Use a substitute on your wedding night to scatter the ashes of your entire family

Li Shuangwan took the water bag handed over by Hong Shuang and poured a full mouthful of it into her mouth like she did: "Give me some time."

After that, he chuckled again: "Sister Hongshuang, do you think I'm being hypocritical? I was the one who was eager to come to see him, but when I got to him, I was the one who backed away and didn't dare to take another step forward."

She just didn't know how to face him.

"No. No matter who you are, there will always be times when you can't figure things out. What does this matter? Things in this world cannot be explained by a single right or wrong. Ah Yan, follow your heart. Ten days ago, you followed your heart and wanted to come to Daliang to see him. Now, you don't dare to see him anymore, which is also following your heart. So, there is no right or wrong, and there is no such thing as being pretentious or not."

Li Shuangwan looked at her: "Thank you."

The tent was set up quickly. Li Shuangwan ate a few bites and then went to sleep.

She thought she would not be able to sleep, but unexpectedly, she fell asleep as soon as she lay down. She slept for two full hours and did not wake up until after the hour of Xu.

After waking up, she did not rush out, but sat on the bed with her legs bent. She suddenly wondered if she was too impulsive to come to Daliang to find him so recklessly. Would Gu Xingyan forgive her for what she said to him that night?

After thinking for a long time, I still don’t understand.

It was spring, and the flowers were blooming, but the evening breeze was still a little chilly. Li Shuangwan finally stood up, walked to the river, and sat down with his legs bent.

The nights in early spring get dark quickly, but by the quarter after 12:00 p.m., it was already completely dark. Several bonfires were lit next to the tents, and groups of guards gathered together, drinking and eating meat, talking and laughing, all looking forward to the day when they would return to the city to reunite with their parents, wives and children.

Listening to their laughter and talking, I recalled the past.

Once in the northwest, she also gathered around the fire with the soldiers, eating meat and drinking wine in big mouthfuls.

He would feel sad for his compatriots who died on the battlefield. Whenever this happened, my brother would take out pieces of wood and carve their names on them. There were several boxes of such pieces of wood in his tent.

They will all offer a glass of wine to commemorate the dead soldiers, hoping that when they are reborn as humans in the next life, it will be a peaceful and prosperous era with clear seas and calm rivers, no more wars, and no more separation of families.

When there was no war, they sometimes gathered together to tell some interesting stories, such as whose mother had arranged a marriage for him in his hometown and was waiting for him to return victorious, and whose wife had given birth to a big fat boy.

Those days were hard, but also fulfilling.

However, such days never came again after she married Ling Heng in her previous life.

Having seen many wild men on the battlefield, when she first returned to Shengjing City and saw the gentle, humble and polite King Heng, she was dazzled for a moment and was attracted to him. She insisted on marrying him despite the opposition of her parents and brothers.

She thought marrying such a man would be a very happy thing, so even though she lost her martial arts in an assassination attempt, she still struggled out of bed a month later and asked a nanny to teach her etiquette.

She learned how to be a lady from a noble family in Shengjing City, how to be a good princess. It was very difficult to learn to be like the ladies from a noble family in Shengjing City after having been on the battlefield since childhood. Every time she collapsed to the ground due to exhaustion, Yizhu and Luoman felt so distressed and advised her to rest. But when she thought of the man who looked at her with tenderness in his eyes and a smile on his lips, she gritted her teeth and persevered.

Now thinking about it, that smile on the corner of his mouth must be him laughing at himself.

Five months later, she successfully married him.

She thought all the good days would start from this day, but who would have thought that everything was calculated.

He appeared in front of him, and his repeated "encounters" with him were all planned by him.

Gu Xingyan told her that half a year before the marriage, Ling Heng went to Linshan to look for a candidate, and Si Po chose him at first sight.

What’s funny is that my father and mother were also deceived by him, thinking that he was very kind to them. Sometimes they even blamed themselves for having opposed Wanwan’s marriage to Prince Heng. What a good man he was.

His father and brothers tried their best and finally helped him ascend to the supreme position.

Finally, Ling Heng showed his dirty and vicious fangs and raised his butcher knife towards the General's Mansion.

She thought that even God couldn't bear to see her being so stupid, so he let her start over again.

However, it was not the case at all. The heaven had been blind to her for a long time. It was this man who paid the heavy price of two lifetimes and half a life in exchange for her rebirth.

And in her life of rebirth to atone for her sins, on this thorny road, there will be a man named Gu Xingyan who will carry the burden for her, cut through the thorns for her, and carve out a smooth path for her.

What she owed him was more than just one life, more than two and a half lives of this man.

It's the lives of 381 people in the entire General's Mansion.

It is the fate of my parents and brother to live well and see clearly the cannibalistic faces of the Ling royal family and the greedy and ugly faces of my second uncle's family.

It is also Li Shuangwan's life.

"What are you thinking about? Why are you so absorbed in it?" Hong Shuang's voice appeared behind her, interrupting her memories.

Li Shuangwan hurriedly moved to the side and let Hongshuang sit next to her.

"Where's my elder brother?"

"He saw you only ate a few bites of bread at noon, then he put on his arrows and went hunting, saying he would get a hare for you. Even though he was a little angry because you suddenly stopped leaving, he actually cares about you very much."

Li Shuangwan chuckled: "I'm fine."

Hong Shuang handed a pot of wine and a chicken leg to Li Shuang Wan: "Are you hungry? Eat first, Master Shu will come back and give you some roasted rabbit."

Li Shuangwan took it. She had no appetite. “Thank you.”

Hong Shuang nudged Li Shuang Wan with her elbow and said, "If you regret it and want to go back to Northern Jin, I will go with you. We have only walked 2,500 miles out of 3,000 miles. We can turn back at worst."

"Do not."

Li Shuangwan lowered his head, looked at the gravel at his feet, and said softly: "I did a lot of wrong things in the past, I don't know if he is willing to see me. Before he left, I, I said something I shouldn't have said. So, I don't know how to face him. Sister Hongshuang, do you think he will be hurt by me and will not want to care about me from now on?"

Hong Shuang took a sip of wine and said, "Ayan, I have known the master for a short time, only about a month, and I have only met him a few times. I don't know what happened between you and the master, but I can see that the master has you in his heart. If it weren't for you, he wouldn't have written such a letter and asked Shu Guogong to recognize you as his goddaughter."

Li Shuangwan looked at Hongshuang.

Hong Shuang smiled and said, "You don't believe it?"

Li Shuangwan didn't know how to answer. She knew that Gu Xingyan must have feelings for her, but because of her words and some of her actions, he didn't dare to show it to her.

She mistook pearls for fish eyes, and fish eyes for pearls. She was blind and heartless.