Crazy host sweet temptation, cold licking the main god and acting coquettish

Chapter 542 "Part 2" Li x Chang

[The following is the first-person perspective: Li Yan]

When the explosion happened as expected, I felt an inexplicable sense of relief.

I felt like I was still seeing hallucinations before I died. I saw a blurry, almost unrecognizable face in the sky. It was God's last gift to a villain.

I saw that at the last moment, Si Mo was protected by someone, and the scene of him and Zou Yanzhi hugging each other was glaring. It was so cold and indifferent.

Maybe I once had such a person, someone who was willing to give everything for me. But I pushed him away with my own hands, even now I regret it too late.

……

But I never thought that God would punish me so severely. He didn't let me die, but left me with a body without a soul.

My head hurts so much, my whole body hurts, and my brain feels like it's going to explode.

It seemed like I had had a long dream. I was drifting alone in a boat in the deep sea. Looking up at the sky, I saw a circle formed by an arc, and inside the circle was Chang Ruxin's face.

I was almost there, and I was about to see it clearly. I was eager to see his expression, even a frown or a smile, or the outline of his eyebrows. But in the end, I woke up from this dream.

"Li Yan, three months have passed and you finally woke up."

"Although the patient has woken up, his condition is not optimistic. His lower body is severely paralyzed, and there is little hope that he will be able to stand up for the rest of his life. He also has severe brain trauma, and may suffer from concussion and amnesia. In more serious cases, his brain nerves may be compressed in the future."

"Amnesia?"

"Yes."

I don't know what these people are talking about in this room, I just hear a lot of noise. There is a circle of stuffy gauze wrapped around my head, which makes my face and neck itchy, but I don't have the strength to lift my hands to remove it.

Amnesia? Me?

I know my name, my occupation, and that someone is waiting for me. I have not lost my memory.

A man in a standard uniform asked me a lot of questions, and someone else was taking notes.

But the names they mentioned were so unfamiliar, I didn't know these people at all.

Drug use? Smuggling? Kidnapping?

What does this have to do with me.

I was silent for a long time, and finally took the initiative to ask the first question: "Where is Chang Ruxin?"

Where is my love? Isn’t he waiting for me?

"Do you still remember Chang Ruxin?" The two looked at each other and said, "Li Yan, we are telling you seriously that you have committed many crimes. If you deliberately lie and conceal them, you know the consequences."

Their attitude annoys me.

Why can't I remember my love?

I said, "I have never lied. Can you tell me where my lover is?"

My mind was in a mess and I couldn't think for a long time. The two men didn't say anything else, but it was obvious that the one standing was about to say something but stopped.

I later heard their conversation with the doctor, and I couldn't understand some of the terms they used. But in layman's terms, my nerves were compressed by blood clots, and due to psychological trauma, I developed selective amnesia.

They will also firmly believe in what they believe in and live in their own settings.

I am familiar with the word "setting" because I am a novel writer and often write this kind of thing for various characters, but will I also be infected in real life?

They said that I used to be a bad person and that every crime I committed was worthy of being shot.

Maybe, I'm so tired.

……

After a few days, I was awake for very few times. I opened my eyes every day in a daze, and different people came to ask me questions.

But I really can't remember anything. If I have really done so much evil, then let me die.

But Chang Ruxin, my lover hasn't come to see me yet.

Is he unwilling to come because I look ugly now?

Someone came to see me again today and asked me if I remembered anything. I closed my eyes and said yes.

Just go along with what they say, there is nothing to be ashamed of. If the crime must have a legitimate reason to be pinned on me, then I choose to compromise.

Although the police were skeptical about what I said, when I saw that the recorder finally breathed a sigh of relief for the first time in a few days, I felt that what I did was right.

Before they left, I begged them to let me see my lover.

"Lover, who?"

I said Chang Ruxin's name, and the two men looked at each other with strange expressions.

Even if it was only for a moment, I understood it.

The man adjusted his police hat and said righteously, "I don't have the right to bring him here directly, but I will convey your message for you."

I thanked him.

I waited for a few days, but he didn't come.

I began to count the fallen leaves outside the window out of boredom. On the last night when the tree was left alone, I woke up from my sleep.

"You came?"

Chang Ruxin stood a few meters away from the bed, looking at me, with no intention of coming over.

"Why are you wearing so little? Aren't you cold?"

I have a lot to say. I want to ask him why he didn't come to see me for so long, why...

But in the end, all he said was this meaningless sentence.

Because I saw that the leaf was blown down by the strong wind. The nurse who changed the dressing told me that the temperature in South City had dropped again today, and I don’t know if Chang Ruxin was too thin or what, but she looked a little shaky as she stood there.

"You came to me." he said.

I nodded.

No one spoke anymore.

"……What's up."

Chang Ruxin's cold gaze didn't even look at me, but fell on a small table lamp next to the cabinet.

I felt a sense of loss in my heart, and the pain gradually spread throughout my limbs. Although I didn't know what happened, I was so smart that I guessed it right away -

He is still Chang Ruxin, but he is no longer my lover.

The words on my lips come out subconsciously and are beyond my control.

"You don't love me anymore?"

Don't you like me?

My eyes are sore, my nose is blocked, my throat is dry, and I can hardly breathe...

After dozens of seconds of silence, Chang Ruxin suddenly looked at me again.

His eyes were so determined that I was so scared that I couldn't breathe.

I know what he's going to say.

Don't say it, don't say it...

"Li Yan, I no longer love you."

"All I can do is not hate you. How can I love you?"

I opened my mouth and saw tears on Chang Ruxin's face.