shock! I became the savior of the infinite game at full level

Some people say that childhood is the happiest moment in a person's life.

At that time, we were free and carefree. We didn't have to worry about the illusory future, and we didn't have to rush for a living every moment.

Someone also said... "When a person reaches a certain age, he has to be the roof... and can no longer find another place to hide from the rain."

Every time I see this sentence... I feel an indescribable sense of suffocation.

……

I have never felt that I am such a responsible person.

I just need to complete my own work, what else does it have to do with me... With such a "deviant" idea, I was naturally labeled as "lazy".

"You can't go on like this. Your time is running out."

"I never see you when I work overtime! Look at what others do, and then look at you!"

"You can't even do this little thing well, what a waste!"

"..."

"I'm not criticizing you, it's just that you...well, it really chills me."

...Really, is it my fault?

I don't understand.

If you don’t understand something, you naturally want to talk to the people around you.

However, my parents, who are in the twenties gap with me, cannot understand the so-called "mental pressure" and will only say, "Everyone has been through this" and "The reason why they are dissatisfied with you must be because you haven't worked hard enough."

Unable to find comfort from his parents, he had no choice but to turn to his colleagues who were in the same situation as him.

But I didn't expect...

The colleague who was supposed to be on a united front with him was actually a secret "eyesider."

…This is social.

This is society.

This is the so-called "adult world".

Not recognized, not understood... Even though I have tried my best, I can't even realize such a simple wish as "live well".

I want to change myself in order not to be rejected or targeted, but I find that no matter how hard I try, the status quo will not change.

There is still endless pressure...and verbal abuse at all times.

That's when I realized...I didn't do anything wrong.

It's just... in the eyes of those who hate you, your existence is a "mistake"... nothing more.

……

Parents’ expectations, life pressure, and the judgmental eyes of others.

Pain caused by difficulty responding to parental expectations. Suffocation caused by the inability to relieve the stress of life. Despair born of the inability to ignore the eyes of others...

Everything seems to be invisible, yet ubiquitous, countless lines.

Binding me tightly to the spot... unable to move.

……

I really want to escape.

No matter what method...no matter where you go.

I really want to escape.

I really want to...escape from this world.

……

"You don't need any reason for others to target you. This is no longer a school. You have to keep a close eye on everything. No matter how dissatisfied you are, you have to keep it in your heart... I know it's uncomfortable, but if you can't bear it, you have to bear it all over again. This is not life. ?"

The girl with a gentle face and a sweet voice said this to me.

"As long as you survive this period, it will be fine." She smiled, "After you leave here, everything will get better."

"After all, nothing is more important than life."

Her name is Mu Ziqi, and she is a friend I met in college.

Although we have different personalities, we have an amazing compatibility in how we treat people.

We made an appointment to live together in the future...to live the life we ​​want together.

If there are friends who support me unconditionally... the darkness before dawn doesn't seem so unbearable.

Just like Qiqi said, as long as it lasts through this period, it will be fine.

After I get through it... what's waiting for me, what's waiting for us, is the best life we ​​yearn for.

……

I still remember that day, it was Saturday night.

Qiqi didn't come back very late.

I went to her office to look for her, but there was no one at the window seat.

Facing my inquiry, the sparsely populated office fell silent for a long time.

Finally, a timid voice told me that Mu Ziqi was in the office next door and seemed to be being lectured.

When I hurried over... I only heard the man's angry tail and the girl's low voice in response.

The girl who walked out of the office had tears on her face, and her eyes were filled with emotions that I was very familiar with... but had never seen in her eyes.

Rao was like this, the moment he saw me.

She still showed her usual sweet smile.

After that night...I regretted it every day.

If only I could be more sensitive.

If only I could care about her a little more.

in case……

in case……

…There aren’t that many ifs.

There is only cruel reality in this world.

……

"Have you heard? It seems that a girl committed suicide."

"Really? It's so scary..."

"Is this the third time this year? Oh... what a sin."

……

No one pays attention.

No one cares.

A living human life is exchanged for... just these few words of discussion.

I can not be reconciled.

Even less willing to believe it.

My friend...she is so gentle and optimistic. No matter what difficulties she encounters, she can face them with a smile.

She is obviously so strong... She clearly said, "Nothing is more important than life."

but.

No matter how much I don't believe it, no matter how unwilling I am...what can I do?

Her parents have accepted monetary compensation and promised not to pursue the matter further.

She and I are just ordinary friends, not related by blood, and have no legal connection.

I can't do anything... I can only shout hoarse on the Internet with my meager strength.

——They are murderers!

They are murderers! !

They are murderers! ! !

However, it was unable to cause even a single ripple.

……

I really want to escape.

It doesn't matter what method you use...it doesn't matter where you go.

I really want to escape.

I really want to...escape from this world.

……

I was so confused that I didn’t know how long it had been.

A voice suddenly rang in my ears.

It was a young-sounding male voice, with a hint of sarcasm and a hint of joking.

"I can give you power comparable to the Creator. As long as you can build a qualified 'Utopia' within the specified time, I will agree to fulfill one of your wishes."

To me, that is simply the most favorable condition in the world.

……

"I want to create a beautiful utopia."

"A utopia where we can abandon the past, forget the future, and allow her and I to live a happy life."

"This is my wish."