After rebirth, the ascetic Mr. Li stepped down from the altar for me

He hoped that Jinchu was alive and well now.

That way at least I can still have something to think about.

If Jinchu died, he really didn't know how he could survive with the support of his faith.

By then, he might really die.

It's the kind of disease that is uncontrollable and causes death.

In fact, in the past two years, he fell ill because of excessive longing.

I don’t know how many times I have been to the hospital.

Several times he passed out late at night.

If Jinchu really died, his situation would be even more terrifying than before.

By then, the entire Xu family will be in chaos.

Closing his eyes, Xu Mingyu's tears began to roll down again.

Over the years, what he was most afraid of was a room with no one around and such long and silent nights.

Holding the photos on his phone tightly, Xu Mingyu began to lie to himself that Jinchu was by his side.

Later, the photo was completely useless, so he picked up the pillow next to him.

That pillow was Jinchu's previous pillow.

He has been holding it all these years.

It's just that there is no longer the exclusive taste of Jinchu.

In order to keep the smell going, he would often spray Jinchu's perfume on it.

Givenchy has no inhibitions.

I will also use Jin Chu’s daily shampoo to clean the pillow.

Just like that, the pillow still smells of Jinchu.

With that smell, he began to continue to numb himself with his eyes closed.

Pretend Jinchu is around.

In the past, he was not sensitive to scent.

Now, he is very sensitive to this smell.

He also began to truly understand what people say: "Fragrance is something that can make everything eternal"...

That's true.

When a person smells a familiar smell, his mind will instantly travel back to a beautiful moment in his memory.

Fragrance can really make many good things in life directly become eternal.

Xu Mingyu soon thought about the time when he and Jin Chu were cooking together in the kitchen.

So warm, so peaceful.

At that time, what he thought was the most ordinary thing, the most ordinary night, has become a night that he now wants to go back to in his dreams.

He even remembered every word and every sentence he had spoken to that woman from above.

He told her that if he wanted to break up in the future, he should let her go more simply and not be sloppy.

How awesome and ruthless he was at that time.

However, he never thought that he would become the person he would miss after the breakup.

The person who was not straightforward and sloppy actually turned into him.

But the woman who once loved him dearly and seemed like she could never live without him was the one who was determined to the extreme.

He really didn't blame Jinchu, he only blamed his inhumane self at that time.

If he hadn't made that choice at that time, he and Jinchu's children would be at odds with each other now.

The two of them will be as loving and happy as Qiao Mian and Li Yehan.

A family of three, enjoying themselves happily.

Thinking of that child, the guilt deep in Xu Mingyu's heart began to spread crazily again.

He began to choke and talk to himself——

"Son, it's dad. I'm sorry for you, and even more sorry for your mom. I'm really sorry. If there is a next life, dad will definitely do whatever it takes to make it up to you and mom..."

"You must hate daddy. You chose me to be your daddy, but I abandoned you without hesitation."

"Even if your mother begged me so much, I didn't agree to keep you."

"I also know that my apology is of no use and cannot change anything."

"I also know that the words "sorry" are the most useless things in this world."

"But dad really doesn't know what to say other than sorry. Dad is a sinner. Dad is really guilty."

The more he thought about it, the more Xu Mingyu's heart ached.

He really felt like he was going to die.

Turning off the light, he hid himself in the darkness and cried himself to sleep.

In a place beyond the reach of many people's eyes, the aloof young master of the Xu family, the chairman of the Xu Group, was crying like a tearful person.

And this is not the first time Xu Mingyu has done this.

Xu Mingyu couldn't count how many days like this there were in the past.

……

On the other hand, after Jinchu arrived at the hospital, he went directly to the ward where his grandmother was.

She put all the things grandma wanted to eat on the bedside table.

Then he carefully helped the frail old man sit up.

Her grandmother has terminal lung cancer.

There is no cure.

Before, I could only rely on medicine to barely maintain my life.

But now, there is no way medicine can continue to maintain this old man's life.

She has been completely sentenced to death by the doctor.

It is estimated that in another week, she will be almost there.

Looking at this scrawny old man, Jinchu couldn't help but recall scenes from his childhood in his mind.

At that time, every time after school, her grandma would prepare her favorite lollipops.

Grandma would also secretly give her the money she saved through frugality as pocket money.

Grandma will get her everything she likes to eat.

She even remembered that she had chickenpox once when she was a child, and it was really uncomfortable.

Grandma held her all night long.

Grandma was afraid that she would scratch the pimples and leave scars, so she gently touched those uncomfortable areas with her hands to relieve her pain.