Rebirth: My Mother is a Virgin Mary

That was the first time I heard the word "regret" from the mouth of an octogenarian.

“You…you can hate me…however you want, I don’t deserve…forgiveness…” Grandma continued her hoarse voice, trying hard, “You hate your dad…that’s fine…he deserves it! If one day…your mom wants…to divorce…then…let’s divorce, and you don’t have to support…him, ignore him…it’s all fine…I…I only ask you…” Her panting became louder and louder, I felt something was not good, and pressed the call bell at the bedside. Grandma held my hand: “It’s okay…I can still…hold on…this is…all retribution! Lin Lin…”

It was the first time I heard her call my name. I used to think that if she was willing to call my name, I would be very happy and would sweetly call her "Grandma", but now...

"Lin Lin... I... I only beg you, can you... can you recognize this dad, no matter what he... did... you are still... willing... to recognize him... call him... Grandma, please..." She cried, her face pressed against my hand. I thought, she has never begged anyone in her life, but now she begged so humbly for her son. But why? At that time, I couldn't understand why she said such a thing. Her second son has always been her pride, and she would not allow anyone to blaspheme.

I changed my posture and lay on my side until my arms were stiff. Now I think about it, could it be that my grandmother knew the character of her second son very well and had a premonition that Cheng Xingmin would not do anything good, so she gave me a shot in advance? But I always felt that something was wrong. I fell into deep thinking. In my previous life, I had been immersed in the workplace for so long that I had learned to read people's expressions. Thinking back to the expression on my grandmother's face when she said those words to me, the more I thought about it, the more I felt that she knew something about Cheng Xingmin, something that I could never forgive Cheng Xingmin for. She also mentioned Ms. Lin. Such a traditional old lady took the initiative to mention the word "divorce". Could there be something that could lead to Ms. Lin and Cheng Xingmin's divorce? If there was, what would it be? I thought about my previous life again. It was always my wishful thinking to want them to divorce. Ms. Lin was just being strong-willed verbally, but never taking any real action. Although each thing was more annoying than the other, nothing made Ms. Lin think that it would affect the extent of their divorce. What could it be? I was so curious. What secrets did the old lady have?

Ah~ Don’t think about it for now. If I have the ability in this life, I will find everything I need to find. This is only the first day of my rebirth, and my brain cells are almost dead.

I received the news of my grandmother's death on the second day of the military training in college. When I took the train and then the bus to rush back to my hometown, my grandmother was about to be buried. The three brothers Cheng Xingmin cried more violently than at my grandfather's funeral; I knelt in front of the mourning hall, unable to shed a single tear. The last time I saw her before school started was the last time. She told me "regret", but that was her regret. My heart was not affected except for some fluctuations at that time.

I heard someone say, "It's bad feng shui. Both old people in the family passed away before the end of the year..." Someone else retorted, "Hey, what does this have to do with feng shui? The old man passed away in his sleep, at the end of a long life. The old lady was in poor health to begin with, and the death of the old man was a big blow to her. She only lived for half a year and then followed him..." Someone else gossiped, "Didn't they say that the old lady's illness could be cured but she didn't in the end? Was it because the old lady herself didn't want to treat it or because her sons didn't want to treat it?" Someone immediately responded, "Oh, who can say for sure? The old lady was so old. We should know the answer ourselves. Look at the grand funeral. It's such a big show. If they want to show us their filial piety, just keep it to yourself!"... People were talking about it. The wailing cries of Cheng Xingmin and others, the funeral music playing outside the door, and the clanging sounds of cooking in the yard of the uncle next door, grandma's funeral was really lively.

Lin Qingmei pulled me aside and advised me to comfort Cheng Xingmin. He lost both his father and mother this year, and he must be feeling very uncomfortable... I rolled my eyes: "You are his bedmate, isn't this what you should do? He doesn't like me so much, and we have such a relationship, what do you think of asking me to comfort him?"

She insisted: "Isn't this a chance to ease the relationship between you two?"

"Ease? Don't be too confident. It's good enough that the situation between us doesn't get worse..." I said unhappily.

"We are father and daughter, there is no overnight hatred. Your father has lost his parents, he only has us!" Lin Qingmei said with regret.

"He has brothers and sisters, and he treats them better than us. They are his real brothers and sisters. Now that their grandparents are gone, he will only treat them better and fulfill their every request! He treats his nephew better than his own daughter. We are nothing!" I shook off her hand and made an excuse to go to the bathroom.

As soon as I walked out of the main hall, my aunt pulled me to the corner of the kitchen. She handed me a cloth bag with two thousand yuan and a worn silver bracelet. My aunt said that this was what my grandma asked her to give me before she left. My grandma didn't have much savings. The two thousand yuan was the land subsidy she saved in the past two years. The silver bracelet was left to her as her granddaughter-in-law by my grandpa's grandmother. It was an old item. My grandma was a child bride, four years older than my grandpa. This bracelet was left as a family heirloom. For many years, my aunt and aunt have been thinking about this bracelet. It is not valuable but symbolic. I once heard Lin Qingmei talk about it. I don't know which daughter-in-law she will give it to... I didn't expect my grandma to leave it to me. I subconsciously refused and didn't want this thing. My aunt insisted on stuffing it into my hand and warned me not to let others know, not even Cheng Xingyan and Lin Qingmei. This was my grandma's last breath. The money is not much, and the bracelet is just a thought. It should be regarded as compensation for my grandma's guilt for me over the years. Let me keep it well. The eldest aunt also said that there was no need to worry that they would miss me, and if they asked, just say it was with her.

There was indeed someone who coveted the bracelet. Aunt Li Meixian turned grandma's house upside down but couldn't find what she wanted. It was her eldest aunt who took the initiative to say that grandma had given the bracelet to her several years ago, and as the eldest daughter, she was qualified.

Thinking of this, I jumped out of bed. If I remember correctly, I put the cloth bag in the interlayer of a book after I brought it back. I used the book to save small change. I dug a hole in the middle of the book, and it looked like an ordinary book. Although Ms. Lin loved to clean my room, she never touched my bookshelf. The things should still be there!

I quickly found the book and opened it with great expectation. Sure enough! The cloth bag was still there! I opened it carefully. There was a roll of money and a bracelet. The money was no more and no less than two thousand yuan. There was nothing special. I would just use Huabei. But I never looked at this bracelet carefully since it came to me. What was I doing in my previous life? How could I forget this? ! I looked at the bracelet carefully. The style was very old, with a wide pumpkin head, suitable for older women to wear. The pattern was really exquisite, and the craftsmanship was really exquisite. Although it was a wide bracelet, it was also a work of art to carve peony flowers and lotus branches. This must be pure handwork. In the era of my grandfather's ancestors, the emperor still selected the show. This is not an old object, this is an antique! I suppressed my excitement and cursed myself in my previous life. I got this bracelet at the age of 18 and died at the age of 27. I didn't think about it in all these years? ! Fortunately, fortunately, isn't this a rebirth? What's mine is mine~ No wonder my grandmother's daughters-in-law are all thinking about this bracelet. It would cost a lot of money, not to mention its collection value. There are peony patterns on it. Peony, in the feudal society, is something that ordinary people can afford. It must be something from the palace! What's the matter? Are the ancestors of the Cheng family from a noble family? I took the bracelet and looked at it over and over again, not missing any details. My mind was divergent and my imagination was full of ideas: Grandma, is she the heir of some secret family sect? It can only be passed down from one generation to the next? Was her previous treatment of me a test for the heir? What generation is my generation? What treasure is this bracelet the secret key to? Will there be a man or a group of men in black suddenly jump out and kneel down to call me "master"?

Stop! I've read too many novels...

This is just an antique silver bracelet that is not so ordinary. Since grandma gave it to me, I kept it well. But I started to think about that question in my heart. My eldest aunt said that grandma left it to me because she felt guilty about me. I don’t think her guilt towards me comes from so many years of harsh treatment. If she was going to feel guilty about that kind of abuse, she would have felt guilty a long time ago. To be specific, her attitude towards me changed since grandpa passed away, but at that time I thought she was just pretending to be seen by outsiders, so I didn’t believe it. Her guilt towards me must be related to Cheng Xingmin. She is Cheng Xingmin’s mother, and she begged me like that only for her children. Cheng Xingmin, Cheng Xingmin, what great thing have you done to make your mother do this for you?