Rebirth with Award

"Then you have to think about whether it's more curiosity, guilt, or the good feelings that arise from the time you spend together."

"You greeted me out of curiosity at first. You were heartbroken and I consoled you. I shouldn't have caused you to immediately fall in love with someone else. So, were you feeling guilty?"

Kang Mingyu struggled for a moment and said, "It's not just guilt, it's..."

"At some point you thought I was beautiful? Were you attracted by my beauty?"

Kang Mingyu, who was originally very nervous and a little overwhelmed, was amused by Cheng Qianyun's words.

"Can't it be that love grows over time?"

Cheng Qianyun shook her head: "It's difficult. We usually don't say a few words when we meet, and he only replies to your messages every few days. How can we develop feelings for each other?"

"That's probably because he was attracted by her beauty."

When asked by Cheng Qianyun, Kang Mingyu also thought about it carefully, and it seemed that...

It seemed that he had already paid attention to her before she walked towards him in the sunset glow.

It shouldn't just be "lust at first sight", right?

"Well, if..."

"If... I mean if..."

"If I really like you, could you..."

Kang Mingyu spoke haltingly for a long time without uttering a complete sentence.

"Are you sure you like me and want a girlfriend like me who doesn't even reply to my messages?" Cheng Qianyun didn't beat around the bush. "I'm only focusing on my studies now. I don't mind being with you, but I don't have any extra affection for you either."

"If you really like me, we are not suitable to be together. Our feelings are not equal."

"Feelings can be cultivated..." Kang Mingyu said excitedly.

Cheng Qianyun looked into his eyes without any change in emotion: "You are full of excitement, do you see my emotions clearly?"

Very peaceful.

"I..." Kang Mingyu felt a little hurt. Although he knew that she didn't like him, he still felt uncomfortable when he felt this fact so directly.

"I'm a jerk. I can't like someone for a long time. So when I was in junior high school, I changed my crushes more than a dozen times."

It's a very superficial liking, so it disappears easily.

"Someone like you isn't suitable for someone like me." Based on what Cheng Qianyun had observed and understood about Kang Mingyu, he seemed to be a playboy, but he was actually very loyal.

Why is "Cheng Qianyun" unwilling to have a boyfriend or get married, so she agreed to be Lin Youqian's shield for each other?

It's because she can't like someone for a long time, and can't get along with someone who has emotional needs for her for a long time.

Every time she tried to like someone, she would like them for a while, and then when she got tired of them, she would give up completely.

In college, "Cheng Qianyun" was someone who had a relationship, but she was also the kind of person who would get tired of the other person after two dates, and sometimes she would even stop liking the other person after just going out for dinner together.

When breaking up, I will cry sadly as a ritual, and then I will let it go completely after crying. If the other party asks for reconciliation, that is impossible.

I'm already fed up with him, why am I still willing to force myself to be with him again?

"Cheng Qianyun" is her, she is "Cheng Qianyun", so her attitude towards feelings will only be like that.

She is not suitable to be with someone who is loyal and devoted.

"We haven't even tried it, how do you know it's not suitable?" Kang Mingyu asked excitedly.

"Have you ever heard the saying: Lovers always break up and get back together, but only brothers and sisters can stay together forever."

"Lovers who break up and get back together become strangers after the breakup. I am probably the type of person who will never get back together again after the breakup and become a stranger."

"Isn't it nice to be friends like before?" Cheng Qianyun smiled again after saying that.

She thought he was a friend that was easy to get along with before, but now things have changed, and she may not still be willing to be friends with him.

"I can't go back. You can't consider me a friend anymore..."

Kang Mingyu felt a little sad, and the voice in his heart told him so.

Cheng Qianyun would not allow herself to have an ambiguous relationship with someone else when she knew that person liked her.

When she was in the first year of high school, there was a male classmate who talked to her a few times and expressed his affection for her, but she ignored him.

Why Cheng Shuyan never worries about his sister having emotional troubles, because he knows that emotions cannot bother his sister.

However, there was a voice in his heart that told him that he didn't want to become a stranger to her.

"Let me think carefully about why my feelings for you changed. If you can't think of it, and I'm really sure that I like you very much, can you wait until you finish the college entrance examination and try to spend some time with me?"

The true love is when you can't think of a reason to like someone. If you like someone because you think of a specific advantage, then maybe it's just admiration.

Cheng Qianyun wanted to say it was unnecessary, but when she thought about how this person had been doing for over half a year...

No, it seems like it was longer ago...

He was indeed a friend that made her feel comfortable being around him.

Moreover, this person is very stubborn and obstinate. The more you forbid him to do something, the more persistent he becomes.

Maybe he just has a little affection for you now, but if you oppose him and deny his feelings, his emotions may ferment inexplicably and explode.

Might as well follow him.

"Then you should sort it out carefully. If... we can talk about it after the college entrance examination."

Seeing Kang Mingyu almost jumping up with joy, Cheng Qianyun quickly said: "This is not an agreement. If you sort it out, or the feeling slowly disappears, or if a girl appears one day who makes your heart beat, or has physical impulses, you can chase her."

"There is no agreement between us. I can't guarantee that I will want to try it with you after the college entrance examination. Now I just need to think calmly for a while."

Kang Mingyu blushed at Cheng Qianyun's blunt words.

He replied, "Okay, it's not an agreement," and then urged Cheng Qianyun to go into the house.

Cheng Qianyun didn't feel reluctant at all and turned around and went in.

Although Cheng Qianyun's words did not promise anything, Kang Mingyu was still very happy.

After returning home, Kang Mingyu decided not to come back for the next week to sort out his feelings.

Is it a spur of the moment thing, or do you really like it?

Kang Mingyu didn't feel disgusted by Cheng Qianyun's straightforward opinions. Although she didn't accept them, she didn't deny her love for them either.

It is better to let him think clearly about the source of his affection than to let it remain ambiguous.

"Qianqian, are you okay? Are you alright?...Huh? Have you turned pale?" Xiao Rongrong stared at Cheng Qianyun's face and hands.

"How could your skin turn white after just a few days of not seeing you?" Yan Yanyan was about to say that Xiao Rongrong was exaggerating when she looked down and saw their hands clasped together.

"Rongrong, why are you so dark?"

Xiao Rongrong held Cheng Qianyun's hand tightly again, interlocking her fingers, and pointed at her five dark fingers: "Does it make Qianqian look particularly white?"

Yan Yanyan nodded frantically.

"It's not that I'm too dark, it must be that Qianqian has become white."

Yan Yanyan signaled her to let go, and she and Cheng Qianyun crossed their fingers.

"Am I black too?"

Xiao Rongrong slapped her hand away: "Can't you just say Qianqian turned white? I'm not black!"

Cheng Qianyun nodded very sincerely and said that she had become whiter. The two of them then reflected on whether they had been exposed to too much sun in the past few days.

Cheng Qianyun just smiled and watched them playing.

"Qianqian, you got first place in math again this time, and you got full marks."

Xiao Rongrong admires Cheng Qianyun's mathematics very much.

She tried hard in math, but could only get from the passing line to 120 points, and could maintain the 100 point line when the test was more difficult.

But she was already very satisfied, because the last big question was too difficult.

She tried not to come.

Even with all of Qianqian's notes, she couldn't make it.

Although the test questions this time were not as abnormal as the previous two times and were generally simple, the last question was completely incomprehensible to me.

The teacher said that only three people in the whole year could do it. Qianqian was the only one who got full marks.