Siheyuan: Being a fisherman in 1962

Xu Damao was taken away by a police car, leaving behind only a mess and the whispers of the crowd.

Qin Huairu gently bandaged Qin Jingru's wound. The bloodstains on her fair skin looked particularly glaring.

Qin Jingru bit her lower lip, trying to endure the pain, but tears were glistening in her eyes.

"I...I'm really scared."

Qin Huairu didn't say anything, but just patted the back of her hand gently to comfort her.

This night was undoubtedly a nightmare for Qin Jingru.

Not far away, Lou Xiao'e was helping to clean up the scattered items.

His movements were quick and skillful, but his expression of fatigue could not be concealed.

This sudden storm made the originally peaceful courtyard become restless.

Sha Zhu stood aside, watching all this with complicated eyes.

Being unemployed and at home, he was constantly blamed by his family, which made him feel extremely stressed.

He was originally a hardworking and capable person, but he lost his job due to some misunderstandings, which made him feel unprecedented frustration.

Sitting on the doorstep, gazing into the distance with a dazed look, Silly Pig's thoughts drifted back to the days when he was free and galloping.

The former Sha Zhu, now has the ability to move freely among various restaurants with his superb cooking skills.

Every time he waved the spatula, the firelight illuminated his resolute face, and the fragrant dishes poured out of the pot like flowing water, winning cheers from the diners.

At that time, he was free as the wind and full of passion.

However, reality is like a ruthless shackle that binds him tightly.

The criminal record left by that misunderstanding was like an insurmountable gap, blocking him from entering the restaurant of his dreams.

I applied for jobs again and again, and was rejected again and again.

The bosses who once praised him highly now avoid him.

The feeling of frustration surged in his heart like a tide, and Sha Zhu began to drink to drown his sorrows.

Immersed in the numbness of alcohol, trying to escape the cruelty of reality.

However, every time I woke up, the biting coldness penetrated deeper into my bones.

I think of myself in the past, holding a spatula, showing off my skills in a restaurant and winning countless cheers.

At that time, he was so full of passion and had endless expectations for life.

However, reality was like a ruthless shackle that bound him tightly and made him unable to break free.

When he was unemployed and at home, he heard constant blame from his family, which made him feel very stressed.

Alcohol became his only comfort, allowing him to temporarily forget the troubles in life.

In order to continue drinking, he started drinking cheap industrial alcohol.

This type of alcohol not only tastes terrible, but also causes great harm to the body.

His health began to deteriorate, but he didn't care at all, as if he had lost hope in life.

One day, Sha Zhu was walking drunk on the street and accidentally ran into Chen Fei.

Chen Fei was dressed in bright clothes and looked calm, as if everything was under his control.

A strong sense of imbalance surged in Sha Zhu's heart, and he felt that the gap between himself and Chen Fei was getting bigger and bigger.

This sense of imbalance caused Sha Zhu's drinking behavior to escalate.

He began to drink all day and all night, as if only alcohol could make him forget the pain in his heart.

However, alcohol could not really solve the problem, but only made him fall deeper into the quagmire.

He stumbled along the cobblestone road, the anesthesia from the alcohol made his consciousness blurry and he staggered as he walked.

The acrid taste of the alcohol burned in my throat, and every breath seemed to carry a flame.

Sha Zhu's eyes were filled with helplessness and despair. He felt like he was being swallowed by endless darkness, unable to extricate himself.

Suddenly, a sharp pain came from the stomach, as if it was being torn apart.

Sha Zhu suddenly covered his abdomen and bent over in pain.

Sweat broke out on his forehead and the world in front of him began to spin.

At this moment, Qin Huairu's voice sounded in her ears, gentle and urgent: "What's wrong? Come on, I'll take you to the hospital!"

I tried hard to open my eyes and looked at that familiar and concerned face. The despair in my heart seemed to be alleviated a little.

With Qin Huairu's help, Sha Zhu was rushed to the hospital.

In the glaringly lit emergency room, the doctor seriously asked Sha Zhu about what he drank.

When the doctor learned that it was industrial alcohol, his brows furrowed and a look of worry appeared on his face.

"You are playing with your own life!" The doctor's tone was full of blame and concern. "Industrial alcohol contains a lot of toxic substances and is extremely harmful to the body. Do you want to die?"

Sha Zhu was lying on the hospital bed, listening to the doctor's words, feeling ashamed and regretful, and heartbroken for his stupid behavior.

Amid the pungent smell of disinfectant, Sha Zhu stared at the ceiling with lifeless eyes.

The doctor's words echoed in his ears, like a heavy hammer, striking his soul.

His alcoholism had become too serious to be ignored, and it was all his own fault.

Qin Huairu sat on the edge of the bed, her hands clenched, her eyes full of disappointment and anger.

The former Sha Zhu was the man who showed off his cooking skills in the restaurant and made her admire him.

But now, he has become an alcoholic and a man who neglects his family.

"How could you do this?" Qin Huairu said with endless disappointment, "Our family is already in such a difficult situation, and you are still drinking so irresponsibly. Have you ever considered me and the children?"

Sha Zhu didn't say anything, but just lowered his head silently.

Can't defend myself.

Qin Huairu was completely disappointed by his alcoholism.

Just then, the doctor came in, interrupting the silence between the two.

Looking at Sha Zhu, he said in a serious tone: "Your current physical condition is very bad and you need immediate treatment. As for the problem between you, I suggest you put it aside for now and focus on his health."

Although I was unwilling, I knew what the doctor said made sense.

"Okay, let's treat the disease first."

Sha Zhu listened to their conversation and thought that Qin Huairu still cared about him.

This concern made him feel both guilty and warm.

After several days of rest, Sha Zhu's condition was finally under control.

Although gastric bleeding is serious, it is not serious because it is treated in time.

The doctor told him that he only needed to be observed for a few more days before being discharged from the hospital.

However, Sha Zhu was worried that the high medical expenses would bring a greater burden to his already struggling family.

One morning, while Qin Huairu was still asleep, Sha Zhu quietly left the hospital.

Walking on the streets in the early morning, the breeze blows, bringing a hint of coolness.

My heart was filled with guilt and self-blame. I felt sorry for Qin Huairu and this family.

After Qin Huairu found out that Sha Zhu had left, she hurriedly looked around for him.

When I arrived at Sha Zhu's house, I saw the door was closed and the house was silent.

Worried that Shazhu would do something stupid.

Just then, Sha Zhu's figure appeared at the entrance of the alley.

His face was haggard and his eyes were empty.

Qin Huairu hurried forward and scolded, "How could you do this? You left the hospital without permission before you recovered. Have you considered me and the children?"

Sha Zhu lowered his head silently and said nothing.

Unable to explain my difficulties.

Looking at Sha Zhu's look, Qin Huairu tried to keep her tone calm: "You know what? I've been thinking, can you sell some braised food at the entrance of the alley? Low cost, low risk, maybe it can help you regain some confidence."

However, Sha Zhu refused due to face issues.

"You have to try!" Her voice was not loud, but it was full of unquestionable power. "You used to be an excellent chef. You can't give up on yourself because of a temporary setback. The children and I need you. This family needs you too."

Sha Zhu lowered his head and clenched his hands into fists, as if he was struggling.

His heart was full of contradictions. On the one hand, he was aware of his own situation, but on the other hand, he did not want to disappoint Qin Huairu.