Siheyuan, integrating everything, cultivating the city

"You make me feel even more uncomfortable when you say that." Lin Xue whispered, with a hint of confusion in her eyes, "You knew I would do these things before, and I didn't force you to agree. Why do you suddenly..." She didn't finish, as if she didn't know how to express her disappointment and helplessness.

Li Xiangqian frowned, he felt like he was struggling, the tug of war between reason and emotion made him almost breathless. "Xue, I know you never do anything wrong. It's just..." He paused, as if looking for the right words, "It's just that these grains cannot be distributed casually, do you understand?"

"I understand." Lin Xue's voice suddenly seemed a little calm. "You don't want me to do these things, I can understand. But have you ever thought that sometimes, maybe your insistence on these things is not for the family, but for yourself."

Li Xiangqian was stunned, and a complex emotion suddenly surged in his heart. His wife's words made him reflect on himself. He knew that his wife had some truth. Every time he argued with her, his persistence did not seem to be entirely out of responsibility for the family, but more of a fear of losing control - he was too sensitive to those details, as if every decision represented his control over the future.

He was silent for a long time, and suddenly a soft emotion surged in his heart. He looked at his wife's back, and his heart was full of guilt and uneasiness. He knew that his emotions were a little out of control recently, especially his obsession with details, which had become an inescapable burden. Li Xiangqian sighed softly, walked towards Lin Xue, and said softly: "Xue, I'm sorry, I may have been a little too anxious recently."

Lin Xue did not respond, but turned around and looked at him, with a soft light in her eyes. "It's okay, Xiang Qian, I understand you. I know you are doing this for the good of your family." Her tone was gentle, with an almost imperceptible firmness.

Li Xiangqian couldn't help but look at the grain bags that had been arranged on the table. Suddenly, a thought flashed through his mind, as if he had been relieved of his anxiety for the past few days. He suddenly realized that perhaps his persistence and stubbornness were actually his way of avoiding something - the fear and anxiety that he was afraid to face, and these fears and anxieties had nothing to do with external things, but came from his own heart. Suddenly, he felt a little strange and a little ridiculous about the anxiety in his heart.

"Xue," Li Xiangqian suddenly spoke, his tone becoming softer, "Our lives are guaranteed. Although these little things sometimes make me anxious, I actually know that we can still live well."

Lin Xue nodded slightly and showed a relieved smile, "I'm glad you said that." She gently held Li Xiangqian's hand and placed it in her warm palm, her eyes full of concern, "Life is not easy, we don't have to worry about these little things for too long."

Li Xiangqian was stunned for a moment, and suddenly felt relieved. His fingers gently scratched his wife's palm, and suddenly realized that his stubbornness was often just the shadow in his heart. He had never realized so deeply as now that the little things in life were not worth interweaving his emotions so complicatedly for them.

Suddenly, his thoughts were interrupted by a gentle voice: "Dad!"

Li Xiangqian raised his head and saw his daughter Xiaoqing standing at the kitchen door, her eyes wide open and an innocent smile on her face. Her appearance was like a sudden breeze that slowly dissipated the heavy emotions in Li Xiangqian's heart.

"What are you doing, Dad?" Xiaoqing asked as she walked in with an unclosed picture book in her hand. "Are you angry again?"

Li Xiangqian suddenly felt warm in his heart. He looked down at his daughter's eyes, those clear eyes seemed to be able to see through everything, reaching the softest part of her heart. He instantly felt a deep sense of guilt and reluctance, as if he had been separating her with that cold and hard shell, ignoring the warmth of fatherly love that she should have enjoyed.

"No, Dad is not angry." Li Xiangqian walked up to his daughter with a smile, bent down and gently pinched her little nose, "Dad is just a little unhappy, it's no big deal." He said softly, with tenderness and helplessness in his voice.

A bright smile immediately appeared on Xiaoqing's face. She stretched out her hands and hugged Li Xiangqian's neck, "Dad, if you are unhappy, you should laugh! Otherwise, you will be like the Big Bad Wolf, with your face wrinkled into big buns!" As she spoke, she imitated the Big Bad Wolf's appearance and made an exaggerated grimace.

Li Xiangqian couldn't help but laugh, and the gloom in his heart dissipated. He knew that his daughter didn't notice that the family atmosphere was a little different today, but her innocent smile was like the first ray of sunshine in the morning, illuminating the haze in his heart.

"Okay, I won't frown anymore." Li Xiangqian bent down and gently pinched his daughter's face, and his mood suddenly brightened. He picked up his daughter and gently turned her around, "Xiaoqing, Daddy is not angry anymore. Look, your smile has healed me."

Xiao Qing giggled and patted Li Xiangqian's shoulder excitedly, "Dad, you really need to laugh! You need to laugh all the time!"

Li Xiangqian stood at the kitchen door, looking at the figures of Lin Xue and Xiao Qing laughing and playing, and felt a sense of peace in his heart. Perhaps it was because of his daughter's innocence, or perhaps it was because of his wife's warm smile, that he gradually regained a little of his lost balance. However, the uneasiness and anxiety in his mind still followed him like a shadow, lingering.

These days, Li Xiangqian's annoyance is not just due to trivial matters at home - those unnecessary disputes and unnecessary anxiety seem to make him more aware that there are always things in life that he cannot control and cracks that cannot be eliminated. For example, the "friend" who makes him feel uneasy - Jia Dongxu.

He is not someone who easily argues with others, however, Jia Dongxu's existence is like a time bomb in his life, which may break his precious peace at any time. Li Xiangqian has never liked this person, especially when Xu Damao still contacts him from time to time, he can't help but feel a little depressed. Jia Dongxu's behavior always makes Li Xiangqian feel uneasy, not only because of the gray transactions behind him, but also because he always inadvertently stirs up some troubles that he doesn't want to get involved in.