After rebirth, I want to stay away from bamboo horses

Didn't Qin Shuo always dislike taking pictures?

And why would you carry a photo of yourself in your wallet?

Zhen Xin was confused and suddenly asked: "Qin Shuo, I haven't asked you yet, why do you never like taking pictures?"

Qin Shuo was stunned when he heard this, and stopped moving his hands for half a second: "Why do you ask this suddenly?"

"It just... suddenly occurred to me, and I'm a little curious." Zhen Xin thought about Qin Shuo's previous life, and never took a photo of him. The two of them didn't even take a group photo. Zhen Xin thought that it was because Qin Shuo didn't want to be with her. An excuse to have a relationship. In this life, I keep my distance knowingly and don't force myself too much. "If you don't want to say it, forget it..."

Qin Shuo: "It's nothing. It's just because of that woman, she lied to me!"

That woman?

Qin Shuo continued: "My mother lied to me. She said she was going on a business trip to a far away place and would not be able to come back for a long time.

I asked her, what should I do if I miss her? Could you please stop going for so long? She said no.

When she left home, she put on makeup and took me to take a group photo, saying she wanted to record this moment. "

Qin Shuo said, his thoughts flying far away.

The weather was very good that day and the sun was shining brightly. Xiao Qin Shuo happily took his mother's hand and went to the photo studio.

"Mom, you look so beautiful today!" Xiao Qin Shuo thought that his mother looked particularly good-looking in a red dress that day.

"Shuoshuo, you are so good!" His mother touched his little face, "Let's take a group photo together."

"Mom, why are we taking pictures?"

"Because the photographer uncle can help us record this moment. If you miss your mother in the future, you can take out our group photo and look at it. This is called seeing things and missing people."

"Why do I miss people when I see things? Mom, aren't you coming back?" Little Qin Shuo seemed to sense something. Qin Shuo pouted aggrievedly and asked, "But, I don't want to just see your photos. I want you here with me.”

"I'm sorry, Shuoshuo, I... I'm afraid I have to leave for a long time..." Lin Yu wiped the tears from her eyes.

"It's okay, mom, don't cry. You can go and do your work. It doesn't matter if you have to go for a long time. I will take your photos and miss you. Then, I will wait at home for you to come back." Qin Shuo couldn't watch his mother cry. , quickly put away his lonely mood, smiled sweetly, and looked at Lin Yu.

"She left for three years and only came back to see me twice. Every time I thought she would never leave when she came back, but I didn't expect that she only stayed with me for half a day, bought me toys and then left.

I didn’t understand why my mother couldn’t stay because she was so busy. I could only miss her in front of the group photo.

It wasn't until three years later that I found out that she died to give birth to a child for her lover!

I just discovered that she had been lying to me all along when she said she loved me!

My waiting for her was fruitless from the beginning. The day she decided to leave home, she never thought about coming back to me.

Three years ago, she left her husband and son for her love. Three years later, she sacrificed her life for the consummation of love with her lover!

I suddenly realized that in her life, my father and I were just a joke, and even a stumbling block in her pursuit of happiness!

In her heart, I am nothing at all and can be abandoned at will..."

Zhen Xin was touched, and his parents never told him about Qin Shuo's mother. It may be that Qin Yuan felt that the family scandal should not be publicized and did not reveal it. Zhen Xin also knew about it for the first time.

I didn't expect that Aunt Lin's departure would hurt Qin Shuo so deeply. No wonder Qin Shuo never mentioned Lin Yu.

Qin Shuo said, his mood getting lower and lower, and he smiled bitterly: "I hate taking pictures, and I hate the false smiles of people in front of the camera against their will. Photos can freeze the beauty, but they also record the hypocrisy at that time!

People seem to think that by taking a photo with me, they can occupy a corner of my heart, allowing me to see things and think about people. It's as if having a group photo left me with thoughts, and you can easily leave and abandon me.

But I don’t want those photos to be a thorn in my heart and the source of discomfort every time I see them!

I don't want to look at the photos and recall the bad things, so I have to let go of the good things as well. "

So that’s it!

Zhen Xin never asked before. She only regretted for a long time that they never took a photo together.

Zhen Xin looked at the photos in her wallet again, and finally couldn't hold it back anymore, so she asked: "If that's the case, why do you keep my photos?"

Hearing this, Qin Shuo stopped moving with the hairpin in his hand, turned his head and looked at the wallet on the ground, which was open.

As if a secret that had been buried for a long time was suddenly discovered, he moved his butt guiltily, moved to the wallet, covered the wallet with his hand, quickly closed it, and held it in his hand.

"Ah...that..." Qin Shuo wanted to scratch his head in embarrassment, but his hands were handcuffed and couldn't. "I...I thought it looked too good, so I kept it."

"Don't you like it?" Zhen Xin teased, "What do you keep it for? Do you miss people after seeing things?"

However, Qin Shuo lowered his head and said "hmm": "I still can't bear to part with you. I have to keep this photo. Otherwise, I may forget your appearance during the three years I have been in country M."

Hearing this, Zhen Xin's heartstrings were plucked: "Why do you remember my appearance?"

"Because I don't want to forget." Qin Shuo continued, "We grew up together. I forget no one, and I don't want to forget you."

Zhen Xin sighed, not knowing what to say. She just felt that it was strange that her photo was left in Qin Shuo's wallet: "I don't even have this photo, please give it back to me."

Qin Shuo: "Do you really want it...? Can I not give it to you?"

Thinking of the three years he spent away from home in country M and those sleepless nights, this photo was his only comfort.

He was extremely lucky that he managed to develop the photo and hid it in his wallet.

Qin Yuan asked him to cut off all contact with the country and reflect on his mistakes. He was exiled to the "lonely wilderness" of country M like a homeless man. Without this photo to accompany him, he would not have known how to survive the three years in country M.

Qin Shuo can fall asleep only by looking at Zhen Xin's smile in the photo every day. When he wakes up, he must take a look at Zhen Xin's face.

He has seen that photo countless times and touched it countless times. It has listened to his words, it knows his thoughts, it understands his concerns, and it understands his timidity!

It is no longer just a photo, but Qin Shuo’s spiritual sustenance!

Zhen Xin was a little surprised: "But it's me in the photo! I have the right to the portrait."

Seeing that Zhen Xin was a little moody, Qin Shuo quickly said: "I know, I know, but...but this photo has been with me for many years, I..."

While they were in a stalemate, there was a rustling sound of unlocking on the door.

Zhen Xin and Qin Shuo looked at each other, silenced each other, and looked at the door warily.