Villain, be good! I'm here to give birth to a baby [Quick Wear]

It was a burden that represented the "filth" of the Yang family.

Because not all members of the Yang family are good. After my grandfather died, some people in the Yang family became disloyal and did things they shouldn't have done.

The evidence was placed in this bundle, and my grandmother hoped that I could help her deal with it.

I accepted it and instead of burning it immediately, I buried it under the plum tree.

As for the things that my grandmother was worried about, I dealt with them later and warned them in my grandmother's tone to prevent them from making mistakes again.

The Yang family cannot fall, it needs a tree like its grandfather that can shelter it from the wind and rain.

Yang Li is a very good candidate.

Although I still think he is a little naive and doesn't even know as much about the ways of the world as Li Li, I will teach him little by little, let him realize his shortcomings and give him time to grow.

I believe that he can grow into a big tree that can block out the sun and the sky. He has good intentions and is talented. He just needs me to slowly guide him and help him get to know the true side of those old ministers in the court little by little.

I don't want him to be like me when I first entered the palace. As soon as I entered, I had to face a completely different life, with the evil of human nature fully presented before him. I was afraid that he would not be able to accept it and would go crazy and want to commit suicide, just like Li Li.

But he still liked to call me brother, even though he knew I was a bad person. He felt sad about my change and wanted to persuade me to turn back, but he didn't know that I couldn't turn back.

What a stupid brother.

I have to admit that sometimes I envy him. I also want to grow up carefree with my grandmother like him. I also want to have a healthy body and not be a person destined to die young.

I also want to be selfish for once, I want others to know what kind of person I am, I don’t want to hear all kinds of insults from them, and I’m tired of exchanging insults with them…

But this thought usually only lasts for a moment and disappears quickly.

I'm doing well now. Although I have committed many evil deeds, the world remembers my name and my life is meaningful. In the end, I don't have to watch myself die without being able to do anything.

I just want to do as many interesting things as possible before I die, but I don’t want to take the credit, so give the credit to whoever wants it, and if no one wants it, I’ll just pick someone at random and give it to them, because I don’t want it anyway.

I don’t quite understand why I want to do good deeds without leaving a name. Maybe it’s out of my inner thoughts, or maybe I want to pray to God for a good body in the next life?

I can’t really tell you the specific reason, but I just did it when I wanted to.

Later, Emperor Yongchu became seriously ill, and it was time to choose a new emperor.

Out of consideration for the Yang family, I supported a young emperor to ascend the throne. I required the future new emperor to pay a certain price to obtain the throne, and asked Yang Li to help him.

In this way, when the real new emperor ascends the throne, Yang Li's status in the Yang family will rise, and the new emperor will not be too hostile to the Yang family because of his contribution to his seizure of the throne.

If Yang Li makes any mistakes in the future, the new emperor will give him a break because of our relationship, but I have to play the role of the bad guy and not let the new emperor see through it.

So I deliberately gave the credit to Yang Li many times later. It wasn't really because I wanted to give it to him, but in fact I was giving it to the Yang family. I wanted the future new emperor, King Liang, to have some good thoughts towards the Yang family.

What I didn't expect was that I would meet a concubine named "Lin Qingyan". She was a congenital mute, the kind that could not be cured. I always felt a sense of sympathy for people like her who were born with unfortunate health.

So I didn't want to scold her too much. When she knelt outside the door and begged to see me, I finally couldn't help but agreed to let her in, intending to scold her and send her away.

But as I was talking, I still didn't say anything too harsh, for fear that I would really make her cry.

Because I am good at scolding people, but not very good at coaxing people.

This little concubine is also a pitiful person. I think it’s better to stop at the right time. There’s no need to cry. She won’t even know how to comfort herself by then.

I don’t know if it was because I was too kind that day, but she actually had the guts to run up to me and tell me that she wanted to be sent to the eunuch’s palace. She was so stupid not to take this opportunity to leave the palace and gain her freedom.

I think she looks a bit like Li Li, but not like Li Li. Maybe it’s because Li Li is not as pretty as her and has a gentler personality.

So when I scold her, I don’t want to scold her anymore, unlike before when I scolded Li Li, I became more and more excited and didn’t feel any guilt at all.

I even don't like to say harsh words to her, always afraid that she would really cry in front of me. Fortunately, she never cried because of my scolding, and she even spent New Year's Eve with me.

I don’t know why my memory of that night is a little fuzzy. I can’t remember what happened, but my body was obviously not what a eunuch should be.

But she said nothing happened. I didn't quite believe her, so I asked someone to give her a bowl of abortion pills.

Because I don't want to have children of my own, my eyes have begun to show symptoms of being unable to distinguish between light and dark colors. The disease has come and I won't live long.

If I leave a child to her, how will she raise the child alone in the future?

Because I am an unfortunate person, I always like to think of things in the worst possible way. I can't remember what happened that night, and I think I couldn't control my body and did something wrong, so I want to compensate her for her innocence.

But before I could figure it out, I was rushed over to deal with the matters in Yezhou, so I had to put the matter of compensating her on hold for the time being.

Before leaving, I chatted with her under the plum tree. She asked me for the right to raise the plum tree, and I gave it to her without any concern. I was about to kill the tree anyway, so I wouldn't blame her even if she couldn't keep it alive.

Later I went to Yezhou. There were a lot of things going on there, especially my idiot brother who needed me to teach him what to do. I secretly sent someone to inadvertently reveal some of Yang Li's doings to King Liang, which won his favor.

He also deliberately put the credit for some of my things on the head of King Liang in the name of Yang Li. This would make King Liang more popular among the people and would also make King Liang owe Yang Li a favor.

I also took advantage of those things to stand against them and drove Yang Li to King Liang. Among them, I helped a minor official who was found out to have embezzled disaster relief funds for his wife. I didn't know what happened to me, but I thought of Qingyan who was far away in the eunuch palace, so I wrote a letter and asked someone to pass it on.

After sending the letter, I immediately regretted it.

I felt like I was sick. What if she misunderstood what I wrote? I didn't want to drag her down and get scolded along with me.

After the minor official left, he gave me a guqin.

Actually, I originally wanted to sell it for money, because I really didn’t have much money left, but when I thought of a person in the eunuch palace, I stayed.

I'm not good at talking and not very good at coaxing people, so I'll just use this to coax her when the time comes.

But as soon as I got back, I heard about her pregnancy. Before I could even be surprised, I heard the news that the Prince of Qi was causing trouble. I roughly knew why the Prince of Qi came to the Eunuch Palace to cause trouble. He must have heard some rumors and wanted to find evidence to bring me down in the Eunuch Palace while I was not there. Unfortunately, he found nothing.

In order to stop him from having this idea, and to make Yang Li's silly brother completely stand on the side of King Liang, and maybe a little for Qingyan, I put on a big show.

After the performance, I took Qingyan back inside. I don’t want a child, but I respect her idea. If she really wants it, I will find a way to protect the safety of her and the child.

When she really said she wanted it, I realized that I should find a way to save some money, otherwise after I died, it would be difficult for her to get married and live alone with the children.

I should also give her a status, otherwise people will gossip about her when she gets pregnant.

I am fine with people secretly stabbing me in the back, she shouldn't be talked about, I've been scolded enough, I don't care.

But I'm used to being poor, so it was really hard for me to come up with the money for this wedding in a short time. I worked as a eunuch for a lot of people before I could raise some money, but it was still not a grand wedding.

So I decided to send a petition to all those who hated me, inviting them to come and watch this ridiculous eunuch marrying a wife, but the prerequisite was that they had to pay a share of the money, otherwise they would not be allowed in.

I didn't expect that these people would actually ask me to collect a wave of money in order to get in, and I got enough money for the wedding, and there was still some money left over.

I asked Wang Lian to transfer the remaining silver to Qingyan.

On the wedding day, no matter how those people cursed me, or deliberately laughed at me or humiliated me, I didn't care and I didn't fight back. After all, I received the money, so it wasn't in vain that they cursed me.

However, anyone who wants to come in and curse on the wedding day must pay double the money, otherwise they will not be allowed in.

I thought no one would spend money just to scold me, but I overestimated my reputation and made a small profit.

It can be used as a legacy for Qingyan and the children in the future.

I didn't dare let Qingyan know all this, for fear that she would be sad.

But after marrying me, she didn't seem happy. I thought maybe she didn't like me in her heart and didn't want to marry me, but just wanted to seek my protection.

I took it upon myself to marry her, and even burned my own letters, which must have made her sad.

So I took out my guqin to try to cheer her up, but the sudden change in pitch of the sound made me feel uneasy, and I didn't think she would like me.

There is nothing good about me that is worthy of love, so how could she like me?

She shouldn't like me.

I am destined not to be able to stay with her for long. No matter what you like me, there is nothing you can do about it. Someone like me is not worthy of you, and I will make you sad even if I die.

So I wrote another letter.

[I love my wife till death.]

After thinking about it, I still want to burn it.

But later I suddenly didn't want to burn it anymore. I didn't understand what I was doing, so I just pressed it under the inkstone and ignored it. I think Wang Lian packed up her things and threw it away later.

Wang Lian is tight-lipped and won’t tell anyone about what she has seen.

I also found that my eyesight was getting worse and worse. Looking at the plum tree outside the window that was fed by Qingyan, I couldn't help but sigh.

I don't understand why she wants to keep the plum tree alive, and I don't understand why she wants to help me...

But no matter what the reason is, it doesn't matter. I have arranged everything for myself. I will die before my body completely loses the ability to move, so that the new emperor can ascend the throne and the Yang family can be established.

But the incident with the little emperor was indeed beyond my expectations. I didn't expect that someone would dare to frame me openly. I was blind and weak, so I was powerless to find out who was behind the trick and could only rely on guessing.

But I have made too many enemies, and I really can’t guess who did it for the time being. I think anyone could have done it. Even if I really find out, I won’t have much time to retaliate against the other party.

I don't have much time left.

Now I can only do what I can...