After rebirth, I want to stay away from bamboo horses

"Advanced gastric cancer."

Zhen Xin took the diagnosis report tremblingly, as if receiving a death notice, feeling as if she had fallen into an ice cave.

Zhen Xin didn't know how she got home, she just felt so cold. He mechanically turned on the heating switch. In such a large room, even if the heating was turned on, it was still very cold.

For advanced gastric cancer, one can live no longer than one year at most. The cancer cells have spread. Even if surgery is performed, the success rate is not high...

The doctor's words echoed in her mind, making Zhen Xin's head buzz like a heavy stone.

His whole body seemed to have lost all strength, and he leaned on the sofa dejectedly, holding the medical certificate in his left hand, and covering his eyes with his right hand unwilling to face the reality, letting tears fall silently from the corners of his eyes.

Do you want to tell Qin Shuo?

What should I tell him?

Will he find me annoying?

Tired of crying, he suddenly wanted to hear Qin Shuo's voice. He took out a tissue and wiped the tears from his face. After hesitating for a long time, he dialed the number.

The bell rang for a long time, but no one answered.

The courage Zhen Xin finally mustered up dissipated in an instant, and he hung up silently.

He stared at the dialog box chatting with Qin Shuo for a long time.

I typed "I'm sick", deleted it, typed "When will you come back?" and deleted it again, repeated several times, but still no sentence was sent.

I accidentally clicked on Moments, and Kong Xiuzhu, who hadn't posted a status for a long time, updated it more than an hour ago.

Zhen Xin clicked on it out of habit. In the photo, Kong Xiuzhu had a beautiful face, raised the corners of his mouth, and smiled brightly.

The moment the picture was enlarged, the figure outside the window in the background was very familiar, especially the scarf around the man's neck, which he had knitted by himself last winter.

Zhen Xin looked at the caption again, with mixed feelings in her heart. The tissue in her hand had been crumpled into a ball without knowing it.

In the empty room, Zhen Xin muttered to herself:

"So, Qin Shuo is with Kong Xiuzhu now, so it's not convenient for him to answer my call?

He never had time to go shopping with me, but he had time to drink coffee with Kong Xiuzhu. Sure enough, it was so obvious whether he loved me or not!

I should have known, should have recognized the reality, that after so many years of hard work and entanglement, I still couldn't make him fall in love with me.

Qin Shuo has been waiting for so many years and has achieved great success in his career, probably just for this day, in order to be strong enough to stand in front of his beloved.

Now, the lovers are finally reunited, and it has nothing to do with me. It had nothing to do with me in the first place... Hehe, I am like a joke, hehe, I am so ridiculous! "

The tears in Zhen Xin's red eyes slid down her newly dried cheeks. As I cried, I curled up on the sofa and fell asleep without realizing it.

The phone dinged, and a message came in.

Zhen Xin woke up from hunger and his stomach growled. He rubbed his swollen eyes and got up to cook.

The doctor told him not to starve himself. His body was already very weak. He should try to eat more light, easy-to-digest, and nutritious foods and avoid those irritating foods.

Zhen Xin had no appetite, so he only cooked some white porridge. The casserole was boiling, and he stirred it with a long spoon to prevent it from sticking to the pot.

He took the mobile phone in his pocket and was about to check the time. The screen lit up with an unread message.

It's Qin Shuo.

Qin Shuo: We were in a meeting just now. What’s going on?

The cold words revealed a hint of impatience, just like Zhen Xin's cold heart, which had no warmth.

Zhen Xin suddenly felt that the pain in her body was not as severe as the pain in her heart at this moment.

Qin Shuo really thinks I'm annoying and disturbing his good things, right?

There is nothing left to say. Telling him that he will die soon seems to be begging Qin Shuo to take pity on him.

Qin Shuo may think that this is a lie he told to keep him. After all, in his eyes, he told lies and scheming to keep him in the past.

It has been ten years since Qin Shuo finally waited for Kong Xiuzhu. He should have the sense to walk away and make way for their love.

As Qin Shuo's nominal childhood sweetheart, a shady underground lover, Zhen Xin was completely defeated in this unrequited love...

He forgot to move his hands, and the porridge in the casserole was already stuck and could not be stirred. There was a burnt smell in the air, just like Zhen Xin's complicated heart at the moment.

Should he pack up his things and leave, or should he wait for Qin Shuo to come back and give him an "expulsion order"?

Zhen Xin did not reply to the message.

Turn off the heat, scoop out the intact layer of white porridge, blow it cool in bites, and eat slowly.

The food was tasteless, and I swallowed it all together with the bitterness in my heart.

This separation may be forever. Zhen Xin is still a little reluctant to part with it. She wants to see Qin Shuo's face and listen to his voice again.

Three days passed in such a hazy way, eating on time and taking medicine on time, borrowing time from God, and waiting for Qin Shuo to come back.

When Qin Shuo came back after a long journey, Zhen Xin was sitting on the sofa, looking at the medical certificate in his hand in a daze.

He was startled when he heard the sound of the key turning and opened the door. He quickly opened a magazine on the coffee table, folded the medical certificate in half, and inserted it.

Immediately, the lights in the living room came on.

"You're at home. It's already dark. Why don't you turn on the lights?" Qin Shuo put on his slippers and went in. He turned on the switch and found Zhen Xin standing beside the sofa numbly.

"I just fell asleep accidentally," Zhen Xin lied and clicked her nails in a panic, "Why did you come back suddenly?"

"What? You don't want me to come back?" Qin Shuo's voice was cold.

"No, how could it be?" Zhen Xin stepped forward, took his coat skillfully and held it in her arms. The coat was covered in the cold air outside, and her hands were a little cold. "It was just too sudden. I didn't prepare a meal for you."

"No, I've eaten." Qin Shuo put the gift box bag in his hand on the coffee table and sat down, "Here it is for you."

The exquisite bag, printed with Cocolate's logo in colorful colors, is very eye-catching. Qin Shuo also took it with him when he went on a business trip to Country M a few years ago.

"Oh." Zhen Xin was stunned for a moment and put her coat on the back of the sofa with a calm expression.

"Don't you like the chocolate here?"

"No, this chocolate shop is delicious." Zhen Xin forced a smile, carefully took out the gift box from the bag, pulled off the ribbon and opened the box.

What caught my eye were chocolates of various shapes. Although the box was the size of an A4 paper, there were only a dozen pieces of chocolate inside.

He raised his eyes to meet Qin Shuo's gaze, as if he had to see him eating with his own eyes to believe it.

Zhen Xin put her thumb and index finger together, picked up the smallest piece, and put it into her mouth. The taste was delicate and fragrant. Zhen Xin pretended to smile happily.

Qin Shuo seemed satisfied and stood up: "You eat slowly, but don't eat more! I'm going to take a shower first."

"Yeah." Zhen Xin looked at Qin Shuo's back going upstairs, turned around, took out a tissue, and spat out the chocolate in his mouth. Wrap it in paper towels and throw it in the trash.

He quickly poured a glass of water and rinsed his mouth to get rid of the sweet taste in his mouth. He doesn't like chocolate and stopped doing that a long time ago.

Every time Qin Shuo goes on a business trip, he always brings some back no matter where he goes. Zhen Xin felt every time that Qin Shuo was deliberately reminding him through chocolate!

Reminding him to never forget that Kong Xiuzhu is the person he loves most!

Zhen Xin couldn't help but think of the first time Qin Shuo made chocolate with his own hands.