Harry Potter: Who cares about belated motherly love?

The fact that I had injured Severus during our school days should have been made public. My future as a wizard would have been ruined, and I might have been sent to Azkaban, but at least I wouldn't have been feeling guilty. It was guilt that had driven me to join the Order.

Maybe my parents later found out about me hurting a classmate. When I came home after I hurt Severus, I think they probably didn't know yet. They asked me about my life at Hogwarts as usual, and everything seemed normal. But I couldn't act like I usually did. I remember my mother asked me with concern, "You look a little strange, what's wrong?" I said nothing, but maybe because of my strangeness, she might have asked Dumbledore what happened at school.

When I was about to graduate, Dumbledore tried very hard to persuade me to work for him. It seems that he had already talked to my parents at that time. Now thinking back, it might be because they knew that Dumbledore had covered up the fact that I hurt my classmates. The activity funds my parents gave me might be hush money to some extent. As Mr. Weasley said, although my parents should have tried their best to keep their home, they actually chose to mortgage the property, which made me think that they must have been desperate at that time. Especially when they learned that the person I hurt fell into the dark, they must have been even more anxious.

Ah, the more I think about it, the more I hate it. Every time I think about it, I only think of the worst.

Thinking about it this way, I really should have taken responsibility for hurting Severus and shouldn't have concealed it. No matter if I was expelled for it, I should have faced it.

Maybe the Black family, knowing about this, will help me find a job? That way I can have a more stable future than when I was in the Order of the Phoenix, and maybe I can keep my home. I heard that Sirius' mother paid for the compensation for the Muggles killed by Peter, maybe she will help me. If she is still alive and knows about my situation, maybe she will help me.

Yes, I should have sought help from there, but I didn’t think of it, what a pity.

Ah, so Dumbledore is keeping this a secret. If I'm expelled, Sirius' parents will definitely take care of me and give me a job or money. In this way, my parents will be very grateful to the Black family and get out of Dumbledore's camp. He definitely doesn't want to see this happen. He worked hard to get the werewolf candidates into Hogwarts, and he doesn't want them to be snatched away by the Black family.

Alas, my parents and I were completely taken advantage of.

But as the children said, the more innocent and honest a person is, the easier it is for Dumbledore to exploit him. James was the easiest person to exploit, playing a prank on Severus without any malice, full of malicious pranks.

But now I think about it, Dumbledore had no intention of seriously stopping that kind of bullying. Students can't stop that kind of thing, and no student dared to preach to the two sons of noble families, Black and Potter. I did nothing, just smiled stupidly and watched them. When I grew up, I realized that such behavior was the same crime. Even if someone accused me of participating in bullying, I couldn't refute it. But Severus is really a good person... He is still developing anti-wolf medicine for me.

Although he always complains, he is not really a dark wizard. He is just too nice.

Perhaps Dumbledore deliberately put Severus in that difficult situation in order to make him turn to the dark side. In fact, Severus did turn to that side, but he came back for Lily and Harry. He felt guilty about his fall into darkness, so he was more selfless. After all, he was a good person.

Ah, Severus is so innocent. His feelings for Lily are so pure that I admire him, but at the same time, he also hides a deep darkness in his heart. In that cruel environment, he was pushed into darkness, his pure love was exploited, and finally he was pulled back to the side of justice.

As for Lily... she might be a bit calculating, as am I. Maybe she and James have similar personalities? No ill will, but a lack of sensitivity to other people's emotions. Maybe it's precisely because they have no ill will that Lily became an easy target for Dumbledore to exploit. So he chose to let Lily marry James instead of Severus. This way, they can be pawns together and even control their children.