Jiang Ciyou sat in the room, everything around her seemed to be in silence, only her thoughts were surging like a surging tide. In her mind, the figures of her husband and Lu Jingchen appeared alternately, and the time she spent with them was constantly projected like a slide show.

Memories of her husband came flooding back first. It was a sunny afternoon when they first met in the library on the university campus. Jiang Ciyou was standing in front of the bookshelf, standing on tiptoe to try to get a book on a high shelf, and her husband appeared behind her and easily helped her take the book down. Their eyes met, and at that moment, it seemed as if time had stopped. Her husband's gentle smile and bright eyes made Jiang Ciyou's heart skip a beat unconsciously. In the days that followed, they began to meet frequently on campus, participating in club activities together, and strolling on the paths on campus together. They talked about books, dreams, and the future, and every topic was like a thread connecting their hearts, pulling them closer and closer.

I still remember one time when Jiang Ciyou participated in a speech contest, she was so nervous that her palms were sweating, and she almost wanted to give up backstage. Her husband held her hand tightly, his eyes full of trust and encouragement. He said to her: "Ciyou, you are the best, don't be afraid, I will always cheer for you from the audience." With the encouragement of her husband, Jiang Ciyou walked onto the stage, her eyes swept across the audience, and finally fell on her husband's expectant face. At that moment, she was full of strength, and her speech was exceptionally smooth. When she walked off the stage, her husband immediately rushed over and gave her a big hug, which was full of warmth and joy, as if the whole world was left with only the two of them.

However, these sweet memories are always accompanied by the unforgettable betrayal on the wedding night. It was supposed to be the happiest night of her life. She put on a white wedding dress, like a princess in a fairy tale. She was waiting for her husband's arrival with joy, and the fragrance of happiness filled the bridal chamber. But when she saw the cold text message on her phone, the world collapsed in an instant. Her hands trembled, tears welled up in her eyes, and she could not believe what was happening in front of her. Her husband, the man who had made a lifelong commitment to her, eloped with another woman and went abroad. This betrayal was like a sharp knife, deeply piercing her heart, and her beautiful vision of love and marriage was instantly shattered.

Her thoughts turned to Lu Jingchen again. She met Lu Jingchen when she was at her most vulnerable, in a dimly lit bar. Jiang Ciyou was wearing a black evening gown, sitting alone in a corner, her eyes full of loneliness. The moment Lu Jingchen walked into the bar, his eyes were attracted by Jiang Ciyou. He had an unparalleled handsome face, and his broad shoulders and narrow waist made him stand out in the crowd. He slowly walked towards Jiang Ciyou with a confident and charming temperament. They began to chat, and Lu Jingchen's humor and wit made Jiang Ciyou temporarily forget the pain in his heart.

The time they spent together was full of passion and romance. Once, they went on vacation to the beach together. In the early morning, they walked hand in hand on the beach, watching the sun slowly rise from the sea level, the golden sunlight sprinkled on them, and Lu Jingchen gently kissed Jiang Ciyou on the forehead. During the day, they played in the sea, and Lu Jingchen was as naughty as a child. He would suddenly pick up Jiang Ciyou and then gently throw her into the sea, and Jiang Ciyou would fight back with a smile. At night, they were in a tent by the sea, listening to the sound of the waves, and Lu Jingchen would hug Jiang Ciyou tightly and whisper sweet words in her ears.

But it wasn't all smooth sailing between them. Once, they had a fierce quarrel over a trivial matter. It was after a gathering of friends. Jiang Ciyou felt that Lu Jingchen was too enthusiastic towards a female friend at the gathering, and she became jealous. Lu Jingchen felt that Jiang Ciyou was too sensitive and didn't trust him. They started quarreling on the way home, neither of them giving in. Jiang Ciyou rushed into the house angrily, and Lu Jingchen wandered outside the door for a long time. That night, they didn't sleep well, and their hearts were full of contradictions and uneasiness.

These memories are like two extremes, sweet and painful, warm and cold, constantly colliding and interweaving in Jiang Ciyou's mind. She doesn't know how to face these memories, nor how to find answers from them. She feels like she is in a vast ocean, being constantly hit by the waves of memories, and can't find the direction.

She tried to analyze her relationship with her husband. Their love was so pure and beautiful, but why did it end in betrayal? Was her husband seduced by the temptations of the outside world, or was there a hidden danger in their relationship? She wondered if she could truly forgive her husband, forget the pain of the past, and rebuild trust? She knew that once trust was destroyed, it was like a broken mirror, and it would be difficult to restore it to its original state even if it was barely put together.

As for Lu Jingchen, her feelings are equally complicated. Lu Jingchen gave her many good memories. She saw and remembered his gentleness, thoughtfulness and deep affection for her. However, their relationship also faces many practical problems. They come from different worlds, and their feelings were established in a special situation from the beginning. Can this kind of feelings stand the test of time? Moreover, she knows that Lu Jingchen's identity seems to hide many secrets. Although he treats her very well, she is not sure whether she can fully accept everything that may exist behind him.

Jiang Ciyou's heart became increasingly exhausted by the impact of these memories. She tried to close her eyes and calm herself down, but those memories were like uncontrollable ghosts, running wild in her mind. She knew that she couldn't keep running away like this. She had to find her true voice in these memories and make a decision that she would not regret.

She thought of the future she and her husband had planned together. At that time, they dreamed of having a warm home, raising a cute pet, and growing old together. However, the betrayal on the wedding night made all of this come to nothing. Now her husband has come back and said that he wants to start over. Those dreams seem to have the possibility of being rekindled, but does she really dare to believe it?

What Lu Jingchen brought her was a brand new life experience. He helped her get out of the pain and feel the beauty of love again. His company taught her how to love and trust again. However, their quarrels also made her realize that their relationship still needed more running-in. She didn't know if she had enough courage and patience to face these challenges.

There seemed to be two voices arguing in Jiang Ciyou's mind. One voice said, "Go back to your husband. You used to have such a deep relationship with him. He already knows he was wrong. Maybe this is a good opportunity to start over." The other voice said, "Lu Jingchen is the one who truly loves you. He was with you when you were most vulnerable. The happiness and joy he brought you were real. Don't give up on him."

She hesitated between these two voices, and the tangle in her heart became deeper and deeper. She didn't know how to balance the feelings of the past and the present, nor did she know how to judge the direction of the future. She felt like a traveler lost in the forest, shrouded in the fog of memories and unable to find a way out.

She began to pace around the room, trying to make her thoughts clearer. She looked at every corner of the room, and every item seemed to carry memories related to her husband or Lu Jingchen. The painting hanging on the wall was chosen by her and her husband; the small ornament on the table was a gift from Lu Jingchen. These seemingly ordinary things were like heavy weights at this moment, constantly aggravating the contradictions in her heart.

She walked to the window and looked out at the street. People were coming and going on the street, and everyone was living their own lives, seemingly with a clear direction. But she was trapped in this vortex of memories, unable to extricate herself. How she wished there was someone or a force that could help her clear the fog and let her see her true thoughts.

She sat back on the sofa, holding her head in her hands, trying to calm herself down. She began to re-examine her emotional needs. She knew that she longed to be loved and to have a stable relationship. Her husband had once given her such a feeling, but his betrayal made her lose her sense of security. Although Lu Jingchen gave her a lot of happiness and romance, the instability between them also made her worried.

She thought of her expectations for love, which was a relationship of mutual respect, mutual trust, and mutual companionship. Neither her husband nor Lu Jingchen seemed to fully meet her expectations. Her husband's betrayal destroyed her trust, and the secret of Lu Jingchen's identity made her feel insecure. She didn't know whether she should continue to look for her love between these two people, or whether she should look for someone who could fully meet her expectations.

Jiang Ciyou's mood became heavier and heavier. She felt like she was being pressed under a mountain and couldn't breathe. She knew she couldn't hesitate any longer and she had to make a decision. However, this decision was so difficult for her. Every choice was like groping in the dark, not knowing where it would lead.

She closed her eyes again, trying to calm herself down. She said to herself silently, "I need to calm down, I need to find what I really want." She began to take a deep breath, trying to get rid of those messy thoughts. She told herself that no matter what decision she made, she must respect her heart and not be disturbed by external factors.

During this long period of recollection and thinking, Jiang Ciyou's heart experienced countless ups and downs. She knew that this night would be a long night, and she needed to find her own answer under the impact of endless memories.

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