HP: Embrace the Darkness

(The extra does not affect the main text, but it is an extension of the main text. It can be regarded as Arces and Severus in another world line.)

I am Severus Snape, and I am also the lover of Arthas Cavendish.

But my lover left this world forever for me.

I realized this because no one would hold me to sleep at night, no one would help me in the potions room, no one would hold me lovingly and call my name over and over again.

All kinds of treatment that were very different from the past made me realize that my lover was dead.

Because of me, he died.

After accepting this fact, I couldn't sleep properly for a long time. I was confused every day and looked like the bastard who abandoned me.

I can't help it, that bastard has completely taken over every aspect of my life. He is everywhere, and his aura surrounds me.

Can't let go and can't forget.

I don't know how long I have been in this state of mind.

People around me seemed to be very worried about me. I couldn't even remember how many times the two equally coquettish platinum peacocks wandered around me, as well as Professor McGonagall, the annoying Potter, the annoying old Bee and Grindelwald.

Oh, I almost forgot, there is also the Cavendish family. They are all very nice. They have never blamed me. Instead, they have been trying their best to comfort me.

But it doesn't matter anymore.

He saved my life. I won't give up personally, but I can't hold on.

That's it, he can't blame me when he returns to the kingdom of death one day, who asked him to leave me alone.

Another early morning, I woke up on the floor piled with wine bottles. I saw a dark, temperatureless home, and the cold and lonely air surrounded me, as if a giant beast with its teeth and claws wanted to devour me.

I didn't want to resist.

So I closed my eyes and let the suffocating smell of alcohol drown me in the ocean from which I could not save myself.

In a daze, I always felt that the cold air was not so cold anymore, and a familiar voice came from my ears.

"How did you get yourself into this?"

It's Asseth!

I closed my eyes in fear, not daring to open them, for fear that the sound just now was just an illusion.

As soon as I opened it, everything was gone.

Even if it's fake, I still want to hear his voice. That bastard has been gone for so long that I almost forgot how he coaxed me.

The sound appeared once and then fell silent, leaving only my rapid breathing in the room.

I can't describe my current mood. My heart was raised high, almost in prayer, and I slowly approached the place where the sound came from.

"Aces?"

"Ugh……"

I don't know why the voice became very far away. I was afraid, afraid that he would think that I didn't want to see him and disappear forever in front of me, so I opened my eyes suddenly.

There was no one in sight.

My violently beating heart hurt, and I covered my heart in pain and fell to the ground.

Fake, everything is fake.

You lied to me again, asshole.

The shock was too great for me, and I was hungover on the ground, so I became ill.

I burned up alone in Spider End Alley and became delirious. I only remembered that I wanted to find someone, a very important person. I couldn't live without him.

The world that was burned red seemed to be filled with the sounds of doors opening and quarreling.

I felt it was noisy, so I cursed impatiently.

The next second, a gentle hand covered my forehead.

Very warm, like Asseth.

I reluctantly opened my eyes and saw Anna saying something to me anxiously. It looked like I was not going to die soon and she was worried about me.

Anna is a good mother, which can be seen from Asseth.

My thoughts were confused, and I thought from Anna to that bastard.

Why is he so haunted? He chases me when he is alive and still haunts me when he is dead.

If you like me so much, why don't you take me with you? If you like me so much, why do you leave me alone in this world?

asshole!

I don't have a home anymore. What's the difference between living and dead? It's better to let me die. At least that bastard still has a family and can live.

It seemed that the bastard had inspired my sanity, and I heard what Anna kept saying - "Severus, do you want to see Artes?"

"think."

Dry and hoarse.

A voice that didn't sound like mine at all came out of my mouth.

But I don't care about the so-called voice now, I only care about what Anna's words mean, whether Asseth is still alive or there are other ways.

I didn't dare to look away, nervously waiting for Anna's final trial.

Anna suddenly stopped talking and looked at me steadily with an extremely sad and helpless look.

My blurred vision couldn't actually see her eyes, but the solemn atmosphere around me couldn't escape my perception. After all, I was a double agent.

Even though I was already feeling very uncomfortable, I tried my best to laugh at myself and divert my attention. I was too afraid that I would pass out and miss this opportunity.

"What if you die after seeing him? Do you still want to see him? Even... it won't even take too long, so do you still want to see him?"

Anna cried. This was the second time I'd seen her cry. The last time was at Ass's funeral.

It was my fault, without me, this wonderful mother would not have suffered the pain of losing her son, nor would she have felt the sorrow that I paid the price of death to see her son.

I smiled apologetically at her and spoke my choice in a calm tone.

"See."

I don't know what happened next.

My fever never went down. The fever was so severe that I lost consciousness. All I knew was that when I opened my eyes again, I turned into a black panther.

I wasn't quite used to the Black Panther's body, so I stumbled around for a while before I could barely run.

Once I could run, I started walking around.

Because I was just a leopard on the way, I couldn't find any traces of my prey, and I couldn't catch them. I could only look for humans in the huge rain forest.

I will die without food, but I don’t want to die now. Even if I am just lingering, I still want to live to see Asseth, even just once.

Human beings are nowhere to be found in this rainforest that blocks out the sun. After walking for almost a kilometer, I finally discovered this tragic fact.

So I had to try to see if I could transform back into a human form. At least I could use my magic to find some small animals that were edible. The result was no doubt that I could only be a leopard who couldn't find food.

I don't feel panic, I'm just worried that I can't find this bastard Ass in the limited time.

After all, before coming here, Anna told me that the time limit is ten days. If it exceeds ten days, I will never see Ases again. This is something I absolutely cannot accept.

Because of my obsession, I dragged my feverish and tired body through the dangerous rainforest.

On the first day, I caught a squirrel.

As a leopard, I couldn't make a fire to roast it. In order to survive, I still ate it. The taste of blood in my mouth made me sick to my stomach, but I couldn't look back.

The next day, I caught a bird in the same location. Although I don’t know what kind of bird it was, it tasted good, a little better than a squirrel.

On the third day, I didn’t grab anything. I kept looking at the sun in the sky to find a way out.

In my memory, Asseth has never been to the rainforest, so I have to get out of the rainforest, otherwise I can't find him.

On the fourth day, I was trapped in a very strange place for a day and a night.

On the fifth day, I came out of that strange place. At the same time, I also found that my consciousness was gradually disappearing, and I had forgotten the formula of the potion that I could remember before.

Sometimes I even thought I was really a leopard, just weaker.

On the sixth day, I saw a very familiar white tiger, and every pattern on it was familiar to me.

I found him, my love.