Genshin Impact: I was sent away by Yaksha at the beginning

"Shirayuki, what on earth did you dream about?"

"..." Ling Mengxue heard in a daze that Xiao seemed to be asking her something. What was he asking? Was he blaming her for not protecting the Emperor? By the way, Emperor, is he still alive now?

"You are not the kind of person who would be easily defeated by something like a nightmare. Tell me, what did you dream about?"

For some reason, Xiao always had a feeling that perhaps Ling Mengxue’s nightmare was related to him, so he chose to keep asking.

Looking at the silent Ling Mengxue, Xiao could only smile helplessly. Don't you want to say it?

Xiao lowered his head to confirm the expression of the girl in his arms. Looking at Ling Mengxue's confused expression, he instantly understood that Bai Xue was not fully awake yet.

Ling Mengxue's head was still groggy, and she thought she was still having a sweet dream.

Ling Mengxue slowly opened her mouth and muttered softly.

"Xiao, you are really, very bad."

"......"

“It’s really bad!”

Xiao looked at the girl in his arms and couldn't help but smile bitterly.

"What did I do to make you so sad?"

"you......"

Ling Mengxue continued in a voice that was about to fade away.

"I... You must be blaming me for not protecting the Emperor well and hurting him, right?"

The hands that were gently stroking my hair and back stopped for a moment.

Hearing Ling Mengxue's question, the bitter smile on Xiao's face deepened. Yes, although he said that he believed her, if the Emperor had not survived in the end and told him the truth in person, he would have had to bear the pain and drag her to death with him. He would not let her live alone, but he could not leave her behind as the person who hurt the Emperor.

Mi Nu was right. Mutual trust between lovers was very important. Although he didn't believe from the bottom of his heart that Xiao Xue could do anything to hurt the Emperor, when he saw the familiar girl in white at the top of Qingyun Peak, Xiao was very clear that his heart was really ached.

I really couldn't trust her completely.

Xiao resisted the urge to slap himself twice and managed to control his spiritual energy that was about to run wild.

The girl in his arms continued in a grumbling tone.

"But... Xiao you..."

"..."

"You idiot, you actually said you would die with me. If I really fall into darkness, you will be the one..."

Xiao felt a sharp pain somewhere deep in his heart. This time, he opened his mouth and let out the sigh that had been suppressed in his heart.

"I'm sorry. I..."

"Why can you do it for me but I can't do it for you?" He exposed his shortcomings. Ling Mengxue reached out to pinch his ears. The young Yaksha's ears were as honest as Aho-Mao, and his earlobes turned red.

"Because I don't want you to bear the responsibility of my life and death--" He said in a muffled voice without looking at her.

"But I want to carry yours."

"I lied to you." Xiao sighed. What he said about wanting to drag her to die with him was just something he said in anger. He was angry that he couldn't keep her and didn't protect the Emperor.

And this was also a defense he made towards Ling Mengxue in order to protect his heart, but it was obvious that this fragile defense could not resist his longing for her.

Looking back now, Xiao doesn't know whether to laugh or cry. He is an immortal who has lived for two thousand years, not an adolescent boy, yet he actually said such words.

Xiao thinks that he is not the kind of person who likes to lie, but now it seems that his understanding of himself is still a little insufficient.

I didn't expect that Bai Xue could accurately guess my thoughts in my dream, and she actually said these words in this semi-conscious and semi-confused state...

Lin Mengxue murmured sadly again.

"It's really bad, and...the expression is so scary."

"Yes, I was wrong. I shouldn't have said those words to you even in a dream."

"Jin Peng, you really don't know anything..."

Ling Mengxue's slender body was pressed tightly against Xiao's. The vortex of violently boiling emotions suddenly stopped, and then became agitated again after a few minutes.

"..."

The meaning of the sigh this time was completely different from the previous one.

Xiao had been trying hard to control and maintain a direct distance between the two of them. He was afraid that he would accidentally hurt her again, but now he could only watch the girl clinging tightly to his body and raise the white flag.

I could feel the petite body in my hands through the thin white pajamas.

Suddenly, the troubles that occasionally popped up and tormented him came to his mind again.

The lovely Snow White seems to have no vigilance at all and is a person who trusts others easily.

If not, how could he have followed the blond boy to the bottom of some abyss, and why did he call his name after so many days?

Could it be that Bai Xue has behaved like that in front of other men?

"...I don't think so."

However, Xiao couldn't help but think of Ling Mengxue who had said with a very happy expression that she slept in Xiangling's room. At that time, she was still a boy, and was driven out by Xiangling who blushed with shame...

"......." This unpleasant memory made Xiao feel a little uncomfortable. Xiao realized that his emotions seemed to be easily fluctuating because of Ling Mengxue recently, and he couldn't help but smile bitterly.

"I hope you can give me a little more trust."

Of course, I should do so.

Why don't I dare to trust her more?

Ling Mengxue continued talking to herself.

"If you knew how terrible that woman was, you would never do this to me, Xiao, you are such an idiot."

"..."

The woman she was talking about was probably Tianli. As the supreme god of the continent of Teyvat, her status was even higher than that of the Emperor. How could she not make people feel scared?

"So, don't be mean to me anymore!"

"I know, dear, I was wrong, go to sleep well."

With his constant comfort, the girl in his arms finally began to breathe evenly like a kitten.

He gently picked her up and put her back on the bed.

Xiao's quiet, helpless voice fell along with the sunlight pouring in through the window.

"Do you know what kind of man I am?"

"Do you know what you are shouldering by being with me?"

No matter what, now, in Liyue without the Emperor, the weight that will fall on his shoulders in the future will definitely not be light, and their days will not be as sweet as they imagined.

If the other six countries knew that Tianli was possessing her at this moment, what would happen? Xiao didn't even dare to imagine it.

"......"

Her body was too weak now. Although she wanted to hold the girl tightly in her arms, she could only endure it for now. The most important thing was to find a way to save her life first.

Xiao helped her carefully tidy up the hair on her forehead and then prepared to leave.

Half impulsively, Xiao lowered his head and gently kissed the face of the girl who was sleeping in the early morning.

I will find a way, no matter what the cost.