Villain, be good! I'm here to give birth to a baby [Quick Wear]

(The following is the system reading the villain's memory...)

I am Lin Zhilin.

It is undoubtedly lucky to be born into a top upper-class family that everyone dreams of.

To have clothes to wear and food to eat, and to be dressed in gold and silver, is a life that many people cannot achieve even if they work their whole lives to achieve.

I think I must have been born into a good family if my grandfather hadn't died so early.

It just so happened that he died early and so unexpectedly that I happened to be born when he left a lot of mess behind.

Moreover, the day he died was the day I was born. The weather was bad, with lightning, thunder and heavy rain, as if it was not welcoming my arrival. An out-of-control truck hit the car he was riding in.

My grandfather died and I inherited his estate.

The first people who coveted the money were my parents.

If I hadn't been born with a strange disease, they might have pretended to be a loving couple until I grew up instead of disliking me in various ways.

Unfortunately, there is no if. My strange disease scared them, making it impossible for this already hypocritical couple to continue pretending. They just wanted this monster of mine to become an adult as soon as possible, so they took the money and escaped from this place.

In fact, my strange disease was not serious at the beginning. It just looked scary but would not hurt anyone. It might also be because I was too young and had no ability to attack.

Anyway, the doctor said that I was fine, the disease didn't occur often, and it wasn't harmful, so there was no need to worry too much.

But my parents couldn't stand a child with red eyes, not to mention that my grandfather had died, so there was no need for them to maintain a good relationship. Conflicts arose one after another, and all they did was quarrel.

Whenever I cried, they would let the servants take me away. But the more I cried, the redder my eyes became and the more likely I would develop strange diseases. The servants were often scared by me and would leave me alone in the room, letting me cry.

As I got older, I started hurting people, so I was locked up.

I don't like the dark and I don't like being locked up, but this is the only way my parents feel safe.

They called me a little monster, said I was sick, and beat me when they were in a bad mood. I wanted to change their opinion of me.

So I did housework, cooked for them, and became a good child in the eyes of the adults...but it was no use, they still locked me up.

Somewhere in the dark, I felt like a voice was talking to me.

It seemed to be guiding me forward, but I didn't want to pay attention to it.

Then I found that my strange illness was getting worse and worse, to the point where I often hurt people at school. My parents also often locked me up like a mad dog.

Being in a dark and small space for a long time has caused me to have sequelae: fear of the dark and depression. When these sequelae recur, the frequency of my strange illness relapses becomes higher, so I have to take medicine to stay awake.

Until... Mo Yunshu took my book. I don't know what she did. She always makes trouble for me like this and seems to enjoy making me sad.

But this time she accidentally fell and hurt herself, and she falsely accused me of being injured due to an attack.

She had no evidence, but everyone believed her.

I was expelled from school, and under pressure from my parents, I apologized and admitted that it was a mistake that was not my fault.

That voice appeared again.

It's trying to seduce me, I know.

But I chose to listen to it.

I called this strange voice destiny. I followed it, and my life became smoother. My strange illness was brought under control, and even the sequelae formed after birth improved a lot. The frequency of taking medicine also decreased.

But I knew it was pointing me to a dead end, and it didn't really want me to live.

But so what? I am a monster anyway. It doesn’t matter to me whether I am alive or dead. I just want to take revenge on those people.

Under its teachings, I understand that some things are useless if you just talk about them, and those people prefer hypocrisy to sincerity.

So I began to like lying. If someone said I was wrong, I would admit it. Whatever they said was the truth. What mattered was what they wanted to hear.

And many times, words can kill.

For example, my parents, I just said a few light words and they would attack each other with knives.

I was at the scene on the day they died, but I did not kill them. The surveillance footage can prove it for me.

Without them, I feel like life is easier.

But there are many people who approach me with strong purpose. Maybe they are instigated by their parents, or maybe they have inappropriate thoughts. Anyway, in my eyes, these people will die.

What I hate most is these people's self-righteous behavior.

But I won't do it myself. Most of the time I'll just be a bystander and watch them step into the trap I set.

Guided by fate, I met Si Nanheng, who came to me directly to discuss cooperation. He said that he hated the Mo family, but in fact he hated Mo Yunshu for stealing his limelight at school.

I agreed to him. I knew what fate wanted me to do. It wanted me to help Si Nanheng. Plus, I had originally planned to destroy the Mo family, so... it was a happy cooperation.

As time went by, I had enough capital, but it was not enough. I was waiting for a good opportunity, just like the appearance of Li Weiming.

She is the real daughter of the Mo family. I knew this news a long time ago, so I wanted to make friends with her.

And Si Nanheng?

It should be because he thinks she looks similar to Mo Yunshu. After all, he has always wanted to surpass Mo Yunshu, so when he looks for a woman, he likes to look for one who looks like her. I think this is a kind of bad taste of his.

I just followed my destiny and approached Li Weiming. I couldn't say that I liked her, nor did I have any intention of snatching her away from Si Nanheng. What's more, I felt that the thread that was secretly pulling me would not allow me to snatch her away.

If nothing unexpected happens, after I have taken revenge on those I deserve, I will follow the guidance of fate and walk towards my own death. There is nothing in this world worth my lingering. To be honest, Si Nanheng can barely be considered half a friend of mine.

Although I have never liked him and felt that he was so well favored by fate, while I was forced to accept my own death which would come sooner or later, he was indeed the only one among so many people who could be called my friend.

As for Lu Fei?

He has his own little thoughts. I can only say that he is someone who will not harm me. We are a bit familiar with each other, but not friends. It's just that people outside like to call the three of us friends.

I thought that after I arranged everything, I would die early. There was not much meaning in living anyway, and fate did not want me to live too long. But I would give my property to Li Weiming.

It’s not because I like her so much, but if I give it to Si Nanheng directly, he will definitely not accept it. But I know that they will be together sooner or later, so it’s the same if I give it to him indirectly.

Anyway, fate guided me to do this.

But someone appeared and interrupted everything. Her name was Lin Yaner, the brainless eldest daughter of the Lin family.

The first time I met her, I felt that she was a fool who was controlled by fate without knowing it. She fell in love with Si Nanheng and ended up with a miserable ending.

This is something I could have predicted at first glance.

But what I didn't expect was that she would get close to me. Logically, she shouldn't get close to me, and I didn't want to get involved in this trouble, so I rejected her again and again.

I think she picked the wrong person, or maybe she thought of me as a stand-in for Si Nanheng. Li Weiming is like that. I don’t like being a stand-in. I’m already annoyed by Li Weiming alone, and if there’s another one…

It would be better to kill her directly. After all, fate won’t punish her if she is killed. She is just a person with no weight.

Maybe I can use this opportunity to kill Li Weiming and Si Nanheng, which is a good thing. Although the probability of success is not high, it is still interesting to scare them, isn't it?

What's more, I could feel that the string pulling me didn't allow me to get close to her.

But she still succeeded. I guess I underestimated her intelligence. I was a little suspicious that she was pretending to be stupid, so I casually tested her with the topic of marriage. After all, marriage is a lifelong event.

In the end, she actually agreed, proving her intelligence.

But I know I can't marry her, because my fate line won't allow me to escape its control. The frequent occurrence of sequelae is a warning, but after all, I had a fleeting romance with her...

I tried to remind her not to let fate play with her. She could get away with it because she could guess from the miraculous phenomenon that she suddenly became invisible, especially since her abnormal behavior did not attract the attention of fate...

Unlike me, who starts issuing secret warnings as soon as fate is a little out of control. It's really annoying.

But she didn't realize what I meant at all, and actually told me that she didn't want to marry me. I knew it wasn't her fault, but I was still angry.

So I thought of the idea that had popped up in my mind before, and decided to kill her.

In the end, I failed. Lin Yaner came back and gave me a gift. For the first time, I realized the meaning of the word "kindness". Maybe there was something else mixed in this "kindness", maybe it was because I looked like the person she liked...

But how should I put it? I have mixed feelings.

It's like I know the moon doesn't belong to me, but for that moment, the moonlight really shines on me.

And she is very naive, too naive, stupid.

What may seem imperfect to others is actually perfection to me. After all, I am not a good person.

Compared to those who are more thoughtful, I prefer to be with her. I think I like her a little bit, although she is not smart and can even forget the purpose of approaching me, so that I often feel that I am taking advantage of her and I don’t know how to repay her...

But when I think about it, it doesn’t matter. They are just using me as a substitute. It doesn’t matter who you are using as a substitute for. Suddenly, I don’t really mind being used as a substitute anymore.

I have never received kindness from others in my life. She is the first one. Even if it is not much, it is enough. I never asked for such a thing.

It's a rare occasion... I want to rebel against fate.

I don't want to die like this, I want her to like me.

[Yan Er, don't like him, like me, okay? ]

[Is it okay to like someone named "Lin Zhilin" instead of "Si Nanheng"? 】

I have thought of these two sentences countless times in my mind, but never said them out loud, because I simply couldn't say them, the damn fate was stopping me.

It sensed my changing of heart and gave me more and more warnings every day, forcing me to take medication to fight it. But I knew it was useless. The effect of the medication was getting smaller and smaller, and one day I would succumb to it.

Or in other words, I would become a complete puppet in its hands, without even a glimmer of freedom.

Damn fate, damn strange disease, am I born to be someone else's fool and die? Why?

Also, Yan'er should like me, not Si Nanheng!

I wanted to take a chance, seemingly obeying the destiny, but actually having other plans... But the frequent recurrence of sequelae made me realize that fate had discovered something and it began to punish me.

I don't think so. I can fight it and no one can stop me.

Until the Nan family incident happened...

Regarding the Nan family's matter, I originally didn't intend to get involved, but Nan Huai talked too much. She said a lot of things to Yan'er that she shouldn't have said. Fortunately, Yan'er didn't stay away from me because of this, but just in case, I decided to take action and drag the Nan family into the quagmire.

But what I never expected was that Yan'er would suddenly go crazy and bang her head against the wall at the Nan family's house that day. At that moment, I could hardly control my emotions and had a seizure.

The moment she inexplicably chose to end her life, my heart almost suffocated.

I understand that it is fate that is manipulating her.

Because my resistance made it very unhappy.

So I sat in the hospital room holding her and prayed to it...

I was wrong, I will never do it again.

Please don't let her die, okay?

I die, I die, isn't that enough?!

I am willing to follow the path you give me. I will not resist. I will die... Please, don't hurt her.

She was stupid, pregnant, and both stupid and fragile.

She has no killing power at all, I'm going to die.

I'm dead, please don't hurt her anymore.

……

I don’t know how long I prayed like this for death. Yan’er finally woke up. She knew nothing, but I had decided to stay away from her.

Because her sudden suicide attempt made me realize that I couldn't lose her, I couldn't joke with her life.

Moreover, the power of fate is far more powerful than I thought. It can control Yan'er to commit suicide, and naturally it can also control others to kill her. Yan'er is stupid and doesn't know anything, so it's too easy to kill her...

So I gave up and chose to bow to fate.

I became the chess piece that was controlled by fate again, watching myself soberly walk towards death step by step, no longer able to muster the slightest desire to resist.

But Yan'er came to me again and again, confessing her love and saying those words to me while she was pregnant. It was a bit unexpected, but I was not particularly surprised.

Before, when Lin Yan'er was able to become invisible inexplicably, I actually guessed that she might have something I didn't know about that could help her escape the fate line, so when she gave me the so-called luck pill, I was quite surprised. I knew that there was something real in it because her eyes couldn't lie.

But I don't need these, I just want her to live well.

Although fate can no longer control her, there are many ways to kill her.

She is still too innocent and I don't want her to get hurt.

I love her, even if I can't say it.

She finally managed to escape the control of fate, and she doesn't want to be dragged into it again because of me.

So the day she came to me to make things clear, I also wanted her to give up the idea of ​​looking for me, but I could never say anything too heartless to her, and I was actually quite afraid that she would cry.

But I have to say that I am more afraid of her dying than crying.

But her repeated approach still made Fate feel uneasy. I could feel that I was becoming less and less able to control the strange disease in my body. Especially after seeing Lin Yaner, the strange disease started to work its way into my body, and I really wanted to kill her.

Later, I really killed her. It was Mo Yunran who asked her to take care of me when I was drunk. I hated her so much and wanted to skin her alive, but I also knew clearly that she brought people to me under the secret guidance of fate.

Fate triggered my strange disease when I was off guard, and wanted me to kill Yan'er with my own hands.

This realization made me want to kill everyone, and my mental state became increasingly abnormal.

However, Yan'er survived in the end.

I don’t think fate was kind to her. I thought maybe she had hidden some meatballs that I didn’t know about and didn’t eat them, so she escaped.

But I dared not get close to her again. The thread of fate had already tied me up. In order to prevent me from losing control and killing her, I dared not see her at all, until I was finally ready to face my own death as arranged by fate.

After I die, it will be Si Nanheng's time to shine. I have paved the way for him, he just needs to follow it.

The Mo family will be destroyed by him, Li Weiming will belong to him, and I, the monster, should disappear.

This is what happens when fate favors me, and I end up with nothing, ending my life in such a pitiful and stupid way.

Because he competed with Si Nanheng for a woman, he turned evil and became his opponent, and finally died in the fire while saving the woman.

……

Before death.

I thought, I'm about to die, so it wouldn't be too much to see her and fulfill my wish, right?

Let me say goodbye to my love.

It's the last time.