After I traveled through the book, I was spoiled by five little villains

Yan Shiyan hardened his heart and ignored her, just riding his horse forward.

The autumn wind was not biting, but he felt it was like a knife, scraping at his heart again and again, making him extremely anxious.

Riding a horse is much faster than riding a carriage.

After a while, he saw the vague outline of Shili Pavilion.

Yan Shiyan loosened the reins and couldn't help looking back.

In the distance, Yan Jinyin's figure riding a little red horse was still there.

She followed tenaciously.

His beautiful eyebrows were twisted into a peak. Yan Shiyan pursed his lips and tightened and loosened the reins in his hands.

Finally he turned his horse around and ran back the way he came.

Yan Jinyin was delighted to see him turn around, but before she could say anything, he scolded her in a quick and urgent tone.

"What are you following me for?!"

Yan Shiyan stared at her, using coldness to cover up his concern: "It's a long way to Yumen, and I don't know what I will encounter on the way. What can a girl like you do? Why don't you go back quickly!"

"Do not."

Yan Jinyin's tone was not fierce, and his expression was extremely firm: "Third brother, please let me go with you. I am also worried about mother."

"I can ride a horse and shoot arrows."

Yan Jinyin had no intention of backing down: "I know everything you know, so why can't I go?"

“It’s not a question of if or not.”

Yan Shiyan didn't know what to say, so he could only speak harshly: "I have no worries when I'm alone, and you following me will only slow me down."

"is it?"

Yan Jinyin asked back, and then said: "Mother once said that haste makes waste. Third brother, you are anxious to leave the city, do you have a pass? Do you have enough money? You also said that the journey is long, do you know the way?"

A series of questions made Yan Shiyan speechless.

When the bad news came, he was attending classes at the academy.

Countless classmates came to him for confirmation, and some even came just to watch the fun.

How could he cope with it? He accidentally revealed his well-hidden aloof and sharp nature. He forced everyone away with his cold eyes and left the academy straight away.

Then he went back home, packed a few sets of clothes, threw the gold leaves and silver he had saved in the past two years into his bag, took the horse he usually rode, refused everyone to follow him, and rode out of the city.

A nameless fire burned him, making him unable to think of anything else except "going to Yumen Pass".

Only when Yan Jinyin questioned him did he realize how reckless he had been.

Everything else was fine. Without a pass, he could not enter any city. There was no need to check for a pass to leave the city, so he didn't think about it at all.

"It's okay. I never thought about staying in an inn."

He pursed his lips tightly and said, "None of this matters. Drink when you're thirsty, eat when you're hungry, and sleep wherever you go when you're tired."

He had already prepared himself for sleeping in the open air.

Spare no expense and rush to Yumen Pass as quickly as possible.

What the Third Young Master of the Princess's Mansion? Everyone calls him that, but he has never really considered himself as a young master who lives a life of luxury.

He crawled out from a pile of dead bodies and could endure any hardship.

What's more, he brought enough money.

Is the road guide important?

Important and unimportant.

"So don't come along. It's not for you."

As he spoke, Yan Shiyan pulled the reins and was about to turn the horse's head.

"and many more!"

Yan Jinyin raised his voice and said, "Third brother, even if you don't care about these, do you know what to do when you arrive at Yumen Pass? Where are you going to find your mother?"

Seeing him hesitate, she continued, "Take the capital for example. How easy is it to find someone in such a big city?"

Yan Jinyin slowed down his voice and said, "You don't even have a pass. You can't even enter Yumen Pass. How are you going to convince others to believe in you?"

"Your power is limited. You need me."

She rode on the horse with her back straight and her eyes determined.

Through her, Yan Shiyan vaguely saw his mother's demeanor, reliable and trustworthy.

"What can you do?" Yan Shiyan asked.

Yan Jinyin raised his hand and pointed to the Shili Pavilion not far away: "Third brother, let's go there first to wait for someone."

"Who are you waiting for?"

"Wait for the people who are coming."

Yan Jinyin understood very well why he just wanted to rush to Yumen Pass as soon as possible, because she had exactly the same idea.

But, no.

Arriving at Yumen Pass is just the beginning; the hardships on the road are merely the prologue of the drama.

For such a rumor to reach the capital, my mother must have encountered some setbacks. Their goal was to find their mother and help her, not to cause trouble for her.

Yan Jinyin finally succeeded in convincing him.

It was still early for lunch, so after arriving at Shiliting, the two found a tea stall to sit down.

Looking around, there are travelers walking in a hurry everywhere.

Yan Shiyan lowered his eyes and looked at the teacup without saying a word, with an aura of "Don't talk to me, don't pay attention to me" all over his body.

The human face does not know where to go, Peach Blossom still laughs spring breeze.

The more familiar it seemed, the more it reminded him of the time when they stopped here halfway on their way to the hot spring resort.

It was so lively at that time!

There is my mother, my brothers and sisters, my aunt Chunning, and the maids who are loyal to my mother...

At that time, General Huyan had not yet married Miss Bailu, and Yuelu was still alive and well.

How long has it been? How long?!

How did everything turn upside down?

The mother was far away and her life or death was unknown. Among the brothers and sisters who grew up together, only the fourth sister who sat opposite was left.

How nice it would be if big brother were here.

No matter how dangerous the road is, he will not be afraid.

If he had a second brother, he would be more confident.

However, reality is not always as we wish.

He walked so fast and so hurriedly, not only because he was extremely anxious, but also because he didn't want his fourth sister and fifth brother to catch up with him.

It's not that he really thinks they are a burden. How can he bear to drag a girl and a child into this road with an unknown future?

He would rather bear it alone.

He is willing to bear any consequences.

The rough cup in his hand creaked when he squeezed it.

Yan Shiyan closed his eyes, forcing himself to think further, but his thoughts were like nourished vines, the more he tried to stop them, the more they grew.

Dense thorns grew out of his heart, piercing his heart full of holes.

At this moment, he could finally understand what his second brother once felt.

What did the second brother say at that time?

Being asked anxiously by him, Yan Yuanan just smiled calmly: "It's not a big deal, it just calms down the crazy and unstoppable worrying."

He couldn't understand it then, but now he realizes that every word is so true.

It turns out that my second brother has been experiencing this kind of pain.

"Third brother."

Yan Jinyin's worried voice woke him up: "Third brother, what's wrong with you?"

"I am fine."

Yan Shiyan shook his head, uttered these three words reflexively, and then smiled bitterly in his heart.

It really is, exactly the same.

Doesn’t my second brother always say this?

It turns out that this is what it feels like to not want to make people who care about you worry.

Yan Shiyan drank the tea in one gulp, heard the sound of horse hooves, turned around and saw a cloud of dust getting closer and closer.