Become the villain boss to be defeated in the game

"I can't remember which world line this is."

Pan Yue sat on the rooftop, staring blankly at the city lights below the tall buildings.

She is the magical girl who died together with the witch in the mysterious dream. This is the 61st world line in which she traveled back to 22 years ago to save herself.

The breeze blew Pan Yue's hair. A white rabbit-like creature jumped to her side and said, "Are you thinking about the past again? You are really different from other magical girls. After knowing the truth, the others wanted to kill me, but you were the only one who was willing to tell me about your reincarnation."

"Really? You told me about every world line like this," Pan Yue said, "But no matter what, you still hope that I will immediately turn into a witch and be defeated by other magical girls, and become the Seed of Sorrow to serve you."

"Of course, I remember that you Earthlings have a saying called 'repaying a favor'. I have fulfilled your wish, so of course I hope to get something in return." Kyubey's ears moved and he said expressionlessly.

"You gave me the opportunity to change my life in other world lines. Of course I have to thank you," Pan Yue said, "I remember you said that I have a good talent. After the cause and effect blessing of multiple world lines, the energy I can generate should be quite tempting, but not now."

"Because my wish has not been fulfilled yet."

"As a reward for this world line, I will try my best to harvest more seeds of sorrow. The population of Country A is too numerous to count."

"Well, this is also a good choice." said Qiubi.

My thoughts go back to the day when I signed the contract with Kyubey.

"It's so miserable. It's so pitiful to go through such a life." Qiubi looked at Panyue, who was numb with sadness, with an expressionless face.

"You're already 22 years old..." Kyubey said hesitantly, shaking his tail. "But you are qualified. I can't see your potential. I don't know how many surprises you can give me."

"Can I really make any wish?" Pan Yue asked, the gleam in her eyes blazing like sparks.

"Of course, the size of your own karma determines whether you can achieve your wish more effectively."

"I want to save myself. I want to travel through time and space to save the suffering and despair of every world line. I want her to be happy because of this."

The wish I made at that time is still ringing in my ears.

So she traveled through time and space, meeting the same people and encountering the same things each time, repeating and rewinding continuously.

Perhaps you have just been immersed in the joy of achieving the ultimate wish of this world line, and you have to return to a new world line to save the young, weak and helpless self. You have to face the darkness and pain in your memory and pretend to be a mature and powerful adult to protect the self who is suffering in other world lines.

This was the greatest pain that Pan Yue had endured since becoming a magical girl. However, this was much more bearable than living without hope.

After learning the truth that magical girls are witches, most magical girls will collapse and hate Kyubey.

But Pan Yue is different. She only feels grateful to Qiu Bi.

Because she really needed this miracle.

Pan Yue was born in an ordinary family. Because of her father's relationship, her parents followed a nobleman to the outer city to do business and saved some money. After they became rich, they were no longer satisfied with having only one daughter and wanted to have a boy to inherit the family business, so Pan Yue was born.

Unfortunately, Pan Yue did not fulfill their wish and they gave birth to a daughter.

Therefore, although Pan Yue has not lacked food and clothing since she was born, it is limited to food and clothing. Her parents' education level is not high, and they also believe that people should be honest, kind and abide by their duties. The only sister with a higher education does not like her very much, and hates that her parents ignored her after Pan Yue was born. For her sister, Pan Yue has been trying to please and dedicate herself to her since she can remember, because every time she does this, her sister will not be cold and cold, and her parents will praise Pan Yue for being sensible, which makes the little Pan Yue, who was originally neglected emotionally, feel very warm.

Little Panyue has never received any education on the ways of the world from his parents. His father only gave birth to him but did not educate him. His mother would only say that he would understand when he grew up. She even criticized every friend Panyue made and instigated Panyue to cut off contact with his friends. Afterwards, she would question Panyue why he had no friends.

In this environment, when faced with bullying and isolation from classmates at school, little Panyue would subconsciously try to please the bullies like she would her sister. She also wanted to ask her parents for help, but her father had always ignored his children, and her mother only believed other people's one-sided words and thought it was her daughter's problem. From then on, Panyue never shared anything with her family, and bore all the pain alone.

The funny thing is that Pan Yue was brainwashed by the environment and always thought that she was not good enough, not excellent enough, not perfect enough. How could her parents ask for more after giving birth to her? She had to succeed with her own efforts when she grew up, to prove that she could surpass the boy and repay her parents. Or she never dared to speculate about others with malice, even though she could understand others' malice, jealousy or contempt with just a little speculation.

Pan Yue has been living under the gaze of others, examining herself in an extreme way for twenty-two years.

In fact, if you compare yourself with your cousin who is loved unconditionally by your mother, you will know that it is not that you are not good enough, but that you are not loved.

It's just that I don't want to believe it, and I try to torture myself in order to gain love from people around me.

After Pan Yue saw the truth about how the daughter of her classmate from a normal family was loved by her parents, she finally stopped deceiving herself.

It turns out that a girl can also be loved unconditionally. She doesn't need to be sensible and can lose her temper. Her parents will not blame her. When someone bullies her, they will stand up and tell her that it is not her fault. When facing bad guys, they must strike back and give them a taste of their own medicine.

It turns out that girls can also enjoy the benefits of their parents making plans for them in advance and receive houses, cars and money as gifts from their parents.

It turns out that girls don’t have to know nothing. They can just lie at home, play with their cell phones, and eat snacks. They don’t have to wash dishes diligently or pretend to be virtuous and pleasant.

Compared with her own parents, even though she was molested by her cousin, Pan Yue mustered up the courage to seek help from her mother, but her mother just evaded her with the excuse that "the cousin likes you". Although Pan Yue expressed her discomfort, she still did not get any justice from her parents, while her cousin received a loan of 20 yuan from her parents to pay the down payment for a house.

She finally gave up the love of her parents.

In this world, whether it is society, family, or public opinion, girls are taught to love themselves and be conservative from an early age, while boys are taught to have self-respect and self-reliance. When a scandal occurs, girls are the victims, but they often bear all the pain and blame, while men can hide silently and even boast about others' wounds.

Pan Yue gradually realized that it was never his fault, but that the rules of this world were distorted and wrong.

There has never been equality at all.

When Pan Yue was thinking this, another boy stood up and said to Pan Yue:

"Not all boys are like this, there are good men too."

Really? Pan Yue thought so, and finally placed her hope on the love between men and women that she had never chosen. She chose to fall in love in college, trying to get the spiritual garden that had been vacant in her boyfriend.

After a year of being together, Panyue felt extremely disappointed. She felt that her partner did not love her, but simply showed naked desire for her.

It turns out that the sweet words he said under the guise of an excuse are actually meant to satisfy his own desires, which is his love for the girl.

How is this different from parents giving money to the perpetrators when they are bullied?

Pan Yue took the initiative to break up.

For a moment, I felt like a rootless duckweed in this world, isolated and helpless.

At this moment, Kyubey appeared in front of Pan Yue.

Like a miracle.