Quick Wear: Who said soft girls have to be obedient! biu!

(Original story)

In the three years after our marriage, Zhan Qinghuai and I had dinner together only a handful of times.

Only during the holidays, when the whole family is together, may I have the chance to see this husband.

I have regretted it too. This kind of marriage is not as comfortable as when we were friends before.

At least at that time, I could occasionally get a smile from Zhan Qinghuai.

I know that Zhan Qinghuai has always loved Xu Junyan in his heart and has no room for anyone else.

He felt guilty and didn't dare to face me. As the most outstanding graduate of the Law Department of Peking University and now a well-known lawyer, Mr. Zhan had handled many difficult cases, but he chose to escape from marriage.

But this is unfair to me.

Forget it, I am not qualified to demand fairness. After all, the way I got Zhan Qinghuai was not innocent.

I quietly collected the dishes from the table. Zhan Qinghuai didn't come back to eat, and I often didn't eat them myself, so these things could only be put in the refrigerator for me to eat slowly.

The next day, I would make a new one for Zhan Qinghuai and send it to his workplace, but I had never been there myself.

As I was packing, the combination lock rang. I looked over in surprise and it was indeed Zhan Qinghuai.

But then I frowned, "Why are you so drunk?"

I went over to help him. Zhan Qinghuai was defenseless against me only when he was drunk. He pressed half of his body on me and mumbled something.

I struggled to hug this person and leaned over to listen, but I regretted it the next moment. I shouldn't have listened.

He was calling Xu Junyan.

I gritted my teeth and threw him on the sofa. Zhan Qinghuai drank too much and fell asleep as soon as he lay down.

His cell phone kept ringing in his pocket. I took it out and answered it. Before I could say anything, the person on the other end said, "Brother, I sent Lawyer Xu back home. Are you home yet?"

"He's home." I replied expressionlessly and hung up the phone.

Lawyer Xu, it turns out that Xu Junyan is back.

I simply sat on the carpet with Zhan Qinghuai's cell phone. I knew his password, and I hated myself for remembering the anniversary of his and Xu Junyan's relationship.

I'm afraid Zhan Qinghuai couldn't guess that I would often sneak a peek at his phone.

Those private photo albums, with countless photos exuding sweet love, make me look so despicable.

But I couldn't help it.

I opened his work group and saw a familiar avatar joining the group chat.

The two friends did not delete each other, but I know that they have not been in contact in the past few years.

Xu Junyan is back, what should I do?

I cleaned the whole night. This house of over 150 square meters was bought by my godparents. It is a bit too big for me to live in alone. My back and waist ached after I finished cleaning.

But it will make you feel better.

I came out of the bathroom and saw Zhan Qinghuai smoking in the living room again. His lonely back seemed like he would turn around and pronounce judgment on me at any time.

I also wanted to escape, but Zhan Qinghuai had made up his mind and he wanted a divorce.

Just like what happened in the hotel three years ago, he must do what he decides to do.

He said he would take responsibility if he married me, and he did it.

But I don't want to get divorced.

Why should I give up my position just because Xu Junyan comes back? I am the legal wife.

"I will give you my house, car, stocks, funds, and all my savings. I will also pay you living expenses every month until you find a new job or a new partner. Is that okay?"

Zhan Qinghuai's voice sounded a little hoarse, revealing deep fatigue.

I lowered my head: "I don't want a divorce."

"Zhenzhen, you are still young. Why do you want to keep wasting time like this?"

I cried and shook my head, and decided not to get a divorce.

Zhan Qinghuai put out his last cigarette, walked towards me like he did when he was a child, and touched my head helplessly. My tears flowed even more violently, and I couldn't even see the pattern on his suit clearly.

"Tell me whatever you want. I have to divorce you. I'm sorry."

I panicked and rushed over to hug his waist: "I only want you, Brother Qinghuai, please don't divorce me, okay? I don't care what you do outside, just don't divorce me, otherwise... otherwise I will go find my godfather to do it..."

Before I could finish my words, Zhan Qinghuai pushed me away. His expression suddenly turned cold. I knew that I had offended him again.

"You are already 26 years old. Do you still need others to make decisions for you? Divorce is between you and me. No one can stop us. Gu Zhen, let's separate in a dignified way. It will be good for everyone."

Zhan Qinghuai didn't even change his clothes. He picked up the phone on the table and walked out. Seeing him about to leave, I got anxious and shouted hysterically, "I won't get a divorce! Don't even think about being with Xu Junyan!"

I saw his hand pause, but he opened the door without hesitation.

"Don't look at my phone anymore." Zhan Qinghuai's voice was as cold as an ice blade, piercing into my internal organs again and again.

It turns out he knew everything.

I squatted on the ground and cried loudly.

From then on, Zhan Qinghuai never returned to our home.

I went to their law firm, but I didn't see Zhan Qinghuai, but I saw the brilliant Xu Junyan.

She was also quite surprised to see me, but she was very frank. I had already felt guilty, and now that I saw Xu Junyan, who was a thousand times better than me, I felt even more like a rat crossing the street.

How can you steal other people's things?

I almost ran away.

I had no choice. Zhan Qinghuai refused to see me, so I had to go and complain to my godmother.

My godmother just hugged me and cried. She couldn’t control her own son.

And asked me to divorce.

My godmother also refused to help me, and I was very disappointed. When I left, I met my father, Aunt Qin, and my younger brother Gu Nan.

Gu Nan is in his third year of high school. He is about the same height as Zhan Qinghuai and is very strong, which makes him look unfamiliar to me.

My eyes were so swollen that they could see it at a glance. Dad was anxious and kept asking what was wrong.

Aunt Qin is here, and I don’t want to say anything. Besides, no one will stand on my side even if I say anything. They will always persuade me to get a divorce.

But I didn’t expect that Gu Nan had the wrong idea and would run to the law firm to settle accounts with Zhan Qinghuai.

It’s just that Zhan Qinghuai was not there, as he was on a business trip to another province. Someone from the law firm called me and asked me to bring Gu Nan home.

Gu Nan looked like he had done something wrong, and there was nothing much to say to this brother of mine, so I sent him back and went back to my room alone.

It was common for Zhan Qinghuai to go on business trips, but he didn't expect to encounter danger this time.

There was heavy snow in other provinces, traffic was paralyzed, and he was trapped in the hotel.

When I kept calling the law firm to inquire and the other party told me impatiently that Zhan Qinghuai and Lawyer Xu would not be back for the time being, I felt like the sky was falling.

They were on a business trip together.

I called Zhan Qinghuai tremblingly, but he didn't answer.

A week later, they returned to Beijing safely.

Zhan Qinghuai rarely stepped into the house, but as soon as he entered, he grabbed my hand and begged me for a divorce.

"Did you have sex?" My throat was so hoarse that it hurt when I spoke.

Zhan Qinghuai denied it, but I didn't believe it.

I stopped talking, went back to the master bedroom, locked the door, and took out the razor blade that Zhan Qinghuai used to shave from the cabinet.

I also followed the example in the TV series, went into the bathroom, and cut my wrists one by one.

But dying is really hard. I’m afraid of the pain and dare not use force, which only tortures myself more.

I couldn't find my position, the sharp pain made me lose my mind, and I couldn't help but scream.

Finally, I passed out due to excessive blood loss.

When I woke up again, there were a lot of people around me.

When my godmother saw that I woke up, she rushed over to me, hugged me and cried, and Aunt Qin was also crying.

My father was probably very angry and rushed over to hit me, but was stopped by my godfather.

I moved my gaze to Zhan Qinghuai's face with difficulty. His face was covered with wounds. Who hit him?

The elders left us space. Zhan Qinghuai hugged me for the first time and said he would not divorce.

But I was not as happy as I thought.

During the period of recuperation, Zhan Qinghuai became a good husband. He would come home every day and cook for me.

But when I saw his gloomy and haggard face, my heart ached.

Why do you pretend to care about me when you clearly don't want to?

I started to find fault and tortured him and myself like a madman.

The seven days that Zhan Qinghuai and Xu Junyan stayed in the hotel were the last straw that broke the camel's back.

I really can't stand it.

After arguing for a while, things returned to how they were before, except that Zhan Qinghuai didn't dare to leave me alone at home.

After the injury healed, we also calmed down and talked.

But no one can convince anyone.

This is not a law or regulation, and there are no principles to talk about.

It was raining that day. After I folded the clothes on the balcony, I saw Zhan Qinghuai smiling in the reflection of the glass.

I turned my head subconsciously, and Zhan Qinghuai immediately stopped smiling and turned off his phone.

He must be in contact with Xu Junyan.

I couldn't control my anger and it exploded in an instant.

Maybe Zhan Qinghuai's patience had run out, and we had a fierce argument. As we talked, we brought up the night in the hotel three years ago.

Zhan Qinghuai's voice was as cold as ice: "If I had known it would be like this today, I would rather be beaten to death by my parents than marry you."

I sneered: "You know why you married me at that time, wasn't it just to take revenge on Xu Junyan?"

Otherwise, even if his godfather and godmother forced him again, Zhan Qinghuai would not listen.

I was so overwhelmed with anger and jealousy that I didn't quite understand what I was saying, but when I finished speaking, I heard it clearly.

I actually told the truth.

Zhan Qinghuai’s momentary shock hurt me deeply.

"What did you say? We didn't have sex that night?!" He rushed over and pinched my shoulders. It hurt, and I felt like he was going to crush me.

Instead, I felt relieved and smiled cruelly at him: "Yeah, I lied to you. You were drunk like a puddle of mud, how could you do that kind of thing with me?"

Zhan Qinghuai was shaking all over. He raised his hand for a long time but did not put it down.

I raised my chin and looked at him with hatred for the first time.

"Zhenzhen, how did you become like this?" Zhan Qinghuai was disheartened and had no place to vent his anger, so he turned around and slammed the wall hard.

He rushed out the door without looking back.

I realized that I was going to lose him forever.

"Brother Qinghuai!" I shouted, using all my strength.

I rushed out without thinking.

The rain was so heavy. How could it rain so heavily in Beijing? I couldn't see anything clearly. I rushed out of the community in confusion and ran around on the street.

When the car came over, I couldn't react at all. I just remember that the headlights were very bright.

It seems that before a person dies, he or she really has a last moment of clarity.

I have never been so clear-headed as I am now.

I saw Zhan Qinghuai staggering towards me, crying and hugging me. The rain had washed him so badly that he no longer looked like the man who had made my heart flutter before.

He said Zhenzhen, please don’t die, he won’t divorce me, and he will try to love me.

Brother Qinghuai, it’s too late.

I looked past him and seemed to see many people, godmother, godfather, father, Aunt Qin, Nannan...

Sorry, Zhenzhen was wrong.

If I could do it again, I would live for myself.

(Finish)