After becoming a god on earth, I always want to lie down

She used to think that death could solve all problems, but now she finds that there are problems in this world that are more terrifying than death.

Amidst this panic and despair, the morning light gradually brightened on the horizon.

At this time, it was just after dawn, the morning was just beginning, and everything was silent. She went out with a heavy heart and stood in the garden, looking at the sky in silence.

The morning mist floated over like a veil. After standing for a while, her body was wet with dew, but she didn't notice it and fell into an indescribable panic, as if her weak shoulders were bearing the weight of the entire sky.

She didn't know how to bear the weight, it was too difficult for her. She couldn't see any hope. She longed for some way to support her for a little longer, but she couldn't find it.

Soon, that day will come, and the sky will fall suddenly, crushing her fragile shoulders, crushing her spine, and crushing herself, as well as the entire earth and humanity under her feet, into dust.

Suddenly, a cotton nightgown was draped over her shoulders, and Yang Yi woke up. She suddenly ducked away, with a look of shock in her eyes.

The nightgown fell to the floor, Thomas bent down to pick it up, and threw it to her almost rudely.

"I don't want someone to freeze to death in my garden and get involved in a lawsuit..." He originally wanted to sneer viciously, but after seeing Yang Yi's eyes, he suddenly changed his tone, "It's cold, put it on! "He said in a stiff tone.

Yang Yi silently took it and put it on himself.

"What do you want to say?" Thomas stood next to her, silent for a long time, and finally couldn't help but ask.

Yang Yi's heart was cold and confused, and she didn't want to say anything more, but this desperate situation was driving her crazy. She was eager to escape, even temporarily. She suddenly asked, "...Mr. Thomas, do you have anything? Have you ever experienced being cornered?”

Thomas looked at her in surprise, and then coughed to make his tone less cold: "Friza, if you have any difficulties, you might as well speak up and I will try my best... there will always be a way..."

As soon as these words came out, it was like a floodgate suddenly opened, and the emotions accumulated in Yang Yi's heart spurted out like a torrent. She suddenly shouted in despair: "There is no way! There is absolutely no way! Who can show me a way? There is always a path for people to take in life, but I can't see this path. There is only an abyss in front of me, an abyss behind me, and abyss all around me!"

She looked at Thomas, her eyes were red, and tears welled up in strings. Thomas had never known that a person could have so many tears. It seemed that these tears had been accumulated for decades. Until today, she was not willing to let them go all at once. Let it all out.

"Why? Why? Why does this happen to me? Why me? I'm not strong enough - no, I'm so weak! I'm so cowardly! I'm a maggot in a latrine! No, I'm worse than a maggot No! Anything can destroy me!

"You know? I get scared when I see grandma's raised hand, just like that Pavlov's dog. She raises her hand slightly, and I feel so scared that my whole body goes numb! I'm also afraid of grandpa's lit cigarette bag, Seeing his face blurred in the smoke, I began to feel uneasy...I am so timid, so why? Why does such a responsibility...this burden bigger than the sky fall on me? It falls on me like this On a person who is as timid as a mouse?..."

Thomas didn't know why she was belittling herself so much. She was obviously brave, braver than most people in the world. In order to save him, she even dared to face several ferocious wolves with her bare hands. Who dares to say that he can be braver than her?

Yang Yi took a deep breath, like a drowning person, unable to breathe, and her nightgown fell to the ground again.

Thomas didn't bother with the nightgown this time. He stepped forward to support her, "Friza, that's over. You're here now. It's safe here..." He comforted in a low voice, even he couldn't think of it. He will be so gentle one day.

Yang Yi grabbed his arm with both hands, almost breaking his arm. Her eyes shone with light, like the last glimmer of light in the eyes of a dying person, despairing, disillusioned, and lost:

"How I wanted to escape. I escaped to one city by going to college, and then escaped to another city by working! I thought I had finally started a new life! But why is it still so painful? Obviously everyone looks like this Happy, why am I always struggling? I obviously have the ability, and I am no longer afraid of anyone, but this damn fate, it cursed me, I can't escape! I devoted myself to a great cause , living for them, living for the public, I thought this would make me happy and live more meaningfully, but this curse has never left me..."

What kind of look is this? Her whole body is about to collapse. She seems to want to vent hysterically, but she is controlled and suppressed by a strong self-control. She is obviously trapped in the depths that a person can reach. , in the most extreme despair, but still did not even utter a whimper.

Thomas was struck by her, and a great pity arose in his heart.

"I have tried every possible means to prove that I am not cowardly and that I am brave! I have challenged the things that I fear countless times. Yes, I have succeeded so far! But after each challenge, my fate will be more difficult and more desperate. scene……"

Tears gathered on her chin, one drop after another falling to the ground. She looked at Thomas with a strange and crazy expression:

"Have you ever thought about death? Have you ever thought about how you will die? Have you ever thought about yourself finally turning into ashes? Have you ever thought about your body covered with maggots? - I think about it every day. This is not a punishment , this is the ultimate relief! This is freedom!”

Thomas had never understood the girl's past. He wanted to say some words of comfort, but found that words were so powerless in the face of such despair.

"You ask me why I went to the forest. I tell you, I wanted to prove that I am not cowardly! Prove that I am brave! Even secretly, I hope that I will die under the fangs and claws of the black panther. Why doesn't it stop? More powerful? Why aren't its claws sharper? Why aren't it more ferocious? Cut me open, devour me, and tear me into pieces!

"The black panther is dead. When I bit its throat, I was very happy because I defeated it with my bare hands! I proved my bravery and I am not cowardly! But secretly, I felt a sadness. I realized Come on, I will continue to suffer the tricks of fate! I will never be able to escape its curse...

"Now, it finally shows its most ferocious face, and it drives me to a dead end - no, where is the road? A dead end is a road! And what about me? There is not even a dead end, and even death is so luxurious... "

If death could solve all problems, she would die without hesitation. But if she dies, the only obstacle in front of the evil god's fragment disappears. He will immediately become the master of this body, and all mankind will be his food.

And her life was just lingering, slowing down His progress a little, just like a cancer patient who watched himself being devoured bit by bit, but the final outcome was still the same.

She saw no hope because there was nothing she could do.

How she wished she was a positive fool, holding blind optimism, hoping that the ship would straighten out naturally when it reaches the bridge. That would be great... However, she knew what would happen if she allowed things to continue. Those two blood moon planets , that planet full of yellow sand has already illuminated the future of mankind.

Vader is right, the earth's civilization is not great, and humans are not the children of destiny. The universe is a predator of the jungle, and humans are an accident.

And now this accident will end with her.

"You know what? I can't help it, I can't help it!" She looked at Thomas with empty eyes, and seemed to be looking at many, many people through him.