After becoming a god on earth, I always want to lie down

Returning to the ground with a confused, heavy and helpless mood, Yang Yi casually threw the corpses of several brain-eating worms and half-dead cocoons on the ground - which she left for the Alien Biology Research Institute to study.

The body of the insect mother in the nest had been badly damaged by her, and she sealed it forever underground at a depth of 4000 meters.

Her original plan was to preserve the brain-eating insect's nest so that it could be researched by the Xiaguo Research Institute. Even though she was not a scientific researcher, she knew how important the ecological environment of this alien creature was for the research of alien creatures. meaning.

However, everything changed after the insect mother shouted those words before she died. An invisible fear wrapped around her heart like a net. She struggled hard, but she felt that the invisible net was getting tighter and tighter...

The fire demon, the soul-carrying demon, the brain-eating worm mother, the cries before death, the alien language that can be understood inexplicably; they are obviously sacrifices to the evil gods of the alien world - the source of life, but they automatically run towards her; You cannot feed on human food, you can only suppress hunger by devouring intelligent life...

who I am? Who am I?

She looked at the moon in the sky, standing alone in a dark alley, and huge confusion filled her heart.

No! No! I am Yang Yi! I was born in an ordinary town on the North China Plain. My father died when I was 3 years old. I was abandoned by my mother. I was raised by my grandparents who hated and despised me. I even competed with dogs for food...

The gloomy past events that she usually avoided deliberately became the salvation that confirmed her existence at this moment. As if grasping a life-saving straw, she recalled the past events that were full of pain and bitterness and that she usually tried to avoid over and over again:

She sat on the cold concrete floor and watched her mother's tired back leave...

In a kennel made of broken bricks and covered with gray and white asbestos tiles, she huddled in a ball of rags, trying to get close to an impatient big yellow dog, trying to get a source of heat from it. The chain around her neck was colder than ice and heavier than the mountains behind the town, weighing her down so much that she couldn't lift her head...

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The cousin pushed her hard and pushed her into the mud pit. Then the cousin and her cousin threw the lumps of mud at her and competed happily, "Look! I threw the most accurately! I hit it." Her head!" "Look at me, I'm going to hit her eyes and blind her!"

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"Brother, how come this little thing suddenly became smart? She actually got a higher score than you!" "Look, if I don't cripple her hand, she dares to get a higher score than me. She should scold me when she gets back... "

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"Grandma, that's my glass ball... I only have one, Yang Ze has a box..." "Sigh! There are people who give birth to things that no one cares for. It's amazing to have one bite, and they even play with glass balls. …”

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In the silent night, the door gently opened, the hand touching her thigh...

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"I think it would be better to marry her off as soon as possible. People heard that she is a high school student and is good at studies. She is very popular... Yang Ze is also not good at studies. I need to buy a house for him in the city and get married as soon as possible. I just don't have enough money." Money...Although the boss of the Li family in town is a fool, his family’s betrothal gifts are high..."

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Yang Yi didn't know how long he stood there, but his legs were a little sore.

She left the insect corpse and cocoon on the spot and walked aimlessly, without direction or goal, and kept walking without knowing where she was going.

Suddenly, she stood still, with a sneer on her lips.

In this damn world, what does it matter who I am? What would happen if I were Yang Yi? So what if I'm not Yang Yi?

Just destroy it! The whole world, the whole universe, all people, all life, all meaning, all destruction! All gone!

Let everyone despair in the darkness, let the world collapse in front of them, let them feel fear and panic, let despair follow them at any time, let darkness, heaviness, stagnation, and coldness fill their hearts, and let them fall into the bottomless world at any time. the abyss...

…just like me…

Standing in the moonlight, she gradually felt weak all over, as if all her strength had been drained away. However, an inexplicable stubbornness kept her standing, as if she wanted to go against someone.

How she wished that a terrifying giant beast could come and have a fight with her right now.

She would frantically throw away her reason and any worries, rush over, jump over, crawl over, using her teeth, fingers, elbows, feet, broken bones, fragmented muscles, and the last remaining bit of blood. Wen used the last beat of his heart to fight against it. He used all his strength, all his passion, all his hatred and anger to fight and fight with it.

It had better be extremely powerful, it had better have the sharpest teeth in the world, capable of tearing apart all her flesh and blood; it had better have the strongest limbs, capable of crushing all her bones; it had better have the best teeth in the world. The digestive system can swallow her completely until she completely disappears from this world, leaving not even a trace of dregs...

After standing still for a while, she felt extremely tired, with no strength left in her body. Her legs were as soft as noodles, and her hands were shaking unconsciously - but why she was shaking, she didn't know.

Where is this place? What am I doing here? Where am I going?

A series of questions rose in her mind like smoke in the darkness, but slowly dissipated. For a moment, she felt that none of it was important.

What's important? She doesn't know either.

She looked blankly at the street in front of her. It was a vast, empty street. The street lights were on in an orderly manner, but there was no one around. It seemed like a weird, empty world.

What is she doing here?

She was so tired that her mind was as messy as paste, a pot of porridge, tofu curd, a stone, a piece of wood, or a rusty machine.

She sat down on the edge of the flower bed by the roadside, leaning back weakly, but with nothing to lean on behind, she lay down in the flower bed.

The streetlights shone coldly overhead, like a silent gaze.

'What's the point of living now? It’s better to die! 'It said calmly, without any of the usual viciousness in its tone, it was just a simple description, and even seemed to have a little bit of undetectable compassion.

Yang Yi didn't speak. She stared blankly at the lights above her head and the moon in the sky. Her mind was empty and she didn't think about anything.

'Anyway, your life is tasteless and tasteless. Your food is not delicious, your sleep is not sweet. Even your love relationship has no beginning and no end. You have nothing to care about, no goal to achieve, and you are not alive. The purpose and the meaning of existence cannot be found, so why are you so persistent? What do you insist on? ’ It said calmly that this was the first time it had talked to her in such a chatty tone, like an “old friend.”

'What, give me my body? Yang Yi's thoughts moved, but they were lazy and weak.

'I'm you, I'm just making your life easier. ' it said pitifully.

Yang Yi didn't speak. She glanced at the night sky for the last time. At this moment, there was nothing in her mind.

Gradually, she closed her eyes.

For a moment, her eyelids moved slightly and slowly opened, as if seeing the world for the first time, and she gave a wanton smile.