Reborn in another world, the boss loves me to the core

Outside the clinic door, Xiaoqing was watching short videos.

When he saw her coming out, he put a shawl on her body, put on a mask, sunglasses and a hat to cover her tightly.

Like a little housekeeper.

"Too cautious." Su Xian touched her head and said with a smile.

"You can never be too careful. There is an entertainment reporter stationed there in the garage. I asked Xiao Zhang to drive the car to the back door and get out from there."

Su Xian said "hmm".

Xiaoqing couldn't help complaining angrily: "Why are these entertainment reporters always watching you? You have only been back for a month. They are guarding you at the door of your home and at your company. They knew you came to consult a psychiatrist and you came here to guard you. This is Is there no one in the circle to repay except you?”

Su Xian laughed dumbly, "Maybe it's because I'm the most controversial."

Xiao Qing turned to look at her: "Sister Xian'er, you look so beautiful when you smile."

"It's all done."

Su Xian laughed at himself.

My original face was not ugly, but it could only be described as pretty.

It has been adjusted many times.

Xiaoqing shook her head.

"No, I think you are different from before. I can't put it into words. It's like you've changed into a different person. Your aura and demeanor. Before..."

She did not continue.

"What was it like before? Inferior and arrogant? Living in the eyes of others?"

Su Xian smiled.

Then he turned and looked out the car window.

It's been a month since I came back here.

During this month, she was more like a zombie, and the memories of more than twenty years were not as profound as the memories of that year.

Is it really a dream?

Or as Li Xiao said, it was just a world he imagined.

But it was so real, so real that she seemed to be able to touch it at any time.

She thought that as time went by, she would gradually forget all the people and things in that world.

But as soon as she closed her eyes, his face appeared clearly in front of her.

You could even feel his gentle touch, calling her in a hoarse voice.

Her eyes were completely dark and she couldn't see anything clearly.

What is a dream and what is the real world?

Another month.

Same place, same time.

Li Xiao still looked gentle and harmless.

There is always a smile on his handsome face.

"Xian'er, can we talk about your family today?"

Su Xian asked back: "Family? What world's family?"

"Anything is fine!" Li Xiao moved and leaned back.

"You can say whatever you want."

Su Xian closed his eyes as if falling asleep.

After a while, he said: "When I was very young, maybe two years old, maybe not two years old, it was very dark and I couldn't see a single star. I held a kerosene lamp and wanted to secretly find my mother."

"The flame of the kerosene lamp was like a small bean. I could barely see the ground clearly, but it could ignite my clothes. The fire burned very quickly, including my mother's clothes. The fire burned my skin. I cried. It was very loud, but my mother watched the fire burning and remained indifferent. "

"Later...it rained heavily and the fire was quickly extinguished. I heard my mother sighing. In my young memory, it was all about that fire and that sigh."

"Xian'er, where are you going to find your mother?"

"The cellar...she was locked up in the cellar."

"Why does it rain in the cellar?"

Su Xian half-opened his eyes and looked at him lazily.

"The frontal cortex of a person has not fully developed before the age of three, so he cannot fully store what he has experienced, but if he is faced with an event that threatens his survival, he will react strongly."

"Those events that frighten us may become long-term memories stored in our brains early, and may even become a lifelong shadow."

"However, research has found that some young children's brains combine many things that frighten them into one, reorganize and edit them into completely different stories, just like mental labels. In fact, this is memory deceiving us."

"Have you ever thought that maybe your mother was not indifferent, but she put out the fire and saved you as a child. Your brain only stores the fire that made you extremely scared."

Su Xian opened his eyes and looked at him blankly.

Then, he shook his head and said nothing.

Li Xiao asked tentatively, little by little, "Can you tell me about your mother? What kind of person is she?"

Su Xian was silent for a long time, his voice so soft that it was almost inaudible.

"Have I ever said that I look nothing like my mother?"

"Actually, my father and I look very similar. Grandma said that my father and I were carved out of the same mold when we were young. It's a pity that I'm not a boy. I'm a loser!"

"Everyone in the village knows that my mother was trafficked."

"But no one reported or exposed it, because in the village where I was born, most of the women were bought."

"The old man said that during famine years, when there was no food, all the female babies born in the village were drowned or thrown into the mountains and eaten by wild beasts. Only male babies were left."

"The baby boy grew up and needed a wife, but where did the bachelor's village come from? Then one day, an old bachelor in the village brought back women. From then on, more and more women were bought back."

"Among them, my mother is included."

"She is a very beautiful woman. I once heard someone say that the first day my mother was brought to the village, she had braids and a stylish white dress. She had snow-white skin and eyes like grapes. At that time, I always Imagine what grapes look like.”

"I was born in the second year after she was trafficked to the village. After I was born, my grandma finally took off my mother's chains, and I ended up becoming a new chain that bound her. Strictly speaking, I am also an accomplice.”

Later, she understood why her mother was so disgusted when she saw her.

Seeing this face reminds me of my own tragic experience.

Outside the window, the sun sets in the west, and the sunset glows like fire.

Su Xian slowly told her story. She had never told anyone about her childhood experiences. These things were like cancerous tumors that had been rotting in her heart.

"...I can understand everything she did to me. My existence, day after day, year after year, reminds her all the time, but I didn't understand it at the time and always wanted to run to my mother. "

Li Xiao felt unspeakable emotions in his heart, shocked, and even a little distressed.

It is taboo for a psychiatrist to have emotional resonance with his patients. As a top psychiatrist, he has always been calm.

But now he couldn't help but think about how a little girl grew up in such an environment with her father's neglect, her grandmother's insults, and even her biological mother who was extremely disgusted and even wanted to kill her several times.

Even a mentally mature person will collapse!

What's more, young and ignorant children.

"When I was a child, my biggest wish was to be hugged tenderly by my mother, but it didn't come true when I grew up."

"When I heard that my mother passed away, I even felt secretly happy for a moment. It was like an invisible mountain above my head collapsed, giving me a moment of respite. But what followed was endless confusion."