Reborn in the 70s as a military doctor and meets a special soldier

On the contrary, Wen Xinghan scratched his head in distress and said to himself: "Oh, sometimes I really envy you. You can concentrate on driving without thinking or worrying about anything. One person is full and the whole family is not hungry! You don't know how much psychological pressure I have. , I don’t care about my own life or death, I’m just afraid that something might happen to my soldiers, and then I’ll have to blame myself for the rest of my life.”

Wen Xinghan was talking incoherently, but Lu Jiu understood what he meant at once.

Wen Xinghan has been depressed for a long time and really needs an outlet.

Lu Jiu was from the same background as him, but for some reason, he revealed it by accident.

If this matter had happened four or five years ago when they were both in the special camp, he would never have said this to Lu Jiu even to death.

Originally, Lu Jiu didn't intend to say anything, but seeing the dark circles under Wen Xinghan's eyes and the anxiety and haggardness that couldn't be concealed on his face, Lu Jiu finally spoke out of spite.

"Isn't the first thing we do when we enter the special camp is to write a suicide note for ourselves? In fact, when we enter the special camp, we are already prepared to sacrifice in battle. Even if there are sacrifices, they will not blame you."

"I know, but I will blame myself." Wen Xinghan's eyes were full of helplessness.

When he received the order and was dispatched to Jinguancheng to form a special training team of Jinguancheng Military Region, he was so happy.

After all, he can finally lead his own team and train his own soldiers. This is a very proud and amazing thing for a soldier.

It wasn't until three months ago that the special training team of the Jinguancheng Military Region officially took over special tasks, and he began to feel the pressure.

Although their missions had gone smoothly in the past few months, Wen Xinghan became more and more unable to sleep. Every day he dreamed that his team members had accidents while catching spies, or fell into a pool of blood.

Wen Xinghan also knew that he was thinking too much, but he couldn't control this thought. The soldiers he brought out with his own hands! Sooner or later, he will face such a day when he performs a mission. This kind of nameless panic always stalks him crazily late at night, especially on the eve of the mission. Until the mission is completed, the oppressive feeling can almost make him unable to breathe. He also knows that he has appeared. problem, but he couldn't control this anxiety.

If this continues he will go crazy.

Wen Xinghan didn't know why, but when he saw Lu Jiu coming to him out of nowhere, he even started to complain when Lu Jiu didn't ask anything.

Although what he said did not involve confidentiality regulations, it was already an abnormal behavior for him.

Wen Xinghan smiled bitterly and could only say that maybe he was really crazy.

"Did you know that our teacher boss also suffers from insomnia?"

"Ah?" Wen Xinghan blinked and shook his head blankly,

Lu Jiu curled her lips and smiled.

"There were only ten people in the first phase of the special battalion. Three people were missing during the mission. It was precisely because of this that the decision was made to expand the number to twenty-three people in the second year. You have never seen those three people, but I know them. , when they died, everyone could not hold back, only the boss remained as calm as Mount Tai. It was also because of him that we were able to get out of the confusion.

At that time, I felt that the boss was an indestructible god and the most powerful will of the special battalion. He was like a morning star that always illuminated us!

But later I discovered that the god-like boss often couldn't sleep and would smoke all night long in the place where the three comrades had stayed.

It was also at that time that I discovered that the boss was not as indestructible as I thought. I thought he took life and death lightly, after all, he acted so strong and calm at the beginning.

Who would have thought that after we all came out, he would still refuse to forgive himself in the dark night.

I asked him why this was happening.

The boss only said one thing to me, if he was also confused at that time, what would we do? "

When Lu Jiu said this, his eyebrows were light, as if he was talking about ordinary things, but the literary man was shocked by his plain tone.

Lu Jiu continued to speak: "So, your worry is the emotion that every responsible captain will have. After all, we are not saints. We all have seven emotions and six desires. Who can still walk with dozens of lives on their backs?" To feel relaxed?

But you are not only the captain of your dead comrades, you are also the captain of the living soldiers. To the dead, your existence is a sustenance for revenge and a straw to support the orphans. To the living, you are a mountain and a harbor, a source of panic and confusion. You can always look in your direction and find the source of courage to go on.

So you can only strengthen yourself and digest this emotion by yourself. If you can't digest it, hide it to prevent them from seeing the clues. "

Wen Xinghan stared at Lu Jiu blankly, and for the first time he truly felt that Lu Jiu was stronger than him. It had nothing to do with physical strength, but just his character.

Wen Xinghan seemed to have never known Lu Jiu... and his words seemed to have magic power, which suddenly relieved the anxiety in his confused heart.

Lu Jiu didn't know that his image in someone's mind was getting taller and taller. He looked at Lu Jiu, a literary man, who curled his lips and exposed his snow-white fangs.

"It's just insomnia and dreams, so why are you so scared? Haha, it's indeed the second period, just a little bit better than the first period."

"..." Wen Xinghan.

Wen Xinghan, who was moved by Lu Jiu one second, tightened his fists the next.

"You...want to fight."

"I'm trying to enlighten you, but you want to fight and kill without caring about kindness at all. Do you need a cure for insomnia?" Lu Jiu looked at him lazily, the topic jumping around so fast.

Wen Xinghan stared at him suspiciously, as if thinking about the truth of his words.

Lu Jiu narrowed his eyes: "Insomnia is an old tradition in the special camp. I also have insomnia, but recently my insomnia has been almost cured. Since you are my junior brother, I can teach you."

"You are just my junior brother, I am two years older than you!" Wen Xinghan was speechless. In order to suppress the urge to beat Lu Jiu, Wen Xinghan took out a cigarette again and put it in his mouth, and then said: "Your method of treating insomnia is What? You don’t want to kidnap me if you like to talk!"

Wen Xinghan thought that Lu Jiu would take Qiao for a while, but Lu Jiu once again deviated from his prediction and spoke directly.

"Quit smoking, and then...bathe your feet more before going to bed."

"..." Wen Xinghan looked like he had seen a ghost.

"I'm not kidding you." Lu Jiu then lazily took down the cigarette Wen Xinghan gave him, pinched it with two fingers, and the cigarette broke in the middle.

"I quit smoking."

"..." Wen Xinghan.

If you want to quit smoking, just give it back to him. Why do you want to stop smoking? Not to mention the waste, he took it back and scored two draws. Isn’t this man’s heart black?

However, it goes without saying that Lu Jiu quit smoking. Wen Xinghan finally remembered Lu Jiu's pain point and sneered: "How are you and A Wei? I just saw you receiving the award together."

Lu Jiu glanced at him disdainfully: "Who is Awei? Why are you so affectionate? Are you familiar with me?"