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People always feel sleepy at night. As children, Ziqing and Mumu had already fallen asleep. Qin Jian asked Shui Yubei to cover them with quilts and yawned non-stop.

"Master, are you sleepy?"

Zhang Yan squeezed over, but because he was lighting fires and sawing wood, he didn't dare to hug Qin Jian now that he had buried Gu Tai's.

Shui Yubei took over Qin Jian's needlework and comforted her softly: "Staying up late is not good for your health. Go to sleep quickly."

Qin Jian felt at ease and left the job to Shui Yubei. She was very sleepy now, so she simply found a clean bed and slept on it.

Now Qin Jian doesn't want to go back to the room where she is alone.

She stared at those wooden boxes in trance, those wooden boxes that were about to be filled with lost lives, and she suddenly became afraid of these wooden boxes.

A fear of life lost.

Qin Jian fell into silence slightly tiredly. Late at night always makes people feel emo. These wooden boxes reminded her of her failed death education and her family who were terrible to her.

Rather, she is an outsider in the family, incompatible with the rest of the family, like an outsider invading the home.

Mother and father, grandma and grandpa all seemed to regard her as a transparent person.

Perhaps when he was younger, his grandma and grandpa would have liked him more, but those memories were so long ago that Qin Jian had almost forgotten them.

When she was still young, her mother took her to attend her grandfather's funeral. When she asked, "What happened to my grandfather?", her mother suddenly responded hysterically and with extremely malicious remarks: "He If you die, you will be burned to ashes immediately, and you will never be able to think again!"

Then her mother's ferocious face stared at her with hatred: "Sooner or later you will die! You will also turn into a handful of ashes! Be buried in the dark and moist soil!"

After accepting such threats, Qin Jian suffered from insomnia for several months. She began to fear sleep, fear of losing consciousness, and fear of death.

Her mother's words were like a demonic voice that lingered in the mind of young Qin Jian.

Qin Jian didn't know how to reconcile with such a demonic voice or such a mother, and no one had ever given her an answer.

Qin Jian doesn't know how to get along with children or other people.

Likewise, she doesn't know how to get along with her elders.

Although her childhood was not lacking in food and drink, it was painful and depressing.

Her parents only gave her suppression and discrimination. No one ever praised her gently or affirmed her.

Even when she was in elementary school, she ranked first in the class for her first math test, the answer she got was just: "It's just that she was first in the class, and she didn't get first in the school." "It's useless for girls to work hard and grow up." A boy will overtake you if you do just a little bit." "It's useless to study so much, because you don't want to get married." "Mathematics is a boy's strong point, and your success in the exam is just a simple thing you learned in primary school."

No one would confirm her or encourage her. Although her parents rarely spanked her, it was just that Qin Jian was more obedient.

However, their mental bullying of Qin Jian continued.

Qin Jian didn't even dare to get sick, because if she let her mother know about her illness, her mother would scold her, why would she cause trouble for them again? Why did you scold her for spending money indiscriminately? Why didn't she take care of herself? Why do you have to be sick?

He would even say: "If it weren't for the kindness of your mother and me, your grandma would have thrown you into the water and drowned you. Now the country insists on forcing only children, but if you were left, our old Qin family would have no future! You actually How dare you get sick? If I had known you were in such bad health, I should have thrown it away from you in the first place!"

Her mother would scold her while accompanying her to the hospital and pay her to register for medical treatment. After seeing the doctor, he would scold her for spending so much extra money. She was really losing money.

The father often became invisible at this time. He smoked and read the newspaper and would not even look at the mother and daughter.

He rarely scolds her, but he never cares about her. Even if she is sick, he will not look at her twice. He will even go to other people's houses to play mahjong and drink with friends because there is no one to cook at home. restaurant.

After seeing the doctor, he would scold his wife and Qin Jian, scolding them for spending his money indiscriminately and spending so much!

Not mentioning the money he lost playing mahjong, he would even blame Qin Jian for the money he lost.

"If you hadn't been sick, I wouldn't have played mahjong at all, and I wouldn't have lost any money!"

He pushed all the work at home to his mother and grandmother, letting them and Qin Jian torture each other.

He himself said condescendingly: "Women are the ones who embarrass women the most."

He looked down upon his wife, daughter, and his mother. In his eyes, he was the only human being.

Qin Jian's mental state had been very poor since he was a child. It was not until he met his friend Yan Xuan that he got better.

Yan Xuan is a child in the compound. He is a tough and sunny person with good academic performance. He is the study committee member of the class.

Although the opportunity for them to become friends was that Qin Jian failed to pay tuition and fees on time, they later became good best friends.

It's a pity that Qin Jian was allowed to have a second child during the college entrance examination, and she immediately had a young brother, making her living situation even more difficult.

In order to collect a RV as a gift for their newborn brother, the family even wanted to sell her to a 50-year-old bachelor.

If Yan Xuan hadn't persuaded them: "You can catch a better husband-in-law in exchange for more betrothal gifts after finishing college." In this case, the underage Qin Jian would have been sold to an old bachelor by them long ago.

After being admitted to college, Qin Jian, with the help of Yan Xuan, immediately cut off all contact with her family.

Although the family relationship is broken, the memory cannot be completely abandoned.

These memories made her extremely painful every time she thought about them.

Her academic performance has never been top-notch, she cannot become an elite, and it is even difficult for her to find a suitable job.

She is so ordinary, but has no way out.

"Master, why are you crying?"

Zhang Yan stretched out his hand and gently wiped away her tears.

The old layman who had been nailing wooden boxes noticed her condition. She sighed softly, moved her old body to Qin Jian's bed, rubbed her hands on her clothes, and gently touched Qin Jian. The crown of hair.

She didn't know why the always strong little baby was crying. It was probably because she was too tired and in too much pain.

"You've done a good job, it doesn't matter."

She said softly, as if the caress and care of an elder's old hand were so precious.

This made Qin Jian burst into tears, and she lay on the pillow and let out a dull whine.

The old layman sang softly, coaxing Qin Jian like a young child to sleep. Her voice was like an old blue whale, long and long, which made people feel at ease.

Qin Jian fell into a deep sleep.