HP: Embrace the Darkness

When Ases came out of the shower, he saw Snape staring out the window in a trance, his expression absent-minded. It was unclear what he was thinking about. The window was blown by the wind, making a creaking sound, but it did not attract his attention.

This is rare.

You know, double agents are always very vigilant and nothing can escape their ears.

Asis walked over while wiping his hair carelessly, put one arm around Snape from behind, and lazily pressed his chin, which was covered with moisture, on his shoulder, wetting his innocent collar. "What are you looking at?"

Snape turned his head, and what was conveyed faster than vision was touch: his shoulder and collar were wet with the breath of another person.

The wet feeling was not very comfortable, and the "small-minded" potion master reminded faintly: "I didn't take a shower."

Ases raised an eyebrow, but his hand remained in place. "So? I can't hug you if you haven't showered yet? That would be a big disadvantage for me."

Snape really couldn't understand what this had to do with being at a disadvantage. "How did you suffer a disadvantage?"

"Isn't it a disadvantage not to be able to hug my lover?" Arces said confidently, "I have never suffered such a big disadvantage in my life!"

Snape glanced at him with amusement: "Then you really should suffer more."

"That won't do. I can take any loss, but I can't take this loss. I can't take it for the rest of my life."

As he said this, as if to prove it, Athis tightened his arms and buried his head in the crook of his neck.

"Sif, I know what you want to say. As I said, I can take any loss as long as you are by my side."

The voice was muffled by the pressure in the space, but every word flowed into his heart like a hot spring. The warmth slowly spread to every part of his body. Snape was in a trance for a moment. What did they talk about the last time they stood in front of the window like this?

Yes, it’s marriage.

"Aces."

Snape's voice was very soft, but Asis was close enough to hear it clearly.

"Does what you said before still count?"

What did you say before?

What words?

All the words he had said flashed through Ases' mind, promises, assurances, love words...

He and Snape had known each other for too long and had talked too many things to each other. Even if he had a good memory, he couldn't be sure which sentence Snape had said for a while.

But no matter what it is, what he can say counts.

"It counts as long as you want it to."

"I see." Snape looked up at the bright moon hanging high in the night sky. "I met Lily today... as well as Potter and Black."

Aces said nothing.

Snape didn't care, and said as if talking to himself: "A long time ago, I woke up from a nightmare and asked myself: 'If one day, I saw Lily in the kingdom of death, what would I want to say to her? An apology? Or a belated expression of my feelings?'"

Before he finished speaking, he felt the person behind him breathing heavier. The strength in his hands did not change, but he considerately loosened his distance a little and pretended to listen attentively.

After a pause, he continued, "I didn't find the answer before, but I found it today."

"I... probably don't want to say anything to her. It was my fault that the prophecy caused her tragic death. I will do my best to make up for it, but that's all."

The main reason was that Potter was too annoying. When he saw Lily, he would think of Potter's face and those bad things, and then he would start to have a headache.

According to Susannah, it was probably because the Potter family was incompatible with him and they were unlucky for him.

Athis's heart moved, and he seemed to understand what Snape wanted to say, and his black eyes gradually lit up with surprise.

"I tell you this because I want to tell you that you don't have to compare yourself with her. You are different from her. If it were you, I wouldn't feel guilty. I would go to accompany you."