Rebirth: Don't Want to Be Hot-blooded

An Chuxia could only sigh, "I know, but you... this is too harsh, can't we take it slow?"

After he finished speaking, he started coughing violently. I have to say that the pinch was really severe.

At that moment just now, he really felt like he was going to die.

An Chuxia looked at her helplessly, "Do we really need to practice like this?"

"It is necessary. You need to have a sense of crisis from now on." Xia Lan said, sitting directly next to her. "Now you are training in the camp, you don't have to have such awareness."

"But you have to develop a habit. What will you do if you leave the camp? Let alone in actual combat, even in our training area it is not absolutely safe."

"If there is danger, you may not have the chance to develop this awareness."

An Chuxia came back to her senses, looked up at her, and sat up while rubbing her neck. "You don't have to kill me. You almost strangled me to death just now."

"If I don't kill you, you won't learn your lesson." Xia Lan shook her head. "Gu Beixing is just too kind to you, so you still don't have a sense of crisis."

An Chuxia wanted to roll her eyes at her, "Do you want to see what you are talking about?"

"Gu Beixing has been here for a few months and has almost trained me like a special forces soldier. Is he still too kind?"

"You calculate the time. I will only be training for a few months. After the special forces selection of Black Tiger, there will still be a half-year training period."

Xia Lan was not angry after hearing this. Instead, she laughed. "That's why I said you are talented. I didn't have this ability when I first joined the army."

Hearing her words, An Chuxia was stunned, "Don't say that. If you weren't so powerful, I wouldn't be able to enter the combat class for training."

"It's because of your strength that you gave us this opportunity, otherwise... who would respect me?"

Xia Lan looked at her in surprise, "Do you really think so?"

"Of course, everything has its reasons. Nowadays, even ordinary troops look down on female soldiers and think that female soldiers are not suitable for combat positions, but this rule does not apply to the border defense regiment."

An Chuxia smiled when she said this, "Isn't this your credit?"

"It's because you are strong enough and have a good reputation in the combat squad. No one dares to reject female soldiers by saying that they are not strong enough."

After hearing her explanation, Xia Lan shook her head helplessly, "But..."

After hesitating for a moment, he couldn't help but say, "You think too highly of me. I'm not as good as you say."

Then he sighed deeply, "Xiaoying...you should know, right?"

In fact, in the border defense regiment, this name is rarely mentioned. Although people would go to her grave every time they commemorated her, it seemed that a tacit understanding had been reached among them at other times.

And now that Xia Lan took the initiative to talk about this matter, it really surprised her.

Hesitated for a moment, looked at her, and nodded, "I probably know something..."

Xia Lan forced a smile, "Yeah, you see you know everything about her."

"Since the day I joined the army, I have always thought that female soldiers are no worse than male soldiers. If they can do it, I can do it too."

"I have worked hard over the years, and after becoming an intelligence officer, I am no worse than the male soldiers."

"I also think I did a good job, so I refused to admit defeat even in front of the special forces."

"Until... that time, I really shouldn't have been so stubborn at that time." He sighed deeply, "Ma Yunfei was captured by the Lone Wolf Squad and was injured. Their people wanted to be treated in our group."

"At the time... I rejected their request and let Xiaoying and Xiaofei go, which led to the serious consequences later."

"So...Xiaoying, I was responsible for her death to a large extent."

An Chuxia couldn't even refute this conclusion because she had always felt that way.

Before this, she always thought that Xia Lan was too arrogant, even brainless, otherwise she wouldn't do such a thing.

But after being her correspondent for so long, I gradually got to know her and discovered that although she was sometimes a little impulsive.

But in fact, she wanted to do better and was even a little unwilling to accept the result. Judging from the results, she was just trying to be stubborn.

Most people would think that she didn't have the ability but acted stubbornly, which led to the death of Xiaoying.

Thinking of this, I can only say, "In the matter of Xiaoying... you did have a better choice, but you didn't use it. It is indeed your fault."

"But...it's over. You can't live in the past forever."

Xia Lan listened to her words and sighed softly, "As expected of you, it is indeed my fault to tell me at this time."

"Then what can I say? You can't just say it's not your fault, right?" An Chuxia said without thinking, "If you make a mistake, you should correct it, but you can't live in this mistake forever."

At this point, something suddenly occurred to me, "I think now I understand why you didn't select capable female soldiers to form a combat squad."

"If it was you back then, maybe you would really do it, but now you are much more rational than you were then, and you also understand that not everyone is suitable for the combat class."

"If female soldiers want to be truly combat-ready...it's not just your own efforts, it's a very long process."

"If we force everyone to do this, we'll just be forcing things to happen, just like... Xiaoying's case."

Xia Lan looked at her in surprise.

Without waiting for her to speak, An Chuxia continued, "So aren't you already trying hard to adjust now?"

"At least after I came here, I didn't see that impulsive Xia Lan anymore. Although she is still unwilling to accept it, she already knows when to do what."

"You are quite good at comforting people." Xia Lan really didn't know what to say for a moment.

An Chuxia shook her head. "This is called providing emotional value."

"But..." He hesitated for a moment before looking at her, "I know that although you are changing, you are still unwilling to accept it and still want to do well. This matter has not changed. In fact, this... is also quite good."

"Stay true to yourself. You can't change because of this incident. The Border Guard needs you."

Xia Lan was really comforted. She was stunned for a moment and nodded slightly. "I have indeed been reviewing that incident. I even kept thinking in my heart, if I had made a different choice, would there be a different result?"

"But after thinking about it a few times, I realized that it was of no use at all and nothing could be undone."

He sighed and looked at An Chuxia, "But this decision of mine not only harmed Xiaoying, but also changed the fate of so many people."

An Chuxia could see that this was a knot in her heart, and it had been weighing on her mind for so long that she hadn't been able to let it go.

Xia Lan looked at her and said, "So... I'm not as powerful as you think. I'm in the Border Defense Corps now, but they're just giving me face."

An Chuxia came back to her senses and sighed inwardly, "Actually, a mistake is a mistake, and we can't avoid it."

"But what you did in the border defense regiment cannot be erased, especially the foundation you laid for female soldiers. This at least opens up a good path for those who want to work hard in the future."

"Now, whether it's me or Ling Ke, if we want to come to the combat class for training, the only thing they worry about is not that we are female soldiers, but that we are inexperienced recruits."

"You say... they can't have just seen that we are geniuses and reacted like this, right?"

Xia Lan finally laughed, but she just shook her head helplessly, "I really didn't realize that you are quite good at comforting people."

After a moment of silence, he couldn't help but say, "Thank you..."

An Chuxia knew that she must have been carrying this matter in her heart for a long time.

And having kept it in her heart for so long, she not only felt guilty, but even blamed herself, but she had no one to talk to.

If it was An Chuxia who only watched dramas in her previous life, she might have the same thoughts as them at this time.

But now, she couldn't say it no matter what.

On one hand, there was Xiaoying who died because of her decision, and on the other hand, there was Xia Lan who witnessed her efforts and even saved so many comrades.

It can be said that there are still some conflicts in my heart, so at this time I also feel that my comfort is somewhat powerless.

But she didn't expect that her words would make Xia Lan let down her guard.

After thanking her, Xia Lan suddenly said with emotion, "It seems that my judgment is correct. Not only do you have a strong learning ability in training, but you also have a clear mind."

"They always say you can be the next me, but now it seems that you won't be the next me."

"You will be stronger than me. At least when I was your age, I didn't have as clear a mind as you do."

An Chuxia couldn't help but laugh and cry when she heard this, "Why are you talking about me again?"

"I don't want to be a professional soldier, so how can I reach your level? Don't think too highly of me."

Seeing that she still had this attitude, Xia Lan couldn't help but look at her in surprise, "I thought you had changed your mind."

An Chuxia glanced at the sniper rifle in her hand and said, "I just realized that I can't just slack off in the border defense regiment anymore. After all, slacking off here will cost lives, not only my own, but also the lives of others."

"But not slacking off doesn't mean I want to be a professional soldier. Now I just want to do my best in the next few years."

Xia Lan sighed with emotion, "Okay..."

"But... what I said is also true. You really have always had your own ideas, and you have always insisted on them."

Such compliments made An Chuxia laugh, "I'll just take it as a compliment from you."

Xia Lan laughed and patted her lightly, "Yes, I'm praising you."

"I want you to work hard, but I can't make the decision for you. It's your own choice whether to be a professional soldier or not."

"Of course, I still hope you can do better and let me know that female soldiers can really do just as well as male soldiers."

At this point, something suddenly occurred to me, "But I'm not using you as a test subject."

Her sudden explanation made An Chuxia burst out laughing uncontrollably, "Of course I know I'm not a test subject."

"It's just a joke, you're not taking it seriously, are you?"

And then he thought about it and immediately understood what she meant. He sighed softly, "Don't worry, I'm not Xiaoying. You don't have to put the guilt you feel for her on me."

"She is she, and I am me. Let's not talk about whether I will encounter a real battle. Even if I do, I'm not someone you can mess with, okay?"

"But...next time, we can stop forcing things and let me get used to it slowly."

Xia Lan finally nodded, "Okay, I'll listen to you this time. You should master your own training and make your own plans."

"But... even if you let me run free, you can't let me do whatever I want. I'll test you once a month."

An Chuxia nodded helplessly, "Okay, it's just a test, what's the big deal."

"It's not just about the exam." Xia Lan patted her on the shoulder. "Now that you're back, you can protect yourself. If I have anything to do next, you can come with me."

An Chuxia was stunned for a moment, "Your business..."

What could she do? She doesn't have to check on people or inspect. Instead, she is more likely to be involved in actual combat, or even combat missions.

She wants to follow this kind of mission?

Seeing her reaction, Xia Lan stood up nonchalantly and said, "This is your job as a communicator. I didn't take you with me because I thought you didn't even have the ability to protect yourself."

"Now that you have the ability, you can't stay in the office every day, what kind of soldier is that?"

"Since you are a soldier, you have to do your job well, and your job is to do what I do."

He looked at her and smiled, "I didn't force you to come back. You wanted to come back."

An Chuxia really wanted to roll her eyes at her. So she was waiting here. How come she didn't know that she would have to work harder after coming back?

He didn't want to pay attention to her, so he lay back in the sniper position holding his sniper rifle, prepared for sniping, and continued his training.

But after what she just experienced, she really learned her lesson and will not dare to be as careless as before.

Although he was still concentrating on the sniper scope, he did not dare to keep his ears idle. He began to listen to the sounds around him and became really alert.

At this time, I discovered that in the middle of the night, I could hear these tiny sounds that were completely different.

There are subtle differences in the sound of wind blowing through trees or grass, and even various animals and insects can make sounds that reach our ears.

These were things she hadn't noticed before, or rather, she hadn't paid attention to them at all.

At this moment, she understood what Xia Lan meant by not being too focused.

As long as she was sharp enough, even if an enemy attacked from behind, she would be able to hear the difference from these sounds and take precautions.

But if you don't pay special attention, you won't be able to appreciate it at all, just like just now all her energy was focused on the target in the sniper scope. Although the target was not lost, the surrounding environment was ignored.

She had no observer, and no one to protect her, so she could only rely on herself.

If you don’t have enough ability, you may not be able to wait until the target is killed.