horrible. I told him that my small room could no longer hold them all, and he said:

"I expected you to say that, so I prepared this."

He handed me a small toy-looking box, small enough for me to lift with ease.

“Isn’t this an ordinary box?”

"Because of the expansion spell, it can hold a lot of things."

Sifu explained patiently, and I immediately became interested.

"Wow! What is this? Magic is amazing! Can I do that, too?"

"It's still early. This magic is a little difficult."

As soon as the box was opened, things were put in one by one.

"That's great. My room will be able to hold this now. Thank you, Sev!"

I always feel like I'm always receiving help from this person.

He seemed to have noticed this as well, and asked carefully:

"What's the matter, Harry? Are you unhappy about something?"

I shook my head and looked seriously at Sever and Mr. Edgar who came with him.

"No, I just feel a little embarrassed because I am always on the receiving end and can't do anything for you."

"Don't worry about it. You're still a child. Just say thank you and accept it. Besides, I didn't ask you to spend a lot of money, nor did I make any extravagant requests. Your personality is really a bit like Ronald in our family."

Mr. Edgar interjected.

"Ronald? Mr. Edgar's child?"

"Well, like Harry, it's a little special. How should I put it... Do you know what parenting abandonment is?"

I replied:

"You mean not caring about the child, right? Although my aunt's family has a tendency to abuse, abandoning the childcare means completely ignoring it, right?"

Mr. Edgar nodded, and after a moment's consideration, he said:

“We had a relative in our family who was kicked out and eloped, but then they gave up raising the children and the situation got really bad… so they came to our house and asked if we could take in the children.

They had seven children, and their parents only doted on their only daughter, the youngest one. Although the first two children were well taken care of, the next four boys were basically left alone.

Because Hogwarts is a boarding school, the family fell apart when the first two children were away, and the youngest brother was born in the same year as Harry.

"Oh, I want to meet them!"

“Well, Ronald has been left alone since he was a child. In fact, the ones who took care of his parents were his first two brothers, so he is not very good at acting like a spoiled child.

During the summer vacation, the two older brothers came back and the situation got a little better, but Ronald had already developed the habit of doing everything by himself and hardly gave others the chance to pamper him.

Just like you, Harry, as long as someone does something for you, you immediately show an expression of being uncomfortable. "

I was a little excited after listening to Mr. Edgar's words.

It seems that I can get along well with him. I really like people with independent and self-reliant personalities, but unfortunately I have never met anyone like him among my peers.

Sif nodded as well.

"Well, I can understand. When I was a student, I was often taken care of by Lucius and Narcissa. I don't know how to express it."

Then he remembered something and said:

"Come to think of it, Draco is in the same grade as us."

"Draco?"

When I heard the name, the scar on my forehead hurt.

"He is the child of the senior who took care of me. You and Ronald may meet him in the future... However, the three of you will not be assigned to the same house. Edgar, do you want to tell Harry about this?"

Sif looked at Mr. Edgar, who said:

"Yeah...it's going to take action in a while."

"what's up?"

I inquired and Mr. Edgar simply patted my shoulder.

"I'm about to take a new job, so I may not be able to visit you often during this period. Not only me, but everyone is busy."

"But it's summer vacation now?"

"Yes, but we are almost finding Harry's official guardian. I can't say more. Please wait for us and don't go out easily. Try to help your aunt with some things at home. Don't leave the yard. It's best not to even go to the yard."

Xifu also warned:

"I'll discuss this with Penny."

"Also, magic can read minds, so when you see someone, don't make eye contact with anyone."

"Don't make eye contact?"

Mr Edgar explained:

"This is 'Legitimate'. Some people can read your mind just by looking you in the eye," Mr. Edgar explained.

"……awesome."

"I mentioned before that some powerful wizards are very good at this."

"Understood!"

"Also, so that I can pick you up at any time, remember to put everything you want to take with you into this box."

"learn!"

My dream is about to come true, but I still have one question.

"I've been thinking about this, can you listen to me?"

I told Seaver my own vision of my parents and guardians.

Sever's face was very serious when he heard this, but Mr. Edgar burst into laughter.

"Well, that's pretty much what Harry imagined, right? From my perspective, it is."

Mr. Edgar agreed with what I said, but Sever was a little hesitant.

"...Lily is a gentle person."

It seems that my guess is basically correct.

"As for the guardian... well, that person is like your father's loyal dog, so Harry, I hope you can discipline him well."

"What does it mean?"

"That is to say, if he loses control, everyone will be in trouble. After all, the future of the wizarding world is entrusted to him. As a dog, we can neither be too harsh on him nor too lenient with him. So come on! Harry, the future of the wizarding world depends on you to train him!"

"Oh... this is a huge responsibility."

"It's okay, it's okay! Harry is very smart, I can give you this task without any problem. In fact, I am more relieved than I thought. It may be difficult next, but you have to pay attention to the people around you."

"clear."

I nodded heavily.

Then, with their farewell, Mr. Richard sent me home.

On the way back, my aunt gave Mr. Richard something.

When I told my aunt about Mr. Edgar's message, she said Severus had just said the same thing on the phone.

"Aunt, I'm actually really...very grateful to my uncle and aunt."

"Especially after listening to Mr. Edgar, I understand how unreasonable it is to put a non-magical person in the position of caring for a wizard's baby without support."

"You could have kicked me out, but you didn't. Could you tell my uncle after I leave that I'm very grateful to him?"

My aunt said with tears in her eyes:

"...Actually, we feel sorry for you, but we just want to live a normal life..."

"Well, I understand now, so don't take it too seriously, we are all the same."

"..."

My aunt looked at me with tears in her eyes, but finally went into the room without saying anything.

Only then did I realize that my aunt, like Severus, was actually not good at expressing herself.

Ah, maybe mother doesn’t get along with her…