Assisting the male protagonist to become a god: The first spiritualist

"I think we should go to Wusheng County again after we finish our current tasks." Fu Sheng said.

There are too many mysteries surrounding Chuntao. She originally thought that she had traveled through time and space to become an ordinary minor villain, but she didn't expect that she was actually a key figure.

"Yeah." Yan Su responded.

He had the same intention.

When the truth of his previous life was revealed, it was such a huge blow to him that he didn't think carefully about many things.

If you really look into it carefully, there are actually many doubts here.

"It was only in this life that you found out that Chuntao was from the demon clan, right?" Fu Sheng asked.

"Correct."

At that time in Xuanxian Sect, when Jun Wuchi guided the demonic energy out of Fu Sheng, Yan Su was no less shocked than others, in fact even more so.

It was precisely because of his experience in the previous life that Yan Su knew Chuntao’s hatred for the demons, so when he discovered that Chuntao herself was also a demon, he was even more surprised.

"By the way, when were you reborn?" Fu Sheng suddenly thought that if the male protagonist was reborn from the beginning, the Yan family should not have embarked on the path of colluding with the demons, and Chuntao would not have been able to enter the Yan family.

"When you came to save me for the first time." Yan Su said.

Fu Sheng was stunned when she heard this. It turned out that the male protagonist was reborn when she just entered the book.

No wonder.

She said that the male protagonist was reborn, so why was he sold to a brothel in this life?

"Yan Su, why didn't you kill me when you first saw me after your rebirth?" Fu Sheng asked, "At that time, you didn't know who I was. In your eyes, I was Chun Tao."

The reason why Fu Sheng first traveled to Chuntao's body was that he found that the male protagonist was different from the description in the novel, but he did not think about rebirth. This was because Fu Sheng felt that with the male protagonist's temper, Chuntao betrayed him, and in his next life, given the male protagonist's decisive and murderous character in the later part of the novel, he would definitely not let Chuntao go.

It is even possible that the male protagonist will kill her directly when she meets him for the first time.

But the male protagonist did not kill her at that time, he just asked her to leave and not follow him.

It is this point that makes Fu Sheng feel that the male protagonist cannot be reborn.

And now, after knowing that Chuntao and the male protagonist had twin puppet threads planted in their bodies, this question puzzled Fu Sheng even more.

Yan Su lived a new life. He knew that Chun Tao had his puppet thread in her body. Shouldn't he kill her? After all, once the master of the puppet thread died, the slave would be reborn, and his innate strength would no longer be restricted.

Hearing Fu Sheng's words, Yan Su did not answer immediately this time. Instead, he was silent for a few seconds before speaking: "Fu Sheng, you know, when I learned that I was reborn, I was prepared to spend this life in a daze."

"I chose to end my life because life had lost its meaning. I don't understand why I would be reborn again." Yan Su said slowly, "So the moment I found out that I was reborn, I didn't want to care about anything anymore. I don't care about the extermination of the Yan family, I don't care about becoming a god, and as for Chun Tao, I don't want to care about her either - I'm really too tired."

In his previous life, he hardly had a single day to relax and was always struggling in the mud.

He has no friends or relatives, and his only desire is to become stronger and restore the reputation of the Yan family.

But in the end, efforts become vain and persistence becomes a bubble.

He suddenly felt that there was no meaning in living.

"I just thought, I can just walk along in a daze like this, following the path of my previous life. Maybe one day I will die at the hands of the Immortal Alliance, or fall in some secret realm, and end my life hastily."

Listening to Yan Su's clear and light voice, Fu Sheng felt as if his heart was blocked by a piece of wet and heavy cotton, and his whole heart was filled with depression.

"This was my initial thought, but slowly, I changed my mind because of you." Yan Su looked into Fu Sheng's eyes, "Perhaps you won't believe it, but this period of time is the most vivid memory in my past two lives. You made me feel that living a good life is not that bad, and made me feel that there is something to look forward to in this life."

“I think this is the meaning of my rebirth.”

There was no special ups and downs in Yan Su's tone, just like a calm statement, and his language was not even very moving, but every word made Fu Sheng's heart beat faster.

——Is this a confession?

Fu Sheng felt that Yan Su’s words carried too much weight.

Perhaps it is difficult for others to understand Yan Su's negative feelings towards life.

But Fu Sheng could understand it inexplicably.

The Painted Spirits only have a lifespan of thirty years. From the moment they are born, they have been constantly counting down the days to their death. Even though they have everything they want, they find life more boring because of their power.

Fu Sheng has made many friends, but she doesn’t make close friends because she knows that these relationships won’t last for more than a few years. When she was 20, she wanted to keep a pet, but she felt that she would die earlier than the pet and was afraid that the pet would have no one to take care of it in the future. She wanted to work, but she didn’t have any special hobbies. Work was just a day-to-day grind. Others might make money to support themselves in their old age, but she didn’t even have the opportunity to do so.

The sense of anticipation is the pillar that keeps a person going, so people often say that one should have hope in life. Sometimes, it is enough to hear the truth in the morning and die in the evening. This is the case.

But the Painting Spirits rarely have this sense of anticipation, or rather, they rarely have hope for life. They have nothing they want to accomplish. No matter how comfortable their lives are, the fact of death at the age of thirty is like a thorn lingering in their hearts, announcing the end of everything.

So in the end, she chose to travel around the world, intending only to see the world once and then peacefully face the end of her life.

Yan Su said that her arrival made him feel that these days were very fresh, but the same was true for Fu Sheng. After she entered the book, she had the task of assisting the male protagonist to become a god, which made her feel that every day she had a direction and goal, rather than being idle and at a loss.

Therefore, Fu Sheng could understand Yan Su's feelings very well. When the meaning of life cannot be found, living is nothing more than a consumption day after day.

But if he said that the meaning of living again in this life was because of her, Fu Sheng felt that this sentence was too heavy.

My awareness of my position in the male protagonist's heart also rose to a higher level.

At least for her, she couldn't bet the meaning of her life on one person.

"Your life has just begun, why are you speaking like it's your last words?" Fu Sheng smiled and tried to make the atmosphere more relaxed: "Sometimes it's good to live in the present moment."

Yan Su smiled and said "hmm" softly.

"Let's not talk about this anymore." Fu Sheng looked at the two stone beds in the cave and said, "This bed is too hard. I'll draw two sets of mattresses and put them on."

The disciples of Tianyan Sect will bring the daily necessities tomorrow. Everything else is fine, but this bed is not fit for purpose.

That's a stone bed! It's so hard that you can't sleep on it!

Speaking of which, Fu Sheng wanted to complain. It was fine if Feng Yunqing didn't know her identity, but later he knew that she was a woman, but he didn't arrange separate accommodation for her and let her share a room with the male protagonist.

Especially now, after knowing clearly the male protagonist's feelings, Fu Sheng always feels weird living in the same house with him.