After rebirth, I kidnapped the sickly Dugong

In the end, after Si Jiu struggled hopelessly for several times, he couldn't resist the simultaneous relaxation of his body and mind.

He felt relieved, his tense emotions were released, and the depression in his heart was relieved.

Before she could say anything, Si Jiu helplessly leaned on her shoulder and sobbed.

It was as if the veil of shame had been torn off, and Si Jiu was now filled with extreme despair.

He cried out of his unwillingness, his despair, and his dissatisfaction.

"I'm sorry Baibai, I'm sorry."

Even at this point, Si Jiu was still thinking about apologizing to Wen Baizhi.

It seemed like this was an opportunity for Si Jiu to open up and speak his mind.

Wen Baizhi simply wrapped her arms around his waist and hugged his trembling body.

She didn't say anything, but she vaguely felt that Si Jiu would say a lot to her.

"Bai Bai, I just sometimes wonder why I am the one who has to endure all this. My life was already very hard before, and after meeting you, I actually thought I could have a normal and happy life like everyone else.

But, but just when I was most looking forward to a new life, you died, and Qi Yan'an castrated me...me...

Baibai, I'm sorry, really, I, I, why is it me, Baibai, why do all these misfortunes have to befall me. "

Si Jiu rarely says such things.

He seemed to have always been accustomed to enduring and accepting all the gifts that fate gave him.

But he was also angry and dissatisfied.

Only at times like this, in Wen Baizhi's arms, crying on her shoulder, could he express the resentment that had been hidden in his heart for many years.

Wen Baizhi still didn't say anything. She just hugged Si Jiu tightly and gave him the greatest affirmation and encouragement with her actions.

"I also hate Qi Yan'an, I hate my father, I hate my eldest brother, and I even hate my mother.

I hated her for insisting on giving birth to me and sending me to the Marquis' Mansion. For a long time, I felt that my birth was a mistake.

No one likes me, no one loves me, no one needs me.

But is it useful for me to hate them? It's useless. Whether I hate them or not, I am still like this now.

It seems like I have been forced to accept all the suffering over the years.

I was forced to return to the Marquis' Mansion and leave my mother. I was also forced to undergo castration, turning into the androgynous form I am now.

No one asked me if I was willing, but maybe in their hearts it didn’t matter whether I was willing or not, whether I accepted it or not.”

Si Jiu only said this today.

He will never talk about the past or the future again.

Wen Baizhi listened silently.

She knew that Si Jiu was angry and resentful, but when she really heard him say it out loud, she felt so heartbroken.

Yes, Si Jiu was forced to accept all the suffering.

He had suffered so much, and even at this moment, he was still suffering from the aftereffects of castration. He had to travel all the way to Chidu for the sake of Qi Yan'an, the monarch of Dacheng who had hurt him, and do things that were not his job.

why.

Si Jiu gave her the answer in his subsequent words.

"Bai Bai, the thing I regret least in my life and the thing I am most grateful to God for is letting me meet you.

If I had met you and been with you, I would have endured all the suffering I have to endure, and I would not have any regrets at all. "

His sincere words made Wen Baizhi feel hot.

Especially at this moment, his tears were falling on her shoulders.

The humidity and heat of the tears made Wen Baizhi's heart wrinkle.

Si Jiu should have said everything he wanted to say.

Wen Baizhi asked softly, "Are you done, baby?"

She simply used the affectionate name "baby".

Si Jiu also calmed down at this moment, and realized belatedly that he had just said something strange.

He hummed hoarsely.

Wen Baizhi seemed to be notifying him: "I have just listened to you obediently until now, right? Then you have to listen to me obediently later."

Si Jiu was a little curious about what she said, but he still agreed to her.

Wen Baizhi let go of Si Jiu and saw that his face was covered with tear marks.

She wiped the tears from his face with her sleeve and said, "We agreed. Don't stop me from doing anything later. You just promised me that."

Si Jiu still didn't understand, but agreed anyway.

Wen Baizhi was very satisfied.

She picked up the basin filled with clean water in the corner of the carriage.

Then he brought a very clean handkerchief.

These are what she always keeps with her.

She motioned to Si Jiu to take off his pants.

Si Jiu was puzzled: "Bai Bai, what are you going to do?"

Wen Baizhi didn't explain and still asked him to take off his pants.

Si Jiu did as he was told.

It’s not like Wen Baizhi had never seen that place before, but most of the time it was when the two of them were playing.

This was the first time that he showed it to her under such special circumstances.

Si Jiu vaguely guessed what Wen Baizhi was going to do to him.

He wanted to refuse, but when he thought about how she had just asked him to confirm several times that she would agree to do anything for her, he swallowed the words back.

Wen Baizhi wet the handkerchief with water and began to gently prepare to do what she wanted to do.

But Sijiu subconsciously stretched out his hand to block her hand.

"Bai Bai, no, I can come by myself."

Wen Baizhi didn't say anything either, just looked at him.

The look in his eyes shows his favorite persistence.

Si Jiu had no choice but to take his hand away silently.

After all, in front of Wen Baizhi, he would never be able to truly reject her.

As long as Wen Baizhi wanted something, he would try his best to satisfy her.

Si Jiu knew that it was an extremely ugly product, a trauma that he would never be able to look at in his entire life.

But Wen Baizhi at this moment shocked and moved him.

She could really look straight at that place without any disgust.

She is much braver than him.

Come to think of it, it was indeed Wen Baizhi who pulled him out of the cliff of depression every time and chose to be with him without hesitation.

Such a good Wen Baizhi is the only luck in his life that he lost and then found again.

Such a person turned out to be his wife.

He could actually be with her all the time.

Just thinking about such a happy thing made Si Jiu want to cry.

As he thought about this, he actually started crying.

Several tears fell to the ground.

Finally, Si Jiu changed into clean pants, and now it was time for her to hug Si Jiu.

When he stood up, Si Jiu's face could be buried in Wen Baizhi's waist.

Wen Baizhi hugged Si Jiu gently, and in her arms, Si Jiu cried like a child again.

Perhaps they both know it now, and Si Jiu can slowly accept all his imperfections.