After many years of marriage, she was reborn

Guilt

Time passed mercilessly, I was immersed in endless darkness, and the haze of depression became heavier.

Every day becomes heavy and difficult, like carrying a mountain that cannot be lifted off.

I gradually lost my passion for life, the smile disappeared from my face, and was replaced by endless sadness.

Negative thoughts came flooding in, overwhelming my mind.

The abyss of despair opened up before my eyes, and thoughts of suicide followed me everywhere.

I felt myself being dragged to the brink of destruction by an invisible force, and I was powerless to resist.

The arrival of each morning no longer brings hope, but a heavier burden.

The world seemed to become gray and distorted, and I gradually became alienated from the people around me.

Loneliness has become my most loyal companion, and pain follows me like a shadow.

I tried to find a ray of light, but it seemed to be getting farther and farther away, disappearing into the endless darkness.

However, I know I am not alone and there are many people going through similar pain.

I decided to seek help and share my inner struggles with a professional.

I believe that one day, I will be able to regain the meaning and hope of life.

Every day is a torture for me.

I couldn't stand even the slightest sound of children crying.

The sharp and piercing sound was like a sharp blade, ruthlessly piercing my eardrum and reaching deep into my heart.

Whenever the kids start crying, no matter how trivial the reason may be.

I could feel an uncontrollable frustration and despair surging over me like a tide.

My depression was like a demon lurking in the darkness.

Waiting for this moment to be triggered and then devour my soul mercilessly.

The child's crying became the fuse for my emotional breakdown and brought me into an endless abyss of pain.

I covered my ears tightly, trying to block out the heartbreaking sound.

But the tears kept flowing, blurring my vision.

I curled up in the corner, my body trembling slightly, shrouded in fear and helplessness.

At this moment, a warm hand gently rested on my shoulder.

I looked up and saw Yu Yifan's concerned eyes.

He sat beside me silently, without saying a word, just giving me silent companionship and support.

With Yu Yifan's encouragement, I slowly loosened my hands and let the crying sound seep into my ears bit by bit.

I tried hard to control my inner impulse and told myself that this was the reality I had to face.

Over time, I gradually learned to face my children's cries and no longer avoid or suppress my emotions.

Although the pain is still there, I find myself able to deal with it more strongly.

Yu Yifan’s companionship and understanding became a huge motivation for me to overcome depression and allowed me to regain the courage and confidence in life.

I took a deep breath and tried to calm myself down.

Yu Yifan held my hand tightly, giving me a little strength.

"Don't be afraid, I will always be with you." His voice was gentle but firm.

I nodded and leaned against his shoulder, feeling his warmth.

Just then, the children's crying gradually stopped, replaced by a slight breathing sound.

I opened my eyes and looked at the children sleeping quietly in the cradle, and an endless love surged in my heart.

Yu Yifan patted my hand gently and said, "Look, everything will be fine."

I smiled, tears glistening in my eyes, "Thank you for always supporting me."

He hugged me and said, "We are a family and we will always be together."

At that moment, I felt the darkness in my heart gradually dissipate, and the sunlight shone through the clouds onto me.

I know that the road ahead is still long, but with the company of Yu Yifan and the children, I will definitely be able to walk out of the haze and embrace a better tomorrow.

Although depression made me like a walking corpse, I lost my former vitality and brilliance, and became unrecognizable and like a different person.

But Yu Yifan never left me, with endless patience and love.

Every day she takes good care of my and my children's daily life and gives us loving care.

Whether it is when the first ray of sunlight shines through the window in the early morning, or when night falls and everything is quiet.

He always guards us silently and looks at me with warm eyes.

Right now, the kids and I are all he needs in life.

At this time, Grandpa came over and said, "Xiao Fan, let the nanny take care of the child first. You have to take good care of Yi Yi for me!"

Grandpa's weather-beaten face revealed deep helplessness and worry.

He held Yu Yifan's hand tightly and spoke earnestly.

At this moment, Grandpa placed all his hopes on Yifan.

"Grandpa knows you are busy at work and have to deal with a lot of things every day."

"But now, Yiyi's health condition is so bad, I really have no other choice." Grandpa said to Yifan with tears in his eyes and a choked voice.

His tone was full of helplessness and pain, which made Yu Yifan feel sad.

My grandfather is the president of Rushi Group, and he has become much more haggard recently because of me.

Looking at his grandfather's white hair, wrinkled face, and the deep worry in his eyes, Yu Yifan felt that the burden on his shoulders was heavier.

He knew that grandpa had always been the one who loved me the most, and now that I was sick, grandpa was the one who felt the most miserable.

Yu Yifan held his grandfather's hand tightly and comforted him: "Grandpa, don't worry, I will do everything I can to cure Yiyi's illness."

"No matter how busy I am at work, I will not let you down. Please believe me, I will not let you down."

Grandpa nodded slightly, but tears kept flowing down.

Grandpa knows that Yu Yifan is a good child with a sense of responsibility and a strong sense of responsibility.

But facing my condition, he couldn't help feeling helpless and scared.

At this moment, he could only pray silently, hoping that God would bless me with a speedy recovery and let this family return to happiness and peace.

"Grandpa, although work is important, it is only a part of our lives."

"Compared to work, Yiyi's health is the most important thing to me."

“After all, no matter how much I achieve, if I don’t have a healthy and happy Yiyi by my side, what’s the point of it all?”

Grandpa finally put his heart at ease after hearing what Yu Yifan said.

He murmured to himself, "It's all my fault! If I hadn't insisted on that marriage, perhaps Yiyi wouldn't have to endure such pain now."

There were tears in my grandfather's eyes, a light mixed with regret and grief.

He knew how much harm his decision had caused me.

Every memory hurts grandpa's heart like a knife.

He remembered my once brilliant smile and my innocent eyes.

But now all these beautiful things have been obscured by the shadow of reality.

Grandpa couldn't forgive himself. He regretted not understanding the situation more deeply and not listening to the true voice in my heart.

However, time cannot be reversed and the mistake has been made.

Grandpa could only bear the self-blame silently and hope to make up for his past mistakes through his own efforts.