Mr. Qin raised a strange little lolita

Shi Bei

My name is Shi Bei. I was born as a favored little princess in the Shi Kingdom because my mother was the emperor’s favorite imperial concubine.

I don’t have any older brothers of the same age, only a few older sisters with whom I am not very close.

So Zhou Shen, who was not much older than me in the general's mansion, immediately attracted my attention at a palace banquet.

Food is also human nature.

He is very good looking and I love sticking to him.

The Emperor, the Empress, and his parents all joked together: Look how happy Xiao Bei is. Haha, Xiao Bei, Xiao Shen, why don't you get married when you grow up?

I clapped my hands happily: Okay~ Brother Zhou Shen, I like you~ When I grow up I will be your... uh... woohoo, I'm hungry, mother.

I rubbed my stomach and pouted, then ran into the hall to eat without finishing my words.

Time flies so fast. I have grown taller and my mind has matured a lot, but I still like to follow Brother Zhou Shen, because for so many years, Brother Zhou Shen was kept in the palace by my father, and he and my other brothers studied under the same ancient martial arts master in the palace. Therefore, except for my mother, I spend the most time with him.

He treated me very well, like a younger sister. He cared about my schoolwork and my ancient martial arts learning, and occasionally took me out of the palace to play.

But gradually I found something was wrong. He refused to accept the beautiful beads I gave him, nor did he accept the handkerchief I gave him.

I also asked for a beautiful pendant from my father, but he still refused to accept it.

He said the gift was too valuable and asked me to keep it myself.

But at that time I only wanted to give it to him, and I was depressed for a long time because of this, thinking that the gift was not to his liking, so he didn't accept it.

He grew taller and stronger, and the ancient martial arts master praised him for his excellent talent, but gradually there was nothing left to teach him.

It was impossible for him to live in the palace forever, so after his ancient martial arts master told him that he could complete his apprenticeship, he moved to the general's residence.

From then on, I had fewer and fewer opportunities to meet him.

He might come to the palace two or three times a month, never staying overnight and leaving after lunch.

I tried to persuade him to stay, but he patted my head meaningfully.

[Little princess, do you really like me that much?]

[I really like it.] I said.

[Then give me some more time, I will try.]

I don't quite understand when to give it a try.

He called the palace maid to take me into the palace, and then he left with a sigh.

When he was fourteen, there were some unusual movements in the neighboring small countries, and Zhou Shen volunteered to go and suppress them.

The night before he left, I sneaked out of the palace and gave him the peace pendant that I had asked for.

[Brother Zhou Shen, have a safe journey. I will be waiting for your triumphant return!]

He took the peace pendant and smiled gently.

[Thank you, little princess. I am leaving now. Princess, please go back.]

I watched him walk out, feeling a little sad, and sneaked back to my palace. A dark shadow pressed down on me and covered my mouth.

Qin Ze!

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He was sent by the State of Qin as a hostage when I was ten years old. He is two years older than me.

Now I am thirteen and he is fifteen.

He has been with me for three years, and has silently bullied and cared for me for three years.

I can't really describe my feelings towards him.

His fair face looked unusually ugly, as dark as ink.

[Little princess, do I have a peace pendant?]

I am helpless.

[He is going to fight, you don’t need someone to keep him safe.]

[Hehe, you will always chase him wherever he is. My company may just be company, but his is more than just company.]

I don't understand.

What you said is so profound. I don’t understand.

[What did you say.]

[Nothing to say. Go to sleep. I had a few drinks and just said those words drunkenly.]

[So you are just talking drunkenly. Then why don’t you sober up before going to bed to avoid a headache. Afu, bring me some sobering medicine.]

[Yes.]

No one mentioned it again that night, and I really thought he was just talking nonsense when he was drunk.

Time passed quickly. Zhou Shen stayed in the border areas for a year before returning to Beijing. He had quelled all the rebellions in those small countries.

During this period, Qin Ze was still with me as usual. He would always dirty the beautiful clothes I wore to the palace banquets, and I would get angry.

But he cares about me very much. He remembers what I like to eat and takes me out of the palace to eat delicious food. Plus, he has a handsome face, so every time I get angry, I only get angry for a few seconds and then it’s gone.

The next time I saw Zhou Shen was on the road outside the palace. Many people were standing on both sides of the road. I went there not early and had to be squeezed at the back. Looking at the mature man in silver armor on the tall horse, I had a feeling of familiarity yet strangeness.

Then I heard an old lady next to me say, "Hey, is there someone in the general's arms?"

I looked carefully and saw that he was indeed holding a woman in red in his arms, with the corners of her red clothes showing brightly and flamboyantly. I looked at his expression full of hidden pity and stood there in a daze.

This was the first time I saw such an expression. He had never hugged any girl so intimately.

When I felt tears falling from the corners of my eyes, a hand quickly wiped them away for me.

It was Qin Ze who went to jail out of spite.

Before this day, he was in a bad mood and seemed to have that kind of thought towards me. I couldn't tell when he started to have that thought, and I didn't know how to respond.

So he angrily locked himself in jail and refused to come out.

[Little princess, he doesn’t love you, but I’m here.]

He hugged me and coaxed me.

[I love you more than he does, if you just look at me more.]

My pearls were piling up, and I numbly followed the army back to Beijing. He followed me. I watched Zhou Shen tenderly and lovingly carry the woman in his arms back to the general's mansion, and shouted, "Go call the imperial physician!"

[Don't be afraid, the imperial physician will be here soon.] He was coaxing the woman in red, and I looked up at the sky and wiped away the remaining tears on my face.

[Qin Ze, let’s go back.]

Qin Ze nodded, hugged me and quickly ran into the hall.

[Waste, Afu, make some ginger soup for the little princess.]

Qin Ze pulled back the quilt and hugged me.

The light in his eyes flickered and was unclear.

[Little princess, do you really like him that much? Why?]

He has four years longer than me.

I looked back and found that he was distracted.

[Qin Ze, when did you fall in love with...] Mine.

[A long time ago, otherwise why would I have time to come to you. Little princess, although I don’t have anything important to do here, to put it bluntly, I am just a dependent, but if I don’t want to, I can stay in my palace and not go anywhere.]

[If I had known you first, would everything be different?]

He got up.

He said calmly: [Go to sleep, little princess. We can talk about it tomorrow. Go find him and get an answer tomorrow.]

[What about you?] I called him.

[Go where I should be now.]

I held his hand and wouldn't let him go.

[You are still angry with me, Qin Ze, he doesn’t want me anymore, do you not want me too?]

Qin Ze chuckled and touched my chin, his tone helpless.

[I won’t abandon you. But little princess, greedy people will lose a lot in the end. I, Qin Ze, don’t like to share my heart with others.]

[It may be cruel, but you have to choose. If you choose him, he may not be by your side, but if you choose me, I will definitely be there.]

[Little princess, do you want to choose now?]

I opened my lips, but was silent for a moment.

He touched my lips with his hand, I sniffed, and he came closer.

[In my world, you are the only one.]

I saw the deep and sad emotions hidden in his eyes, clenched my hands, then released them and wrapped them around his arm.

She said softly: [Qin Ze, I choose you. Please don’t leave today, I will treat you better in the future.]

[I think I can lose him, but now I lose you, it hurts more.]

I finally understood that he spent four years to match the eight years I spent pursuing Zhou Shen.

Especially in the year since Zhou Shen left, he has been almost everywhere in my world, and his presence has become a habit to me.

No one is irreplaceable, and it's time for me to say goodbye to the past.

Qin Ze stayed with me all night. His embrace was so warm and I loved it.

He would not be like Zhou Shen, who refused the things I gave him, nor would he refuse to come to see me even though I had looked for him many times.

The next day, before the palace banquet started, Zhou Shen came to me in advance, looking tired and a little guilty, saying: "Princess, I hope we can cancel the engagement. I can't delay you."

[I still don’t have feelings for you that go beyond siblings, I’m sorry.]

A trace of sadness welled up in my heart, but I felt more relieved.

[Okay, go talk to your father.]

I agreed. What doesn't belong to me will never belong to me. I thought it through at night. In fact, who can be irreplaceable? I don't like him that much anymore.

After not seeing him for a year, his image has gradually become blurred.

[Zhou Shen, someone finally replaced each other.]

[I was sincere and really wanted to be with you, but I don’t know whether you have it or not. From now on, I hope we can be well.]

Later, I thought about it for a long time, how could a person take root so deeply in his heart so quickly, and slowly I understood.

That woman has things that I don't have, and also has many qualities that other Chinese girls don't have.

The Miaojiang Gu tribe is born charming, and her plans and methods are destined to make Zhou Shen feel unprecedented excitement.

They might be suitable, but Qin Ze and I can also live well.

If there is no accident.