After I was killed by domestic violence, I violently raped my whole family

Chu Shuyu's gentle voice gently brushed the tip of Zhao Gang's heart, and the irritability in his heart was slowly soothed.

"You don't have a good relationship with your family?" Zhao Gang looked at Chu Shuyu.

Chu Shuyu didn't feel embarrassed at all, "No, this is not a secret. People around me, including An An, Jing Huan, and Xiao Zuo, all know it."

"Time flies so fast. It's been almost 8 years since I returned to the city."

"Back to the city?"

Chu Shuyu nodded, "I am an educated youth who went to the countryside in the 70s. My brother and I were the only two people in my family. I was not yet eighteen years old at that time. My parents were reluctant to let my brother go to the countryside, so they sent me out. ....”

"It's so hard in the countryside. I have to work as an educated youth and in the fields every day, leaving early and coming back late. When I was 21 years old, due to some unavoidable reasons, I got married."

"I don't like it there. The people there are not at all as simple as everyone said, and they are full of calculations. I also received a high school education. I have my own ideals and ambitions. I am willing to contribute to the construction of the motherland. , but I am not willing to face the loess and turn my back to the sky for the rest of my life, and I have never given up and come back."

Zhao Gang endured it but couldn't hold it back, "What is the last resort you mentioned?"

Chu Shuyu smiled slightly and said, "I have been spread rumors."

Zhao Gang was stunned, "Is this why you got married? Don't you have an explanation?"

Chu Shuyu laughed out loud, "You are still too naive. In this society, as long as a woman is exposed to pornographic rumors, no matter whether she is innocent or not, she is already innocent."

“At that time, people of the same sex around me were ashamed of me and pointed at me like a snake or a scorpion, as if I was a dirty piece of shit.

Some people of the opposite sex around me even think that I am the kind of person who can be messed with by anyone. They talk dirty to me, as if they are looking at a product. They all focus on me and look at me, and they are even eager to try... ..”

"I tried hard to hide my edge, but I didn't even have a chance to bloom, so I was stepped into the mud. Later I met An An and heard her say something, and I understood a truth."

"For women, beauty plus any other card is the best, but alone it is a pure disaster. I am a young girl from other places, educated, and one of the best in looks in a remote country. I have a gentle temper, but also Being helpless attracts a lot of flies with ulterior motives."

Chu Shuyu picked up the cup and took a sip of tea and continued, "After the incident, the educated youth in the educated youth area blamed me for bringing down their reputation and ostracized me.

The female educated youth refused to live in the same dormitory with me, and no one wanted to go with me when commuting to work.

The old bachelors in the brigade often find opportunities to block me and even knock on my door at night.

During that time, my mind was tense every second, I lived in fear all day long, and I wanted to commit suicide several times. "

Even though so many years had passed, Chu Shuyu still had a hint of sadness in her tone when she thought of the hardships of those years.

"My ex-husband was the only person who extended a helping hand to me at that time. In an environment surrounded by wolves, I seemed to grasp a life-saving straw and tightly held his extended hand."

Speaking of this, Chu Shuyu chuckled, "After getting married, by chance, I realized that everything I experienced back then was planned by their family, and like a fool, I regarded their family as life-savers. benefactor."

"Later, the country resumed the college entrance examination, and educated youths from all over the country used all kinds of skills to find their own way back to the city. Many educated youths who had already married and had children in the countryside abandoned their wives and children. I was the same. I want to come back. In the countryside, I hate them, but I have to depend on them.

When the news of the resumption of the college entrance examination came, I cried loudly in the field. I had finally waited for this day, and I could spread my wings and fly high. Unfortunately, my wings were broken before I could be happy. "

Zhao Gang's heart dropped with Chu Shuyu's tone, he was happy and distressed for her.

"Although I was very careful, I still showed my mistakes. They locked me in the cellar like an animal. I paid a huge price to come back."

Zhao Gang breathed a sigh of relief, "It'll be good to come back, it'll be good to come back."

Chu Shuyu slightly raised her lips, "I thought so too at the beginning. It would be nice to come back and everything could start over. But I thought wrong. My family did not welcome me back.

They feel that I have ruined their reputation. Having a divorced daughter or a divorced girl at home is a very embarrassing thing for my parents, my brother and my sister-in-law. "

"Hurt and rejection from loved ones are the sharpest knives in the world."

Zhao Gang was so dry that he didn't know how to comfort Chu Shuyu, "It's okay. I'm here. You are living better than ordinary people now, and that's enough."

Chu Shuyu smiled slightly, her eyebrows curved, "You don't need to comfort me, what happened in the past has long since passed, and I can accept it and I'm not sad."

"I still have a long way to go in the future, and I don't have the energy to dwell on the past. After all, the past is gloomy and cannot be pursued, but the future is bright and brilliant."

Zhao Gang took a deep breath and said, "Comrade Chu, in all these years, have you ever thought about..."

Halfway through the question, he suddenly felt a little embarrassed to ask, always feeling that he was being very presumptuous.

Chu Shuyu understood, "You want to ask, why didn't I find another one?"

"Haha, at my age, I won't be as affectionate as those 17 or 18-year-old girls who are pregnant with love. Moreover, this kind of thing also depends on fate. When fate comes, I won't turn you away. It won't happen without me. Not force."

"For me now, I no longer need to prove my worth through marriage. I have money, a house and a career, and I don't lack that illusory love."

Chu Shuyu was so generous and generous, which made Zhao Gang a little embarrassed.

"What about you? What's the gap between you and your family?"

Zhao Gang took out a breath and gave an overview of the situation at home.

Chu Shuyu shook her head helplessly, "What a pity, she is a sober and good girl."

Chu Shuyu and Zuo Zuying both said this, which made Zhao Gang feel a little uncomfortable.

Chu Shuyu didn't care whether he felt uncomfortable or not, "If it were me, I would make the same choice as her. A good marriage should improve both their lives and the quality of their future lives. Two people can work together to achieve success." A better life and future, if the visible hardships in the future are not good or even all your money is lost, then why do you have to jump into the pit like a moth?"

"Is it just because of your unreliable mouth and your ethereal love?"

"Furthermore, a man who is mature enough, capable, responsible, and prefers to be incompetent rather than in vain will never lose the girl he likes foolishly."

"In the future, if you meet a girl you like again, remember to protect her~"

Watching Zhao Gang leave, Chu Shuyu's eyes flashed.

"Passing by? Do you think I'm stupid?"