Reborn as a Sickly Child: The Emperor's Beloved

She sat quietly in front of the window, looking at the scenery outside, but tears fell one after another uncontrollably.

Her heart seemed to be torn into countless pieces, and numb pain filled her entire body and mind.

She finally fell in love with someone, and she thought that they would go through every stage of life together, grow old together, forever.

However, God seemed to be playing a cruel joke on her.

Doctor Chen’s words seemed to ring in my ears again.

“Your Majesty, you took too many medicines in your early years. All medicines are toxic. Over time, your body has been damaged. I’m afraid you will never get pregnant in this lifetime.” As soon as Doctor Chen finished speaking, he knelt on the ground trembling. If the Queen was unable to get pregnant, his career as an imperial physician would be over if it were to get out.

Shen Yanyan was completely stunned when she heard this. She suddenly remembered what the Valley Master had said to her before.

She was still confused at that time. She was just a few years old. The Valley Master asked her if one day she faced a life-and-death situation, would she abandon some important things, such as children, parents, etc., in order to survive.

At that time, Shen Yanyan was tortured by illness all day long. She was in a daze every day and didn't know what she was doing. She could only drink medicine, take medicinal baths, practice martial arts and internal skills every day according to the arrangements of her master and the valley master. She didn't care about anything else. Surviving was the most important thing for her.

She said to the Valley Master, "I don't know, and I don't have the mind to think about anything else. Valley Master, who knows what will happen in the future? I just want to survive now." She was in horrible pain every day, and didn't care about anything else. The most important thing was to take care of the present. When the Valley Master looked helpless and worried, she thought he felt sorry for the suffering she endured every day.

Today, she finally understood the deeper meaning of the Valley Master’s words.

Shen Yanyan looked at Doctor Chen lying on the ground and said slowly: "Don't let anyone else know about this. I will tell His Majesty myself. Please leave." Looking at Doctor Chen who bowed and left, Shen Yanyan paused and instantly felt cold all over her limbs.

Xia Zhu and Dong Xue were not there that day, and now she was the only one who knew about this. She didn't know how to tell Xiao Jingzhan.

I can only drown my sorrows in alcohol.

If she had not entered the palace, whether she could have children would not be important to her at all, but she is now the queen, the mother of a country, and Xiao Jingzhan is the emperor, so how could he have a queen who cannot have children?

She couldn't bear to see him favoring other women and having children with them.

leave?

She didn't want to leave? She couldn't bear to leave Xiao Jingzhan.

But this seems to be the only option.

So what if she was reluctant? She didn't want to delay him, nor did she want to live in this palace as a resentful woman who blamed the world.

There have been frequent moves between him and Prime Minister Gao recently, and both sides are afraid that a fight is about to break out. We can't talk about it now, as it will affect his mood. We should wait until the situation settles down before we talk about it.

Then she can leave with more peace of mind.

Raising her hand to wipe the tears from her face, Shen Yanyan felt that she couldn't go on like this. If she was depressed all day, Xiao Jingzhan would notice it sooner or later.

Now that I have made a decision in my heart, continuing like this will only add to my sadness.

He walked into the side hall, washed his face with warm water, and then put the cucumber slices he had prepared earlier on his eyes, otherwise Xiao Jingzhan would definitely notice something unusual when he came over.

Looking at the red eyes in the bronze mirror, Shen Yanyan took a deep breath and forced herself to calm down.

She drained some of the chilled cucumber slices and applied them to her eyes, but they were still so cold that Shen Yanyan's forehead trembled.

Outside, Xiao Jingzhan walked into the inner room and saw her lying on the bed with two cucumber slices on her eyes. She had many tricks and he was used to them. But could applying the so-called cucumber slices every day for the past two days really remove the dark circles under her eyes? He doubted it.

Hearing the footsteps, Shen Yanyan did not get up, still lying on the bed, but just asked: "You are here!"

When she spoke just now, Shen Yanyan was stunned herself. Why was her voice so hoarse?

Xiao Jingzhan also noticed her hoarse voice. He walked to the bed and touched her forehead, "Did you catch a cold? Why does your voice sound like that, and why are your hands and face so cold?" He pulled her hand over again, and the cold touch made him frown.

"Why is there no one in the palace? How are the palace servants serving us?"

Shen Yanyan took off the cucumber slices from her eyes and smiled, "I asked them to leave. It's none of their business. They didn't catch a cold. They just watched the night view from the window for a while and felt a little cold. It's no big deal."

"What's wrong with your eyes? Why are they a little red?" Xiao Jingzhan looked at her still slightly red eyes, and a hint of doubt flashed across his eyes.

Shen Yanyan handed over the cucumber slices in her hand and sat on the bed. "Maybe the cucumber slices are too cold. It's okay. I'll make up for it tomorrow." She felt a little guilty and didn't dare to look him in the face. After she finished speaking, she put the cucumber slices in his palm.

"Help me throw it away, I'll warm the bed for Your Majesty first," Shen Yanyan lay on the inside wrapped in the quilt, looking at him coquettishly with her starry eyes.

"Little lazy cat!" Xiao Jingzhan touched her head helplessly and walked out resignedly.

Outside the palace, Li Defu and a group of palace maids were waiting. His Majesty had been staying in the Empress's palace every day for the past two months and had been coming late, so everyone was used to it and would get up in the middle of his sleep to help His Majesty wash and dress.

Xiao Jingzhan walked out of the outer room, opened the door, and glanced at Li Defu.

Li Defu waved his hand.

"Carry them all in!"

Following His Majesty into the courtyard, Li Defu stood aside with his head bowed, waiting for orders.

"Go ask the two maids following her if she has behaved abnormally recently. Keep it secret and don't let her know." Xiao Jingzhan looked at her slightly red eyes. It was obvious that she had cried, but he was still cold.

He would still believe others, but he knew Yanyan too well. There was no change on her face in the past few days, and she was the same as usual, but occasionally she would look at him with some guilt. She thought she hid it well, but she didn't know that when he was with her, his eyes were almost always on her, and he could see every slight change in her emotions.

"Yes, Your Majesty."

After washing up, Xiao Jingzhan looked at the person who was drowsy and about to fall asleep on the bed, and a hint of deep meaning flashed in his eyes.

What could make her cry? If she had something on her mind, why didn't she tell me and bear it alone?

There was something he couldn't know.

He gently held her in his arms and pulled her into his arms.

Feeling her body temperature, still cold, he frowned and hugged her tightly, the warmth gradually passed to him, dispelling the coldness on her body. Her hair brushed against his cheek, bringing a faint fragrance that intoxicated him. There were some changes in his body.

In his arms, she looked particularly petite and weak. He looked down at her, his eyes showing a gentle expression, "Little girl, you are still warming my bed. I have always warmed your bed." Her physique was not good, and her hands and feet were cold in winter. She needed to take good care of herself.

It was late at night, and there was silence all around. The two of them slept in each other's arms, their breaths intertwined, as if they were the only two people left in the world.