After a secret marriage, I became the biological mother of a rich and cute baby

Zhao Jingchuan stopped and wanted to hear what Yun Luoxi would say next.

He could never figure out Yun Luoxi's thoughts, and sometimes he felt that she seemed to have fallen in love with him.

But sometimes she felt that her heart was so full of Matt that there was no room for him anymore.

She rarely relaxes completely in front of him. Perhaps she can only speak her mind when chatting with her bestie.

"Why do you like to say only half of what you want to say now? It's so frustrating." Gu Jinlan is not a person who gets easily anxious, but Yun Luoxi is almost forcing him into an impatient person.

Yun Luoxi frowned, "I don't know how to put it. I don't know what's going on. It's just that every time Jingchuan thinks about that, I will think of that night... and then, my body will react with resistance."

Gu Jinlan narrowed her eyes slightly: "Did you feel scared at that time?"

Yun Luoxi thought for a moment, "Maybe, although I believe Jingchuan will not hurt me again."

Gu Jinlan looked at Yun Luoxi with a look of heartache, "Luoxi, you may be suffering from mild PTSD."

"Huh?" Yun Luoxi blinked blankly and asked anxiously, "Is this... is this some strange disease or terminal illness?"

Gu Jinlan laughed, "It's not some weird disease or terminal illness, it's just post-traumatic stress disorder."

"Oh." Yun Luoxi breathed a sigh of relief and patted his chest. "I was scared to death. Lanlan, are you sure that I have post-traumatic stress disorder?"

Gu Jinlan put out his cigarette, slowed down his speech, and said in a gentle voice: "I will ask you a few questions, answer me truthfully."

Yun Luoxi nodded, "Okay."

"Do you dream about what happened on your wedding night with Jingchuan? It seems like you experienced it again in your dreams, and you always wake up in shock?"

Yun Luoxi held the coffee cup tightly in both hands. "Lanlan, when you were a psychologist, did you communicate with patients in this way?"

Gu Jinlan reached out and gently patted the back of Yun Luoxi's hand. "Relax, don't treat me as a doctor, just talk like we usually do, just say whatever you want to say. You know, I'm a tight-lipped person, I will definitely not tell your secrets to others."

Protecting patient privacy is also a basic professional quality that a psychological counselor must possess.

Yun Luoxi took a deep breath, "I did have nightmares often before, especially after a conflict with Jingchuan, but now I rarely have that dream."

Gu Jinlan asked again: "Then every time Jingchuan wants to be intimate with you, do you suddenly become alert? Just like you said just now, you believe that he will not hurt you again, but you just can't control yourself?"

"Yep."

"Do you feel hopeless about your marriage with Jingchuan? No matter how good he is to you, you always feel that you can't live happily together?"

Yun Luoxi was silent for a moment, "Well... Actually... I told Jingchuan that we wanted a divorce. What happened that night was my fault. I let him down, and I don't want to torture each other any more. But Jingchuan... He just won't agree to a divorce."

"Finally, have you ever had thoughts about death, self-harm, or other dangerous behavior?"

Yun Luoxi quickly shook her head, "That's not the case. I'm so afraid of pain, how can I have the courage to commit suicide? Besides, I can't bear to leave my parents behind."

Gu Jinlan smiled slightly, "That's good, this means your post-traumatic stress disorder is not serious, it's just a few mild symptoms, it's not a big problem."

"Really? Then I won't become a psychopath, right?"

"Of course not! You don't even need to take medicine. I'll give you some psychological counseling, and let Jingchuan treat you better. Slowly you'll get better. For mild cases like yours, some don't even need psychological counseling. If everything goes well in life, you can let it go, because time is also a good medicine."

"Lanlan, you should get some psychological counseling. I don't want to go on like this."

Every time she rejected Jingchuan, the frustrated look in Jingchuan's eyes made her feel guilty.

She really wanted to preserve their marriage.

She never blamed Jingchuan for what happened that night. She was the one who made the mistake first.

Moreover, Jingchuan had already apologized to her, and she believed that he did not intend to hurt her at that time.

That matter should be completely over.

"Okay, leave it to me. Your enthusiasm in wanting to get rid of that feeling will be very helpful for treatment, and you'll get better soon."

"Okay! I will actively cooperate with the treatment! But... you must keep this a secret for me and don't let Jingchuan know."

Gu Jinlan frowned slightly, "As the person closest to you, he should know your mental condition."

Yun Luoxi said: "But he will definitely blame himself after knowing this. What happened that night is in the past, and I don't want him to feel guilty about it anymore. Let's treat him quietly, and I will come to you secretly later without letting him know, okay? Anyway, with such a great psychologist like you, I will get better soon!"

"But he should know that his actions have caused you serious psychological harm."

"Oh, Lanlan, please don't let Jingchuan know, okay?"

Looking at Yun Luoxi's pleading eyes, Gu Jinlan said helplessly: "I really can't do anything about you. Okay, I won't tell him, but you must tell me what you think in the future."

"Okay! Thank you, Lanlan. How could I have a treasured bestie like you? I love you so much. Let me hug you."

Yun Luoxi stretched out her arms towards Gu Jinlan and asked for a hug in a coquettish manner.

Gu Jinlan ruthlessly pushed her hand away and said, "Go back and hug your Jingchuan slowly."

Yun Luoxi stuck out her tongue, "It's your Jingchuan too."

"It's not my business?"

"He is your third brother!"

"..."

"Lanlan, now that you have acknowledged the Zhao family, you should call me Third Sister-in-law."

"Think beautifully!"

"Hehe... hurry up and call me so I can hear it."

"not called!"

The two best friends were already happily having fun, but Zhao Jingchuan turned away sadly.

After drinking coffee and chatting for a while, Yun Luoxi saw that Zhao Jingchuan had not come downstairs yet. She was still worried that he would have a fight with Shi Ye, so she pulled Gu Jinlan upstairs to check out the situation.

Just then, Butler Xue came over to ask Yun Luoxi and Zhao Jingchuan if they wanted to stay for dinner tonight so that he could notify the chef to prepare dinner.

Yun Luoxi said: "Thank you, Butler Xue. We won't have dinner. Is Jingchuan still in Brother Ye's study?"

Steward Xue said, "I just saw Mr. Zhao San smoking outside."

Yun Luoxi looked worried, thinking that Jingchuan didn't come to see her, but went outside to smoke alone. It seemed that he had an unpleasant chat with Brother Ye?

She also wanted to know how Shi Ye was going to deal with Shu Yi's matter, and she pulled Gu Jinlan outside to find Zhao Jingchuan.

Seeing Zhao Jingchuan standing next to the trash can, with several cigarette butts on the cigarette butt collector, it seemed that he had smoked a lot of cigarettes. Yun Luoxi asked anxiously: "Jingchuan, what did you and Brother Ye talk about?"

Hearing Yun Luoxi's voice, Zhao Jingchuan stopped shaking off the cigarette ashes.

Then he put out the cigarette, looked at them, and smiled slightly with the corners of his lips raised.

"Lanlan, Aye said that he agreed to let Shu Yi live in because he wanted to see what Shu Yi wanted to do."