After rebirth, the leader only wants to be with the shadow guard

The night was as cool as water, and Canglan Palace was quiet.

The maids on duty knew that their two masters were arguing, so they didn't even dare to breathe. When Lou Jingyu came in, they all bowed their heads and saluted.

"Let's prepare hot water for bathing first," he said.

The maid responded and quietly retreated.

Lou Jingyu pushed aside the beaded curtain and walked in. He lit a calming incense stick in the incense burner on the small coffee table, then walked to the bed.

Wisps of gray smoke slowly rise from the top of the incense burner decorated with auspicious beasts. They are misty and unpredictable, carrying a gentle fragrance that calms people's thoughts.

Lou Jingyu walked to the bedside, and Ying Shiyi was indeed waiting for him obediently.

He lay on the bed, maintaining the same posture as before Lou Jingyu left.

His clear eyes, distinct from black and white, followed Lou Jingyu's movements and his gaze was always on him, as if he was afraid that Lou Jingyu would leave again.

The sight is more honest than the people, they are all trying to retain.

Her ponytail had fallen down, revealing her long black hair that was like a waterfall spread on the pillow. Her hands were obediently placed on the edge of the quilt. When she saw him coming over, her eyes lit up and she was about to get up.

Lou Jingyu used the force to pull him up, holding his back and pushing his hair behind his ears.

Her movements were gentle, as if she was afraid to startle him.

"Does your knee still hurt?" he asked.

Ying Shiyi quickly shook his head and moved his legs, demonstrating with his own body that he really didn't feel any pain.

"do not move."

Lou Jingyu frowned and held his calf to stop him.

"You are still not behaving yourself even after all this." he said.

"Master." With his legs shackled by his master, Ying Shiyi didn't dare to move and turned to call him.

"Well, you said."

Ying Shiyi said what he had thought of during the time when Lou Jingyu was out: "Master, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you worry. I kneeled because I wanted to admit my mistake."

Lou Jingyu shook his head disapprovingly.

"It won't hurt your body, and what have you done wrong?"

"But I made you angry."

The master can never be wrong, so it is the subordinates' fault, Ying Shiyi thought silently in his heart.

Lou Jingyu had a headache.

"Eleven, I hope you can let go of the burden in your heart and tell me whatever concerns you have, okay?"

He spoke with great earnestness, and he had no idea how many times he had said this today, as if he was educating a disobedient child.

"I said I would not break my promise if it was just you. Leave the rest to me, okay? I hope our relationship is equal."

Ying Shiyi remained silent, but his heart was filled with turmoil and he couldn't calm down.

The word equality is too difficult for him, and he has been living like this for the past decade.

It was too difficult to suddenly accept ideas that did not conform to his own cognition one day, and he did not know how to adapt to it for a while.

Even if there was no difference in status, in his heart Lou Jingyu was more important than himself, and his master would always come before him.

He just wants his master to be well, and it doesn't matter what happens to him.

I was stuck in a rut for a while.

Ying Shiyi was rubbing a corner of the quilt, and the atmosphere was silent for a moment.

Only then did Lou Jingyu realize that his Eleven was so stubborn, and he pinched the tip of his nose in anger.

"If you have anything to say, just tell me, don't keep it to yourself."

Only then did Ying Shiyi look up at him, and after a long while he said, "But the Shadow Guard is humble, and has rolled in blood and mud. Master, you have taken a liking to me and favored me for a while, so that's all. How can you say such words today? If this goes on for a long time, you will regret it eventually, and by then, everything you have given to your subordinates will even be unworthy of you."

Lou Jingyu's expression gradually became serious, as if a layer of gloom was gradually covering it.

"Eleven, do you think I favor you just because I'm interested in you?"

The sounds were so cold that it felt like one was in an ice field.

Ying Shiyi was frightened by his expression and didn't dare to answer, but his eyes clearly showed -

Is it not?

The atmosphere, which had just eased, became stagnant again.

Only then did Lou Jingyu understand that Ying Shiyi didn't dare to believe in his love, but thought that all this was just a favor.

There is a world of difference between pampering and love.

It turned out that from this step on, he and Ying Shiyi had different thoughts.

After hearing this and looking at the wound on Ying Shiyi's knee, Lou Jingyu was so angry that he pursed his lips and kept silent.

This time I really held back.

Until the maid reported that the hot water was ready and Lou Jingyu came back from bathing with Ying Shiyi in his arms, he remained silent.

Ying Shiyi was soaked in water vapor while bathing, with water droplets on her eyelashes and her eyes looking wet. She felt even more guilty when she looked at Lou Jingyu's stern face.

He stealthily tugged at Lou Jingyu's sleeve, but Lou Jingyu pretended not to see it. He half-knelt on one knee on the bed and applied medicine to him with a cold face.

After applying the ointment and placing the porcelain bottle on the bedside table, Lou Jingyu carried the person to the inside of the bed, covered the person with a quilt to prevent pressure on the knees, then turned off the light and lay down.

The bed curtains were drawn, and the space around them was silent and not as cozy as usual.

Lou Jingyu felt that this day was full of ups and downs. It was only a day, but why did it feel so long?

He has no experience in love and doesn't know how to deal with quarrels.

He just wanted to coax Ying Shiyi to smile, but now no matter how he coaxed him, it didn't work. He even made himself angry and his mind was in a mess.

Since he didn't say anything, Ying Shiyi naturally didn't dare to speak either.

He had already angered his master several times today. He felt that he could not please his master, and every word he said made his master's face look even worse, so he dared not say more.

I just feel a little sad.

He had almost forgotten how cold his master used to be, but now his master treated him like this, and he was still a little uncomfortable.

I can only laugh at myself and think I deserve it.

He thought that he couldn't stand it if his master treated him coldly now. If his master really disliked him and had a new lover and started a family as he said, could he really quietly step down and guard him as he had imagined at the beginning?

He was unsure at this moment.

But he still wanted to see his master, as long as his master was fine.

If the master still keeps me, I am lucky.

I just feel sad.

Ying Shiyi moved his legs slightly in the dark and could still feel the pain in his knees.

But he didn't dare tell his master.

He knew that his master cared about him and was angry tonight only because he was worried about his health. But he was too flustered at that moment and knelt down in a daze.

Ying Shiyi thought about this and his eyes became moist as he lay on the bed with his eyes closed.

But he remained silent, adjusted his breathing to a steady state, and tried his best to force himself to fall asleep.

The master is already very tired, please don't disturb his rest.

What he didn't know was that Lou Jingyu next to him couldn't sleep either.

It has become a habit to fall asleep holding Ying Shiyi. Now Lou Jingyu feels uncomfortable if he doesn't hold him or stay close to him.

Both of them stayed awake all night and tried hard to pretend to be asleep so that the other would feel at ease.