The unscrupulous system forced me to frantically test the small black room

"Since you insist on bearing the consequences, I will let you bear them," said Father Xu.

Afterwards, Xu Yanze was sent to the United States like a stray dog. He usually went to school and attended classes like a normal student, but was forcibly sent to a "treatment center" on weekends.

It was an institution that specialized in treating the disease called "homosexuality".

During this period, Xu Yanze was lying on the same hospital bed, was forcibly injected with female hormones, and had countless tubes of blood drawn for testing.

She screamed until she suffocated and lost consciousness during countless electric shock treatments, and she kept experiencing the images of Tao Zhi bullying and humiliating her in brainwashing hypnosis. She was forced to watch videos of heterosexual intercourse on a loop and vomited until she fainted.

Even at the instigation of his father, he called men to violate Xu Yanze in order to achieve his goal of hating men. Only after Xu Yanze bit his tongue and threatened to die was he forced to give up this treatment plan.

In school, Xu Yanze was aloof and gloomy, with a pale face as if he would die in the next second. He always exuded a faint smell of blood, so he was avoided by other students and was nicknamed "Asian Long-legged Ghost".

Treatment, classes, day after day.

It was not until Xu Yanze cut his wrist with a blade in extreme unbearable pain, blood spurted out, and as the blood and body temperature were lost, that Xu Yanze finally gained a moment of peace in his blurred consciousness.

The doctor told Xu's father that Xu Yanze had a new disease, a whining disease called "depression".

Xu Yanze actually found joy in this illness, because the hallucinations during the illness allowed him to see the person he had been thinking about day and night.

Even though his face was hideous, even though his facial features were distorted, even though he tried hard to describe it, he could not make out the outline of his body clearly in the illusion.

Like an ascetic monk, he fell deeper and deeper into self-abuse, never getting tired of reaching out to that man for help, and knowing full well that he knew what was going on, he turned around and left again and again.

Then he cut his flesh with a blade again and again. The glaring red color allowed him to find a moment of relaxation and tranquility from the hustle and bustle and pain.

When Xu's father came to the United States on a business trip, he visited Xu Yanze once. What he saw was Xu Yanze, who was sick, unconscious, and so emaciated that he looked like a ghost.

At this time, Xu Yanze was engulfed by depression. After dropping out of school, he lay in a dim room day and night, in a daze. There were scars under the gauze on his arms, with new and old wounds intertwined. He could only rely on injections of sedatives to maintain occasional clarity of mind.

The curtains in the room were drawn tightly, and the warm sunlight outside was so glaring to him that it was like a burning sensation.

When he regained consciousness for a moment, Xu Yanze saw his family, reached out to his father with trembling hands, and sobbed.

"Dad, save me."

Xu Yanze curled up his body, his face showing extreme pain, and the blood from the wound on his wrist had dried and turned black.

"My Xu family can't tolerate trash like you"

Xu's father was angry that he did not fight back and turned away.

At this point, Xu Yanze’s living expenses were cut off, and he was left to fend for himself in the United States.

Xu Yanze looked for a job almost out of his instinct to survive. He was able to find a decent job at first, but his true colors would soon be exposed due to a depression attack. He would look miserable in front of others and eventually lose his job.

So they can only do dirty and tiring work to earn money to maintain the basic energy intake for survival.

It was a sunny day.

Xu Yanze was in a rare good mood, so he decided to die.

Xu Yanze cleaned the dim and small rental house, took out his wrinkled suit that had been stuffed in the corner and put it on, put on a tie, shaved his beard, put on his leather shoes and walked out.

Xu Yanze decided to die outside. After all, dying in the rental house would be too much trouble for the landlord.

The river 2 kilometers away is good. Xu Yanze has observed it several times when he passed by the river after get off work at the restaurant where he worked part-time.

It's still clear, and it's a worthy place to commit suicide.

Xu Yanze walked over and treated it as his last walk.

The sun was warm on the road and there were clusters of flowers on the roadside. Xu Yanze was in a good mood and admired them for a while.

Xu Yanze came to the bridge and jumped down without any hesitation.

His body flipped over in the air and fell straight down. Xu Yanze's hand reached out to the blue sky, then fell into the water. His whole body was wrapped in the cold river water. The water entered his mouth and nose and his lungs, and a feeling of suffocation swept over him.

Xu Yanze's vision gradually became blurred, and he allowed himself to sink deeper and deeper.

In a trance, I saw Tao Zhi running towards me and extending his hand to me.

I can still see him at the end of my life, so the ending of my life is not too bad.

After Xu Yanze opened his eyes, he was soaked all over and started coughing violently. He coughed and retched, and he almost vomited out his lungs.

The coughing gradually subsided, and Xu Yanze endured the burning sensation in his throat and looked at the burly man in front of him with confusion.

"Hello Mr. Xu, we are the people sent by Mr. Gu to pick you up for class."

"Mr. Gu said he was sad that he didn't see you in class."

"Considering the possibility that you may not have received the invitation letter, we sent two of us to pick you up in person," Aaron said.

At this time, Ah Hu was wringing the water out of his clothes, and the water fell down as he wrung it.

"Why are you wasting your time talking to him? He accepted Mr. Gu's invitation but he didn't go. There are so many people in the world who begged him but he couldn't get his way. He actually gave Mr. Gu a chance to show his respect."

"Why don't we just tie him up directly? We don't have to bother nagging him here." Ah Hu said impatiently.

Xu Yanze thought about it when he heard it. Speaking of the invitation letter, it seemed that he had indeed received a letter inlaid with gold patterns a few months ago, but he was ill at the time and had no time to take care of it, and he didn't know where he had put it.

"I'm sorry that I couldn't keep the appointment with Mr. Gu you mentioned, and I'm grateful that he still cares about me."

"But I have some things to do now, so please apologize to him for me and I won't go with you to meet him." Xu Yanze said politely.

"What can you be busy with? Are you busy going back to that crappy restaurant to wash dishes?" Ah Hu said.

Xu Yanze struggled to stand up. His legs were still a little weak. He staggered several times before he could stand steadily. The water on his body dripped down. His hair was messy and his glasses were long gone.

"As you can see, I'm busy committing suicide." Xu Yanze said.

Ah Hu became anxious upon hearing this and quickly stopped wringing the clothes.

"Please don't do that, my ancestor. My chest still hurts from the shock when I jumped down to save you just now. I have to get an X-ray later. If you jump again, I will have to jump with you. Please don't torment me." Ah Hu wailed.

"Please don't save me again, it will trouble me." Xu Yanze said solemnly.

"Brother A'long, this kid is just a stubborn person." Ah Hu curled his lips.

Aaron was helpless.

"Tie him up." Aaron said.

"Okay." Ah Hu grinned.