The unscrupulous system forced me to frantically test the small black room

Gong Cheng and Gu Dongnan have returned to China for more than half a year. The Gu family has been established and has quickly gained a firm foothold. The two have successfully obtained the identity and status they wanted and are standing on a high platform.

Everything is changing for the better.

The relationship between the two gradually became closer, and everything developed smoothly.

On this day, Gu Dongnan expressed his feelings to Gong Cheng according to the plan he had made before returning home. However, after the words came out of his mouth, Gu Dongnan felt an inexplicable emotion.

Do you really like Gongcheng?

Gu Dongnan was shocked that such an absurd thought would arise in his mind.

Over the years, Gong Cheng and I have been relying on each other for warmth while abroad, and have overcome many setbacks together. After returning to China, we have worked together to build this career. There has always been only each other in each other's world.

It can be said that Gong Cheng redeemed himself when he was helpless in a foreign country.

There is no doubt that I am very grateful to him.

But is this feeling really like or even love?

And what is this heavy emotion that has been weighing on my heart since I returned home?

What is this feeling like you've forgotten something important?

Gu Dongnan couldn't explain it clearly.

At this time, Gu Dongnan was looking down at Gong Cheng who was silent in front of him. Gong Cheng's face did not show much surprise, but he did not show any surprise either.

Gong Cheng had expected Gu Dongnan to confess his love to him. Even before returning home, he was still looking forward to the moment when they would hug each other.

But at this moment, Gong Cheng knew clearly that the heart in his chest did not beat up and down because of the other party's heartfelt words.

She even felt that Gu Dongnan's love for her was becoming a burden that she could not avoid.

I should have agreed to him. It seemed that throwing myself into his arms now was a matter of course, as if it was a cliché plot written by fate.

But the pulling feeling in his heart made Gong Cheng subconsciously take a step back.

Gong Cheng didn't understand what he was worried about. He loved Gu Dongnan. At least after so many years of living together, he should love him.

Becoming a partner with Gu Dongnan had long been written into her life plan. Everything was going according to plan and everything was developing just right.

But what is the uneasiness and restlessness growing in my chest? What is the feeling of emptiness that has been engulfing me all the time since I returned home?

It seemed as if everything was still under my control, but when I opened my hands, I found that there was nothing in them.

I forgot one important thing.

It is also possible that you have forgotten an important person.

Maybe it's just my anxiety and impetuousness, and the unnecessary troubles in my boring life.

But Gong Cheng knew very well that he was already trapped and almost drowning, with no chance of breathing.

Gong Cheng opened his mouth, but Gu Dongnan spoke before Gong Cheng could say anything.

"Don't rush to give me an answer. I think you should take some time to carefully consider the relationship between us and make a careful decision."

"And I also want to calm myself down and make sure whether expressing my feelings now is an immature and impulsive behavior without thinking." Gu Dongnan said.

After Gu Dongnan finished speaking, he felt depressed.

Gu Dongnan knew that his confession was not impulsive, but a decision made after careful consideration based on planning.

Gong Cheng was stunned for a moment when he heard this, and then nodded.

They both breathed a sigh of relief at the same time.

They also realized that there seemed to be something wrong with their relationship.

The two of them once again threw themselves into their busy work. It seemed that life was no different from before, and their careers were also booming, but the things that were suppressed in their hearts became heavier.

That day, at the suggestion of a female colleague, the two went to Daoyuan Temple on Valentine's Day. They heard that it was the season when locust flowers were in full bloom, and the locust flowers in Daoyuan Temple were the most famous.

Gong Cheng and Gu Dongnan climbed the stairs in silence, moving in and out of the bustling crowd, hearing the cheers and casual chats of passers-by.

A breeze blew by, the branches of the locust tree swayed, and the locust flowers fell, the petals scattered all over the sky, and everyone exclaimed in joy.

Gong Cheng stretched out his hand in a daze, and the pure white and translucent locust flowers fell into his palm, tinged with a hint of fragrance.

Suddenly, someone called me "Xiaocheng".

Gong Cheng subconsciously turned his head to look at the stairs behind him, but he only saw a vast sea of ​​people.

Gong Cheng looked around aimlessly, but he had no idea what he was looking for. He could only stand there in confusion and let the crowd go against him. He was knocked to the ground by the crowded passers-by and did not come to his senses until Gu Dongnan shouted at him several times.

Gu Dongnan and Gong Cheng followed the route and visited several halls of Daoyuan Temple, and finally asked for a string of beads each.

Gong Cheng rubbed the plain white beads in his hand, and felt the slightly cool touch on his fingertips.

Gong Cheng quietly recited in his mind what the little monk had just said about the meaning of the beads.

"Peace and joy, everything goes well."

The two had almost finished their walk and were about to go down the stairs when they ran into an old friend.

"Sister Xiaocheng...are you Gongcheng?" Zhang Miaoyu asked.

Gong Cheng's heart trembled when he heard this, and his eyes fell on the three girls in front of him.

It’s Zhang Miaoyu, that man’s sister.

Since returning to China, Gong Cheng and Gu Dongnan have avoided talking about that person, and subconsciously avoided all news about that person, constantly worrying that the other party would know about their return and come to harass them.

Even if you hear the other person's name accidentally, the overwhelming resentment and hatred in your heart will fill your chest.

Although several years have passed, Gong Cheng still cannot forget the humiliation and hurt that man brought to him during those three years.

His existence is a constant reminder of how wretched and dirty he once was.

I always remind myself how glamorous I am now, and how decadent and disgusting I was in the past.

Even when he woke up in the middle of the night, Gong Cheng would still wake up because of those blurred memories.

I was afraid that when I woke up and opened my eyes, I would see the man who had made me fear and hate him for several years lying next to me.