Be in low spirits

After get off work, Li Li came to pick up the mother and daughter. Yuanyuan crawled to the front and complained to her father: "Dad, that auntie came to see mom again!"

Kong Zhixi couldn't stop her from talking, so she could only criticize, "What do you mean by again? She happened to meet her when she went to pick you up. It was a coincidence. She didn't do it on purpose."

"You are lying, she was waiting for you there on purpose. Someone else was trying to snatch your dad away, and you were eating cake with others!" The little girl seemed to be very disgusted with Cheng Xi's appearance.

Li Li thought his daughter was very cute. "No, Daddy won't leave Mommy."

"Don't always say things so absolutely. What if something unexpected happens, won't your daughter blame you?" She finally wanted her daughter to accept the fact of change, but this father kept making all kinds of promises.

"Yuanyuan, you must believe in daddy and mommy. Daddy and mommy will never leave you." He has lost this family too many times. He doesn't want to and is unwilling to believe that there will be a third time.

After dinner, the two took the children to play downstairs. Kong Zhixi took out the plaster from her pocket and put it on her hand. Li Li wanted to sit next to her and ask about Cheng Xi, but when he saw the plaster on her wrist, he asked, "What's wrong with your hand?"

"Tenonitis. I hugged the baby too much in the past, and it has recurred in the past few days." She didn't mention the past because she felt that it would only consume his guilt.

It was hard for him to imagine how a person who had never given birth spent those four years. She rarely mentioned it, but whenever she did, it was because she couldn't hide it. "I'll put a hot water bottle on you tonight. Do you have any other problems that you haven't told me?"

His question was so confusing that she couldn't help but laugh out loud, "What's wrong?"

"Honest talk is the most important thing between husband and wife. Every time you mentioned those four years, you always downplayed it. How could it not be hard? You had to give birth to and raise a child by yourself, without even anyone to help. During those four years, I often went to your grave and stared blankly, blaming you for not meeting me in my dreams. It was my fault, it was my fault, you were right to blame me and not want to see me... At first, I was angry with you..." As he spoke, he started crying, with red eyes.

This was the first time she saw him cry, and it was just a case of tendonitis, so how could he make himself cry? "You...how could you make yourself cry?" She bent her head to see if he was crying for real or fake.

He hugged her and said with sobs, "Why don't you say anything?"

She patted his back, wondering if he had done anything to let her down. "Honey, I told you that if you have someone you like, just tell me in advance. There's no need to do this."

"You... I just feel sorry for you. Why do you always think about me cheating on you?" He wiped his tears, not knowing whether to laugh or cry.

"At this critical moment, you are acting so abnormal. How can it not arouse suspicion? I have told you many times to tell me clearly that you cannot take Yuanyuan away." She looked at Yuanyuan. Now she was the most important person.

"Giving birth to a child is such an important thing, but there's no one around..." As he thought about it, he began to feel guilty again, and he didn't dare to think about her helplessness and loneliness at that time.

"Why are you crying again? Didn't I comfort you just now?" Why is he crying so much that it won't stop?

He held the person in his arms once again, "I just... feel bad."

"Mom, what's wrong with Dad?" Yuanyuan asked curiously while pushing her balance bike.

"You always don't believe in your dad, so he cries sadly." Since you can't fool the adults, you can only fool the children.

Li Li wiped away his tears, smiled again, squatted down and said: "Dad just feels sorry for mom. When he thinks about how mom gave birth to you alone and still..."

She quickly retorted to him, "Oh, don't say this in front of the children, it's all in the past."

The child looked down on him and said, "Mom said crying is useless. You are so embarrassed." As he said this, he gestured on his face twice.

Li Li looked at his wife. It was bad enough that this person teased him, but why did a child also tease him?

Kong Zhixi held back her laughter and turned her head away, not daring to look at him.

"Dad, if you care about my mom, you can't make her sad."

"Dad promises you." He carried the child to play together.

After coaxing the child to sleep, the two sat in front of the floor-to-ceiling window and chatted. This time was different. After taking a shower, Li Li tricked Kong Zhixi up from the sofa, sat on it himself, and stretched out his hand for someone to sit on him.

She curled up on him, thinking that it was time to put away the floor cushions and buy a single sofa to put here.

"Wife, are you unhappy that Cheng Xi came to see you?" He put his arms around her waist and rested his chin on her head.

"No. They've been waiting for you for twenty years, and I've only been waiting for four years."

"It's different. If you're upset, I'll explain it to her more clearly?"

"You have to let her let it go on her own. There's no point in persuading her." I don't know if it was my illusion. When we first met, he had obviously lost a lot of weight, and his chest and abdominal muscles seemed to have disappeared. How come his health has been getting better and better over the past six months?

"Let's not talk about her, let's talk about our daughter. Wasn't she very cute before?"

"Of course. Don't you see who gave birth to her? She used to be so well-behaved. She rarely made trouble in the office. When she could walk, she was very happy and fun to play with. But she has a stubborn temper. She must have picked you up." Speaking of her daughter, her eyes became gentle.

"I should have come with you." He still felt guilty when talking about those four years.

"You're talking nonsense again." She looked up at him and said, "I told Yuanyuan that you have to take care of your grandparents. Don't overthink it and don't feel guilty. The child is also my child."

He stared at her with ambiguous eyes for a long time, then hugged her and said, "Yes, the child is yours, and you are mine." Daughters are important, but wives are more important. "Why is my T-shirt different on you than on me?"

"How dare you say that? You've taken off all my pajamas and deformed them." I had worn those pajamas for several years, and after being torn apart by him a few times, they were indeed unwearable.

"Wouldn't it be nice to wear mine? You can wear mine every night."

She wanted to get up. She had worn his shirt once before, but he couldn't control himself. This time, she thought that wearing a T-shirt wouldn't cause any reaction from him. However, he couldn't control himself in this position. "You couldn't control yourself when I wore your shirt before. If you wear it like this every day, I'm afraid your body won't be able to bear it."

He held her back, refusing to let her get up. "Are you afraid that I can't handle it or that you can't handle it?"

"I want to say that I can't bear it anymore. Can I have a quiet night tonight?"

"What do you think?" He sat up, picked up the person and walked towards the second bedroom.

After it was over, Kong Zhixi complained, "You're old, can't you be more restrained?" He held the person in his arms, she was still panting, exhaling on his chest. "I just feel like I'm not close enough to you."

"Can you please not go so deep next time? I can't stand it." She asked timidly, looking up.

He leaned down and kissed her, and promised: "I promise I'll be gentler next time."

Kong Zhixi snorted coldly, turned around and ignored him. He hugged her and said, "Do you think there is really an afterlife? If there is, can we have children together in the next life?"

"No. What if you are ugly in your next life?" She reached out to grab the clothes, but couldn't.

"I will try my best to grow up to be the way you like." He brought clothes to her, pulled her out of bed and put them on her, then lifted the quilt and carried her to the master bedroom to sleep.

"Be gentler next time, otherwise my legs will tremble every time and I will always need you to carry me back." She buried her head in his chest and said softly.

"I want to hold her." He put her on the bed, looked at his daughter, and they both fell into a deep sleep.

The days passed by so ordinary. Occasionally, Cheng Xi would look for Li Li. Every time, he would emphasize to her that his wife and children had an irreplaceable position in his heart. Every time he met her, he would be honest with Kong Zhixi. The child grew up gradually. After going to elementary school, Yuanyuan began to live in the second bedroom and slept alone.

Most people in the Obsession Cave will never grow older, but Yuanyuan is different. Her obsession needs time to prove itself. After seeing her fall asleep in the second bedroom, Kong Zhixi stroked her hair and whispered, "Baby, if there is a next life, will you come back to be my daughter?"

After mopping the floor, Li Li sat down beside her and said, "My daughter, you just hope for a next life, but why don't I want a next life?"

She elbowed him and rolled her eyes at him, "My daughter will definitely be beautiful in her next life, but you may not be. Don't wake her up, get out!"